Adagio |Risk Of Life|
The Adagio 29
...THE WARNING!!...
...Sad Area!!...
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This time, Hyuji no longer knew where he had to go to shed all the rumbling in his heart that increasingly took away the rest of his soul. Even he didn't want to go back to where he used to be treated when he felt the same way, it was too scary to imagine it.
Sitting on a small bench on the beach, a pair of earphones perched comfortably on both listeners, mozart chants accompany his dark time at this time. He also likes the orange twilight time coloring part of the afternoon sky and accompanying his solitude at this time.
It should be, someone from his childhood used to come today. Yes, Hyuji still remembers their promise twenty years ago that even his little friend might not remember.
A sad smile he just circulated while staring at the expanse of gleaming emerald in front of him. Then, he lifted something that he had grasped into the air. A color photo that almost faded, the shape was already a mess because his brother had almost destroyed the only beautiful memories he had.
Hyuji looked at her lovingly, between the twilight orange and also the wind that blew away some of the hairs that had begun to extend until a bitter smile appeared. Sobbing and snarling in a memory.
“I want him here..” he said on the sidelines sobs. Hyuji hoped that the little man was the cure for his despair this time. “I need you! Aren't you going to keep your promise?”
Time has gone by too long, maybe. Hyuji didn't know if the wait would be sweet or vice versa, he just wished he could see his little friend even though they might not be together. Still stunned, Hyuji lowered the photo onto his lap, letting the melt of his tears fall down some side of him until he realized someone had knelt down and tied his shoelaces open.
Hyuji grew sobbing, feeling the tightness in his chest was too tiring, that in the end he cried loudly in front of the young man who was still busy kneeling justifying his shoelaces.
Then, in the next few seconds, Hyuji felt his one arm grabbing gently in a warm grasp.
“Why is Noona like this?”
Even Hyuji didn't tell John where he was right now, but why did the young man even know he was on the beach. John looked up, found Hyuji's messy face sobbing, then looked back with a sore heart while cleaning some of Hyuji's shoes that were soiled by the grains of sand.
Everything is painful and John intends to let Hyuji spill all the burdens he may not be able to feel. He got up and sat in the same place as Hyuji. Not so broad, to make John can summarize Hyuji's sad face completely.
Hyuji looked up after a moment of crying, wiping away the remaining tears that had still not stopped. His eyes and nose are still red.
Hyuji took off the earphones in his ear and started talking. “Why did you come here, John?!” he asked as he continued to wipe the clear liquid from the corner of the eye that could still catch John's shadow looking at him, although faint.
“Actually I have an appointment with someone here!”
Hyuji tries to reimagine his broken feelings, making room for his own heart to be able to accept if only John makes a special appointment with the young man. Then ask, “Love?”
John's two beads fiddled, staring in dislike at the question Hyuji was asking him. “Friends! Just a friend!”
Hyuji nodded in understanding. There is no special bond between them, and Hyuji also does not want to be too big of a head and hopes that John will really express his feelings for him. Hyuji just lets things flow without a certain bond in their relationship. Next, a sour smile rose on Hyuji's lip blade while saying. “Ah, friend yes?!”
“Truly friend. No lie!” john answered, bending his face to make it look convincing. He also did not want to make Hyuji sad.“ even moreThen, what about you? Why are you here Noona?!”
“Just like you, I'm waiting for a friend too! But it seems like he forgot his promise!” hyuji answered trying to hide his bitter smile from John.
“Male, or—”
“Male!” hyuji said before the young John finished his sentence.
John's heart throbbed pain hearing him. However, everything is Hyuji's right, they are not bound by anything.
The sound of the waves crashing into the introduction of twilight which is now lost behind a tall building, sinking with a bubbling feeling rose into the heart. John didn't even budge for a while, until Hyuji reopened his arms when a low-temperature wind sweep greeted the surface of the skin.
“He's my childhood friend!”
John lifted his chin, watching the waves roll between the dim moonlight and the flickering stars that beautify the night.
“Why?”
“She was my first Love!”
Surprising enough, but John who always talked a lot was suddenly silenced like a rock. There was not a single sentence he could utter because he did not even have the right to force a feeling.
John saw his fingers tied on his thighs clad in dark jogger pants with a chaotic feeling. He no longer even had the confidence in front of Hyuji like before, he was nothing.
However, John's feelings are turned upside down as Hyuji continues his old story with a laugh. “We didn't even understand the meaning of Love back then! We only made an appointment to meet here twenty years later!”
John's forehead wrinkled, his bead twitched thinly. He should have realized from the beginning that their meeting here was not an accident. Of course it's impossible, isn't it, all of a sudden meeting like this here? Without a promise?
This time Hyuji noticed John, their beads were turning. And one smile that John always liked came out of Hyuji's cherry-flavored lips.
“I don't even know his name!” hyuji recalled simultaneously rewinding the memory, recalling the adorable face of the kind little youth, with a slightly witty tone to melt the atmosphere. Hoping for John to end up with a funny answer that could make the awkward atmosphere turn out to be like always, fun.
But that didn't materialize, Hyuji instead saw John staring at him intensely. It made Hyuji feel even more strange and stupid.
“Ah, sorry!”
And for the umpteenth time, Hyuji was surprised instead of playing when John grabbed the palm and grasped warmly with the cold air that began to greet. Both of Hyuji's beads noticed how the huge palm was clutching hers.
“Say if you make castles from sand together, then!”
Hyuji nodded for a moment. He should have even realized from the beginning, if there was no such coincidence.
Nailing, Hyuji felt his head tighten. With great difficulty he noticed the figure of John who seemed to have placed hope on him. At first he just wanted to avoid all the more tapered bersamukan in the mind, but it all felt impossible. Hyuji tried to pull his fingers slowly, he recalled his mother's words.
That young man with you is the son of your father's affair!
That means, is John the boy the mother said he was? If it is, it means—
Hyuji shook his head with tears that returned he held desperately, squeezing the sheet of photos that he considered so far to be his strength to survive the storm in the life he lived. Trying to avoid all the feelings of pain increasingly crept his heart which since the beginning was almost destroyed, now more formless. John could only look at Hyuji who was further distancing himself from him.
“Noona, I hope you think the same as me!” john said with the sound of honey that made Hyuji even more cornered. It was impossible if he suddenly just called her a 'sister' without any explanation. “Au—”
“Stop!!” tell Hyuji in a loud voice. His palm floated in the air, signaling John to stop there. There were no questions because Hyuji was reluctant to give an answer. Makes John think he's making a big mistake.
“Noona—”
“We shouldn't be here!”
Surprised, John even shows blatantly if he doesn't like Hyuji's intonation when saying that.
“Don't ask why after this! Because I don't have an answer!”
John is confused by what Hyuji meant by forbidding him from questioning what he should know the reason and why.
And in the next minute, with a raucous voice muffled by the waves, Hyuji said. “Everything ends here! Don't come to the flower shop, I'll pay the rest of the salary you have to receive, and never see me again!”
Hyuji turned around, about to leave behind John who was filled with guilt. For no apparent reason, Hyuji forbade her from asking.
“And one more thing!”
Hyuji really did not want John to know anything about their true status. He chose to keep her alone and away. Burying all the wishes and memories of the beautiful that had been recorded by John in his life that was almost destroyed.
“Forget everything we've done so far, and I beg you never to see me again! Forever!”[]