Adagio |Risk Of Life|
The Adagio 30
Hyuji stood staring at the arrival of a person who was almost thirty minutes ago passing from the hour he set. Thinking it won't happen, he's actually coming. Yes, Joana—ibu John, responded to Hyuji's request to meet. Although some time ago Hyuji was not sure if he would be accepted back.
Smiling warmly, bowing as a respectful greeting, Hyuji had even ordered two glasses of drinks for them.
“Good morning aunty!” hapa Hyuji, but Joana was unmoved, just sharpening her gaze at Hyuji.
Slowly, the smile faded. But Hyuji still tried to make the atmosphere between the two of them not awkward.
“Sorry to disturb aunt!” hyuji said, squeezing his fingers full of anxiety under the table. “But I want to ask aunty.” a breath of worry Hyuji chuckled along with his sentence that he deliberately paused. “One thing your aunt probably won't like when she hears it from me!”
Joana stared uninterestedly at Hyuji, making the girl bow in lethargy with a look full of disappointment.
“You're Princess Song MinJu, right?”
Of course the question made Hyuji again raise his chin to return John's mother's gaze before him. As expected, Joana did not want Hyuji to convolve.
“I-iya!”
It turned out to be true what his mother said, if John's mother was the third person present among them. Hyuji was nervous, his body trembling in fear of accepting the reality that he had been trying to deny for a few days.
“Sway my son!”
Hyuji's bead is glazed. He did not expect that the path he had to take was as pitiful as this. John's mother's request felt more daunting than looking down from a skyscraper. Scaring Hyuji for a moment.
“You shouldn't be together like this! And I hope, you've heard from HyeJin, about what you should have known long ago!”
Hyuji risked the rest of his heart for the last time. And now that the fragile part has been completely destroyed, there is no way he can reassemble it after some time ago he thought everything had improved. But the storm came tighter hitting every inch of him.
Hyuji was silent, unable to chim in until John's mother's voice was heard again.
“You now know that John is your brother! So please stay away from him without hurting his feelings!”
Hyuji will make that happen. But what about her? Hyuji no longer even feels like he has the energy to just talk. Hyuji nodded resignedly, then grabbed the glass containing the already cold matcha tea, then sipped it as a diversion of disappointment and despair that suddenly appeared to the surface, it slurped and billowed like thick smoke in his brain.
“I'll stay away from him secretly!” hyuji replied after the sip of tea had managed to wet his choked throat. Hyuji doesn't even know how the world works to play tricks on him. He was slumped and slaughtered by the reality he lived.
John's mother was relieved to hear it, even the look on her face was not as flat as when she first saw Hyuji, her eyes softened.
“But please, keep our meeting secret from him,” continued Hyuji withdraw attention from John's mother to pay attention to Hyuji who was smiling miris. “And also, let me meet John just once! For the last time! I promise I won't say anything about all this reality!”
It's so sad, his heart feels sliced. Joana could not even hear Hyuji's raucous voice when asking him with a face bowed bitterly and the roar of tears that seemed to slide down. Feeling guilty and sorry at the same time.
“I beg! Mother...”
...***...
After his encounter with Hyuji on Haeundae beach that day, John turns chaotic. He didn't even think Hyuji was the girl in his childhood photo. And now, she has to accept the fact that Hyuji doesn't want her. He was too confident when he first met. He even thought that he would end up happy with Hyuji.
John grabbed the green bottle in front of him, and poured the intoxicating liquid back into the glass, then downed it once more. I felt like my throat was burning.
“Then what's the reason for going until it disappears like this?” mumbling slowly.
John looks so frustrated when the drink is empty as the memory of Hyuji reappears. Even all day she sat in front of the flower shop watching the flowers withering inside, hoping that Hyuji would come, greeting her with a smile in the morning as usual, spend the whole day together in the same place.
Sighing in frustration while clutching his mane, John pursed his lips and closed his eyes tightly. The fear of a word of loss came among his thinning consciousness.
“I have to how..”.
Perhaps, right now people are looking on pity at John. He looks pathetic.
After paying, John walked out of the store, staggered a little because of declining self-awareness. Thinking for a moment, then reaching into the pocket of a black denim jacket that hugs the body, John thinks he is a loser.
“Kak, please pick me up! I don't want mom beating me with a broom handle!”
On the other side of the phone, YoonKi was grumbling with anger, even swearing loudly when John said he asked to be picked up because he was drunk. But he will never ignore the young man who had always considered like a brother.
“Rancid boy!” he muttered as he grabbed the car keys on the table and grabbed a black leather jacket from a hanger in a large wardrobe, walk in closet.
...***...
John's breathing grew heavier, his stomach also churned violently even though he had spewed out almost all of the soju he gulped. Choosing to curl up on the side of the road, rather near a roadside tree, John waited for YoonKi to come pick him up.
Ah, she even keeps thinking that Hyuji is not doing well, with his condition almost down at the moment.
John closed for a moment as cold air blew over the surface of his facial skin, making the nausea flutter come back. His lips began to tremble due to his strength that even felt like it had simply vanished. Then, a shiny black SUV stopped in front of him.
John looked up, and his hope for safety felt real. He was safe because YoonKi was actually standing in front of him, grabbing his hand, then leading himself into the car despite hearing the man making fun of him and swearing him blatantly.
“Thank you for coming Brother Yoon!” he said when YoonKi managed to lay her body in the passenger seat. John sighed deeply and then closed again as his head swirled. He heard the car door close, then felt the car was moving. Followed by the calm and heavy voice that YoonKi had on the air full of questions.
“Why do you do this if you alone cannot cope with the consequences?!” said YoonKi, it sounds ordinary even though it implies the meaning of annoyance in it. “You're always dragging me in the trouble you're making!”
Obviously John heard it, even though he could not afford to give a defense to himself. He only heard YoonKi occasionally clucking and muttering if he would hit him all out if he was conscious later.
“If you have any problems, solve them! Don't make others trouble like this!”
Yeah, it should be like that. John knows very well, but the problem this time felt so complicated that he himself could not find a way out. Everything feels quiet in place. Dead end.
“You are stupid! Hyuji seems to have no interest in you, but you still force yourself to be with him!”
YoonKi is still raving behind the steering wheel. And just as YoonKi's car stopped because the red light was on, John muttered softly with a raucous voice that sounded so crushed. “She left without any news, and I miss her so much!”[]