5 Years of Marriage Without Love
Of jealousy?

The body feels tired because of the journey from Semarang to Jogja, then slowly Blah's eyes closed after replying to each other a short message with Gus Bagas.

Morning began to dawn, Gus Bagas and Ning Aisyah were already in the car, before leaving they were bidding farewell to the Paklik family and also with the Bilah family.

Aisyah last night told about Bilah to Paklik Wahid, because she was afraid that the former husband of Bilah would do evil to her.

"Click, drop the Blade well," said Bagas.

"This Paklik's weapon seems to be in real love after a long time sought a mate by Abahmu," said Paklik.

"Ah Paklik, suck me up," Bagas' face flushed.

The real weight of the heart for Bagas. His heart is eager that Bilah better stay in the pesantren owned by Kiai Irfan but what might be power, they are not halal and Bilahpun still has not answered the proposal from Gus Bagas.

"O Allah, why is my heart so heavy to leave him in Jogja, has this heart been nailed by him, O Rabb," murmured Bagas.

"Bagcases... De.. let's go, "Aisyah touched Bagas' shoulder.

"Astagfirullah," said Bagas surprised.

"You why De? heavy stayingin' Blade in here? patience De, God willing he will be lawful to you" said Aisyah.

"Aamiin's."

Before Bagas left, Blades leave cake for Kiai Irfan and Nyai Zainab. He also cooked for Bagas and Aisyah supplies for the trip to Semarang.

"Mba is confused, Blah seems like a good wife why she cheated on him and also his parents are friendly it is unlikely that they did anything bad."

"Here Mba, don't talk about her husband" protested Bagas.

"Ih. there is jealousy," ledek Aisyah, against Bagas.

Bagas car started running and disappeared from the sight of the Blade. The bar went back into the house.

Dedded dedd

There was a short message that went into the flat object belonging to the Blade.

I wait for your answer to my proposal, please do not answer it too long. I'm sorry that ordinary people don't feel strong too long waiting for your answer.

The blade read it, he took a breath then let out slowly.

"Why does Blah, your face look confused like that?" ask Sarah.

"Gus Bagas Mah, asking that I do not take too long to answer his proposal" said Bilah.

"Three months we're with him, you can see his nature. You should have been able to answer the proposal," said Sarah.

"My heart still can't include another man Mah," doubts Blade.

"Are there only 1 man in your heart? the man who dumped you like shit?" ask Sarah.

Blades shook his head.

"My heart still feels stiff Mah, I'm not ready to fall back in love. I've cooked, Mamah and Dad just have breakfast, I go to the room first yah Mah," said Bilah, as he stepped his feet.

Balah thought of Gus Bagas' request, he prayed last night but God still did not guide him. He laid his body on a large and spacious bed. Recalling the moments of meeting Bagas first made him smile. Not expecting Bagas proposed to him, from the mistake of Blade when holding Bagas hand in the restaurant due to following Ranu with his affair.

"I remember it like a fool, I was wrong to hold hands. Dina's hand turned into a big no flick haha," said Blah behind the room.

Bilah became reminded of her best friend Dina, but she still had a sense of resentment as to why Dina was jealous of her. He opened the blue F-branded app, then he opened Dina's profile.

"My neighbor is the same loe Din, kangen the same mouth chatty loe," said monologue Bilah saw a photo of Dina's profile with white shirt pride.

***

Bilah stayed in Jogja already four days, for four days Bilah has not answered Bagas application. Barah also bought a second car to make it easier for him when traveling. Now his life was not as luxurious as before, but his heart was calmer and much more grateful. With the flow of life full of suffering before, now he was reunited with good people like Paklik Wahid.

"Assalamu'alaikum," Bilah said a greeting.

"Wa'alaikumsalam, eh Nak Bilah," said Bulik Anggun, Paklik Wahid's wife opened the door.

"Bulik, this is bread and cake for children" said Bilah.

"Okay, kid Bilah bothers. Keep on feeding. Subhanallah, if she becomes the wife of Gus Bagas, she will feel at home all day hehe," said Bulik Anggun with his girlfriend.

Blade smiled and was a little embarrassed when Bulik Anggun said that.

Since Bilah lived in the house owned by Paklik Wahid, the young men thought it was Paklik Wahid's nephew. So many ask about the Blade and try to approach it.

When Paklik Wahid told Bagas that many young men were trying to approach Bilah, there was a sense of heat in his chest. But Bagas is quiet because Bilah is not yet a nobody.

"Say the Shaqilah Aini, why have you not answered my proposal," said the monologue Bagas while holding a flat object while reading WA 4 days ago when Bilah asked him about Paklik and Aisyah's conversation with Javanese.

Bagas thought of Blah, when teaching yellow books in class became not concentrated, Bagas looked no spirit. He immediately took ablution and went to the mosque to calm his feelings.

"Yes Rabb... fall in love like this?" mummified Bagas.

Bagas continued to ponder so that Barah was lost from his mind. The more he zikr Blah's face even more shadowy.

"O Lord, do not let this love defeat my love for You" said Bagas.

"De, tell Mba. Whatever the answer from Barah later well," said Aisyah.

"Yes Mba" replied Bagas.

"You why? How is his face agitated?" ask Aisyah.

"There's nothing Mba," Bagas tried to cover up his anxiety.

"It can't be lied to, it must be related to Bilah" Aisyah guessed.

Bagas looked at Aisyah, then lowered his head listlessly.

"Have you answered? You're rejected?" ask Aisyah.

"He hasn't answered my proposal Mba" Bagas replied.

"Well, then why is your face so agitated" asked Aisyah.

"Youth around the house Paklik many are willing to try to approach the Blade Mba," replied honestly Bagas.

"O Allah.So you are restless because of that? Although Mba was only briefly acquainted with Bilah, Insha Allah she was a woman who guarded herself from the slander of the world. The proof is that she has not answered your proposal, if she is a woman who only looks at the world, she will immediately accept your proposal" Aisyah told Bagas.

"Try you look in the mirror, Gus Bagas's face is handsome, pure white, sharp nose, Kiai's son, educated graduated S2 hadith science in Libyan university, property there. Did the Blades see that? no De, he prefers God-given answers from direct guidance given by the Creator, the Creator" he said.

"Yes Mba, I understand now. Why did God answer my prayer when he came with Mba. On a trip together, for 2 days to Jogja. I saw a woman who did not look at the world" said Bagas.

"He seems to be a good descendant of De, the Arab Mamahnya of Indonesia. We do not know yet that the Bilah family in Arabia may be descendants of Sheh. His father is turkish. The way they educate their children to great is seen from the word, courtesy Bilah. Behind a good child there is a wonderful mother" Aisyah told Bagas.

"May I ask him, when does he need time to answer my proposal Mba?" ask Bagas.

"Have four days' been in Jogja, you should try to ask for certainty, if he refuses 'kan you can with the others. With Ning Haya for example," Aisyah mocked Bagas.

Bagas rounded his eyes and looked at Ayesha, he was not ready if Bilah rejected him.

"Your face is so scary, so tense. Help me bring the suitcase to the car. Mas Adnan and Salma are waiting for Mba in the car." Said Aisyah as she stepped her foot towards the car.

Bagas started pushing Ning Aisyah's luggage. Shortly after the suitcase got into the car, they also left to go to Jakarta.

Bagas thought about what Ning Aisya said, he picked up a flat object in his white robe bag.

"I'd better call him, so it's clearer from the intonation of the sound than just WA" Bagas murmured.

Not yet called Bilah, Bagas heart like the sound of a azan bed, beating fast and his hands sweaty.

Hello, Assalamu'alaikum.

Wa'alaikumsalam.

What's up Gus Bagas?

Bagas did not reply to Barah's question, he was silent.

Gus..are you still there? hallo.

I. yes, a. anu.

Complaints of the tongue Bagas when hearing the soft voice of Blade.

Ih Gus Bagas speaking of u-anu, would you like to say what I am? want to talk to me, won't you talk to my Mom or my Dad? Speak Gus, don't be nervous.

When did you answer my proposal? Your iddah time is over.

Now Blah who was silent, did not answer Bagas' question.

Hello... Are you still there?

Yeah, I'm still talking to Gus. I'm sorry Gus can I answer Gus's question in three months? I need some time.

How we like dating well, I have to wait for you to answer this, meaning I have to wait for you three months. I can't take too long.

Gus Bagas annoyed tone at hearing the Blade behind his flat object.

You're angry Gus?

Well angry, who can wait three months without certainty. I'm also worried, Paklik said that the young men there deletin you, so I called you to answer my proposal.

Whahuh? Gus thought, I'll serve them? I am a widow! sorry Gus seems like there's nothing more we need to talk about. Assalamu'alaikum's chat.

The bar turned off his phone unilaterally.

"Wa'alaikumsalam, O Allah he is angry. How about this, I tried to call again," said Bagas full clean.

Bagas tried to call Barah back, but was not picked up. 5 minutes he tried to call this time Bar deactivated his number.

Bilah's phone wasn't calm but she was getting more restless.

Seriate