Ballad First Wife
Will not rejoice

I looked down at the decision letter on my lap. I held my breath so that my tears would not fall again. I'm not sad to part with Mas Andre. I am sad because I failed.

"Still sad?" ask Salman.

“It makes sense for me to be sad, Brother?” my reply.

“Darning Ra. But if you continue to be sad it is not natural.” Alan.

“Iya Brother. Brother Fira don't be sad. Fira has no loss. Brother Fira is beautiful, kind, independent, soft, surely later can be a better replacement. Isn't that so, Brother Salman?” Anita winks at Salman.

“Hem.” Alan coughed and then drank his drink while melengos.

Salman just smiled. “Divorce does bring wounds, Ra. I've experienced it too. After all, love or not love, we must part with the person who has accompanied our lives all along. The sadness must have felt. Remember, our lives must go on. Our lives will not stop just because there are people going.”

"What am I supposed to tell Ryan, brother? He's a kid." I muttered.

"I think Ryan's gonna be okay. Didn't during the remarriage, Andre rarely came home?" said Alan.

"Yes anyway. But Ryan will definitely lose his father figure. The boy had no father and now he had to separate from his father as well." I said bitterly imagining Ryan's fate.

"There's our Ra. Me and Alan" said Salman.

"There's me too, brother. I will often play to my sister to know Ryan." said Anita cheerful.

"Ryan needs a father figure, not a mother figure. Why are you following?" spray Alan on Anita.

"And I could be his friend so he wouldn't think too much about his father. Isn't that right, Brother Fira?" Anita looked at me with a witty smile.

I was amused to see this girl's joy. Anita is really good. A little relieved to know that Miss Riya's choice for Alan was a good woman.

"Can. Play it home!" my answer.

"That's right, Brother Fira just let it go." Anita said she was happy to feel like she won.

"Ck." Alan turned back and drank his drink.

"When are you inaugurated?" Salman changed the subject.

"Who?We?" tanya Alan confirms the question of Brother Salman.

"Yes. You folks. Cook us." replied Salman.

Hearing our words from the mouth of Brother Salman, I immediately turned my head and our eyes met. My chest is back pounding. I directly lowered.

"Ih.. Brother Fira has a red face." Anita's tease.

"It has. Don't tease people. Answer Salman's question." Alan pulled Anita's hair.

"Aw is sick." Anita protested. "Mmm we will not be inaugurated because we are just pretending" Anita replied with a grin.

"Can't you?!?" Me and Salman asked at the same time.

"So like this. My father and his mother, brother Alan, set us up. But Alan and I each had their own choices. So while we pretended to follow our parents' wishes let them calm down. I see." Anita explained.

"You lied to them?" my many. I stared hard at Alan.

"It's not a lie, Ra. You know, we can't get married without love." Alan defended himself. "See your marriage and Salman's. Love isn't everything, but in marriage, it's important. If I don't love someone else, I can accept Anita and try to love her. So did Anita. Because each of us has a moor, so yaaaaa."

"Didn't you say back yesterday" asked Brother Salman with a slight emphasis on his voice.

"I'm indeed backing out. But it can't just disappear, Man." replied Alan. There was a wound in his voice.

"By the way, who the hell is Alan's sister?I want to see you." said Anita.

The three of us were silent. Alan stirred his drink and then sipped it. Salman was busy cutting the steak on his plate. As for me, back to reading the verdict of the trial that I just received.

"Kok everything is silent anyway? You're weird." Anita pouted because her question did not get an answer.

"I have to get back to the office." Alan stands. "You want to go home, why stay here?" ask Anita.

"I have an appointment." Anita replied shortly.

"Yes already. Be carefull! Beware caught!" Alan warned Anita. "Ra, Man, I'm going first."

"Yes" replied Salman.

"Thank you Lan." I replied.

Alan waved his hand and stepped away from us.

"I thought Alan had found a berth, apparently." I muttered.

"By!" call Brother Salman.

"Yes, Brother."  I'm turning. We looked at each other.

"During the iddah period, there is a possibility that Andre will invite a reference. What if it happens?"

"If I want to refer, why would I demand divorce, brother." I replied.

"So?"

"I won't go back." I replied firmly.

Salman smiled. "Recycle your food. We're home."

***

The inauguration day I was waiting for finally came as well. I really wonder where I'll be placed.

"Ryan! Hurry baby! We'll be late."

"Yes Mother. Ryan is ready." said Ryan.

"It's ready, mother." My little man was standing in neat clothes. I rubbed his head.

"The smarter your child. Let's go!" take me. We got out and I locked the door. When I opened the gate, a car came and stopped right at my house. The car's glass opened and I looked.

"I think I got the wrong address, brother." exclaimed Anita from inside her car.

"Anita! What are you here for?" many wonder.

"Put the brother. What else do you want. Enter brother! I'll drop off brother. Isn't today a big day for Fira?"

"But Nit?"

"Come in. It's gonna be too late!"

Hearing the word late, I no longer asked much. I locked the gate and, with Ryan, got straight into Anita's car.

"Where do you know my address and someone must have told you to pick me up?" my guess. In my mind, it must have been Alan who told Anita.

"Absolutely. Brother Fira is a genius. There is someone who loves you very much, who wants to always take care of you, and is always worried about you. She's the one who asked for my help." Anita answered.

"Who, Nit?" ask me even though I know Anita's answer must be Alan.

"Hehehehe. How's dong?" Anita chuckles.

"You're this."

"Hi handsome! You are Ryan. I know my name is Anita."

"Hi Anita." Ryan's reply made Anita laugh.

"Ryan, call Aunt Anita."

"Ih aunt. I'm not old yet brother. Ryan, just call Anita. Don't aunt." Anita's protest made me laugh.

"Anita."

"Yes sister?"

"Mmm no offense, brother wants to ask. Why don't you go hijab?"

"Well! That's the problem, sister." replied Anita who surprised me

"Why?"

"Hehehe...I want to learn from Brother Fira, may I?"

"Oooo so you picked me up because you wanted to?" godaku's.

"Can't papa brother. Symbiosis mutualism" Anita replied.

I smile. Talking to the jolly Anita made my mood improve. In my heart I prayed that God would grow love in Alan's heart for Anita and vice versa. This girl is really nice.

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