Yuki
Chapter 12

Eva straightened her seat put both hands piled on top of the thighs of the face that turned calm with the look of flat and firm eyes like a noble princess emitting an indisputable powerful aura. Jun Ho's body moved stiffly improving his way of sitting automatically, Eva's aura pressuring Jun Ho to have to respect him, Jun Ho's gaze straight facing the table in front of him.

What's with me? he attacked my psychologist? he pressured me into submissive him? nay! I did not feel any evil intent from him, this was the aura of the ruler, Jun Ho's inner being.

"Jun Ho si." That melodious, calm, and resolute voice echoed in Jun Ho's ear.

"N n ne." Lirih Jun Ho stammered and trembled.

"Tell me everything you know." The sound went back into Jun Ho's eardrum.

"S is everything."

"Do you answer honestly?." Jun Ho did not dare to look at Eva's eyeballs.

"N ne." Jun Ho's hands clasped each other tightly holding back his trembling hands.

"Is that all you're hiding?."

"Ne." Lirih Jun Ho tried to calm himself down.

"Do you have any hidden intentions for me Jun Ho si?." Jun Ho shook his head quickly.

"T no."

"Give me your reason why you want to know more about me?." Jun Ho had never lied or pretended in front of Eva in the first place, only one secret that he had kept, and Jun Ho had said.

"I can't see the woman I love holding back the pain alone, I can't just be quiet, I want to help." Lirih Jun Ho was still staring straight at the table in front of him.

"Thank you, but that's not necessary." Jun Ho's eyes twitched.

"I can't save my mother and my lover. Guilt and self-disappointment always looms over me, haunting every night until you come and ask me for help, there is a glimmer in my heart that no matter what happens I want to heal you, save you, save you, something I can't do first." Jun Ho's right hand squeezed his gray sweater right on his left chest, tears falling down slowly from the corner of Jun Ho's eyes.

"Do you consider me as their replacement Jun Ho si?." Eva's question poked hard at Jun Ho's little heart he choked to swallow his own saliva felt very difficult, Jun Ho was silent.

"You want to redeem your regrets through me, Jun Ho si?." Jun Ho opened his mouth but no sound came out from within that throat.

Only this first time Jun Ho showed others how fragile he had been, the feelings and emotions he had been trying to erase now came to a surface. Jun Ho wanted to go berserk but the powerful aura from Eva made him stifled, he could only cry sobbing with the sound he was holding.

"I can't tell my important secrets to a weakling like Jun Ho si." Jun Ho's eyeballs perfectly patterned his left hand holding his head.

He was right, actually I was weak therefore I wore another mask to hide my weakness, Jun Ho's inner self.

"The person who cannot forgive himself is a weak human being, he will only seek an outlet to make himself feel comfortable."

Every word that came out of Eva's mouth hit hard as the dagger stuck in Jun Ho's chest remained there plunging deeper and deeper.

"The injury is part of your life, no matter how hard you throw it away, forget it, cover it up, the fact that it is part of you will never go away. Jun Ho grew sobbing, he covered his face with both hands.

"Receive the truth, accept the wound with your heart and consciousness, slowly forgive your past self, it will heal your wound and will fill something empty in your heart."

For some reason Eva's current voice was heard changing in Jun Ho's ear, her melodious, calm and resolute voice sounding very gently touching Jun Ho's ear until it slipped into his heart. Slowly the dagger in Jun Ho's chest was pushed out.

"Not all secrets should be known to others, it's okay to hide it so that the heart feels calm, having a lot of faces is not a mistake but a self-defense."

Eva smiled gently, the first sincere smile that was etched into her face and heart.

"Seonsaengnim."

Jun Ho instantly froze to hear the beautiful voice calling out to him, the two hands that covered his face ashen fell limp Jun Ho's eyeballs slowly searched for the origin of the sound. Jun Ho was speechless, one drop two tears flowing after another, his lips trembling.

The blue eyes were closed forming a curved line like a crescent moon, the charming lips were cracking into a beautiful smile showing a row of neat and white teeth.Jun Ho did not want to blink even though his gaze was blurred by tears, the beautiful scenery warmed Jun Ho's sick and empty heart. The tip of the dagger pushed off Jun Ho's chest left a gaping mark wide but Jun Ho had already established himself to slowly accept and heal his past wounds.

"Sometimes knowing a little is better than knowing it completely." Those blue eyes were now staring inside Jun Ho, elegantly Eva stood up stepping leaving Jun Ho alone.

Jun Ho wiped away the tears with a tissue on his desk to regulate his breathing down a lemon that had turned cold. Again I was taught by him, Jun Ho's inner self. Eva returned with a fairly large box and sat back in her place.

"Jun Ho si, thank you." Jun Ho's face looked confused by Eva's words, I should have thanked him, Jun Ho's inner self.

"Today, it's been a lot of fun." Eva then thrust the blue box to Jun Ho, Jun Ho looked at the box and then turned to look at Eva and looked back at the box.

"B mom for me?." Finally for a long time Jun Ho's voice could come out back from his throat despite being stammered and hoarse. Eva nodded, Eva's way of sitting was back to normal as well as the strange aura was gone. Slowly Jun Ho opened the blue box.

"Don't." Eva stopped Jun Ho's hand which stayed a little longer she could see the contents in the box.

"Just open up in your apartment, I don't want to hear that annoying sound of your crying anymore." Eva flat speech.

"Yeah, bad girl." Jun Ho wanted to protest but his strength was drained as he cried earlier, Jun Ho let out a long breath of staring at Eva.

"I'm really like a brother who's finished with his sister hehe." Jun Ho said with a small smile.

"I'm just using the science of a whiny teacher." Eva gave her smirk to Jun Ho.

"I can't deny that."

"Go home Jun Ho si before they finish fixing the electricity."

"All right." Jun Ho stood with a blue box in his right hand.

"Sorry to have forced you to tell me, if there's anything contact your oppa, your oppa will soon fly to Indonesia to help you." Jun Ho pointed at himself with his left thumb arrogantly. Eva rolled her eyeballs. Jun Ho approached Eva patting the girl's head slowly.

"Remember I'm always ready to help you, be careful to go back to Indonesia. If there's a job in Korea stop by the hospital." Jun Ho pulled his hand and passed out of the apartment.

In Jun Ho's car, very curious about the contents of the blue box, Jun Ho slowly opened it, pulling two round objects from the box.

"Weight, what is this?." Two round objects with a square underneath as the base of the ball.

"What am I supposed to do with these two weird things? dark, is this the button to turn it on." Jun Ho muttered, pressing the little blue button next to the red button. The object gave off the light a small inscription appeared on the surface of the ball.

How are you piggy? (pork boy)

Jun Ho almost threw the ball because it was too shocked, piggy is the call of his beloved first to Jun Ho. The writing was slowly lost replaced by the view in a ball, a small garden with blossoming cherry trees, there were two people sitting under a tree a woman in patient clothes and a doctor in his white uniform they laughed happily looking up their hands touching each other on the ground.

"You made me cry a lot today." Jun Ho sobbed his hand stroking the ball fondly.

"How do you know about Hana I'm a bad girl." Lirih Jun Ho looked at his lover's face, the scene was exactly the same as Jun Ho's memories three days before his Hana performed the surgery, they were always laughing together.

Slowly Jun Ho put the ball on his lap to reach the other ball. Pressing the same blue button, a bright light filled the ball of a re-emerging inscription Jun Ho curious memories with which other Hana would come out.

Jun Ho yaahh's... The fighting!.

The deg! The deg!

Don't-don't, Jun Ho's inner.

A middle-aged woman was tilting her body slightly to the right smiling sweetly looking at the face of the boy sitting on his lap looking at the mother with a wide smile.

Jun Ho's crying can no longer be held back he roared in a car in the parking lot of a deserted apartment.

"Bad girl." Jun Ho said in his tears. I don't know how long Jun Ho had been crying his voice was almost exhausted, wiping his face violently stopping his roar. Jun Ho took the ball in his lap with his left hand aligned them in front of his face.

"I miss you guys so much, what a beautiful sight." Lirih Jun Ho smiled faintly looking at his fond memories with the two women he loved the most. Jun Ho's body trembled slightly as his unwillingness that had yet to stop making the two balls in his hand move toward each other as Jun Ho cursed himself at the carelessness he was doing. Jun Ho's eyeball caught something odd, the two balls were still fused together due to the small movement earlier and there was a movement of the two balls. The puppet Hana, herself, mother and little Jun Ho moved closer to each other in the middle of the doll stopped making a unity, one, Hana to her right and Jun Ho's mother with her initial position slightly tilted to the right stopped leaning on Jun Ho's left shoulder was large, and, the cherry blossoms collapsed to the side and sank into the occupied grass they were replaced by twinkling fireflies that appeared out of nowhere surrounding them along with the cherry trees that lost the bright light was changed dark with a crescent moon shining beautifully the points of stars dotted the ceiling of the sphere, a single line of light descended from the ceiling of the sphere depicting the shooting star. Jun Ho was stunned by the sight but it was not over yet, something that appeared between the stars made Jun Ho roar again.

Jun Ho, saranghae.

Piggy-eah, saranghae.

"Gomawo naughty girl." Lirih Jun Ho interrupted his cry.

One day ago Eva was back at her house, Sunday was the day that Eva would not be disturbed, she would spend time from early morning to night in her secret room. Two days ago when Ronggo and the others woke up they were not suspicious of Eva because there was nothing suspicious about her employer.

Now at five in the morning Eva stepped down to the kitchen, the kitchen was still quiet there was only mbok Is with her red apron was waiting for Eva with a smile.

"What kind of breakfast do you want today?." Ask Is who has memorized Eva's Sunday wake schedule and her habits on that particular day.

"Beat sandwich and salad." Eva sat down in the dining chair.

"Well ladies, this is the warm lemon." Mbok Is puts Eva's favorite drink in front of the girl.

The butler deftly prepared his master's breakfast, not taking long the breakfast that Eva asked for was ready for spelling. Don't ask where the other servants are, Eva doesn't want to talk to them because there are no servants in the kitchen other than mbok Is. A fitri? she is Eva's special waitress besides cooking and every Sunday she is put off because Eva doesn't want her day to be interrupted by anyone.

Eva looked at her breakfast for a while and started by eating her sandwiches. Silent, only the sound of the ticking clock from the middle room mbok Is stood waiting for his master to finish with his food. Eva put down her salad chopsticks slowly.

"Thank you." Then, drink a warm lemon.

"May she like breakfast." Mbok Is bowed a little.

"Hm."

Eva stepped back inside her room and locked the door and turned off the lights to make the room security sensor turn on. Eva pressed the secret button to open the door behind the bookshelf and stepped into a black and slightly white room. Eva's feet approached a glass cabinet with a set of white clothes hanging.

Eva opened the glass cabinet with a password replacing her pajamas with that shirt. Eva washed her hands in the sink on the side of the wall and wore white gloves and did not miss a mask covering part of her face Eva walked up to one of the white doors standing still letting the tool his scans recognized Eva's retina, slowly shifting the door to the scent of chemicals. Eva entered the room standing behind a table full of small tubes with colorful liquid. Eva mixed the liquids there to move from one tube to another and recorded them in great detail and neatly

Eva smiled with the results of her research grabbed a needle similar to acupuncture needles but this was shorter and then submerged half the needle into the liquid that Eva managed to make today. It felt enough that Eva raised all the needles from the tubes to place them into the aluminum box to let them stand with an auxiliary device and Eva returned with her other tubes.

Eva seemed to be enjoying her work. The room with two long desks were laid out, two shelves stood in the corner of the room, the first shelf contained empty tubes of the second shelf there were several tubes that had been filled. Four hours Eva spent in her small laboratory carefully saving the results of the study into a closet in the room after everything was done Eva out of the laboratory removing gloves and her mask washing both hands.

Eva sat down on the black sofa, drinking her cold lemon tea from the small fridge in the room. After enough rest Eva stood in front of the other glass cupboard pressing the password, the thick glass slowly came down Eva took a set of clothes to change her laboratory clothes with clothes from a glass tube preparing to do the next experiment.