Bare With Bastard
I always wait for the right time, but there is never a right time!
"You... Pretty good at pretending!" insinuations Marco.
Ayaz looked up again, the clenched hand was already wet from sweat. He stared intently at Marco, could it be time Ayaz thought.
"I'm not pretending, you're just seeing a part of me" Ayaz said coldly.
"That time, I... Didn't know your mother was pregnant..."
"Suck!" as Ayaz said, "Bughh.." The hand that had been clenched in his head laid on Marco's face, he was not willing to hear Marco's explanation, what else with reason just because of ignorance. Not just not knowing for him, but not caring.
"You don't deserve to explain it! Bastard!" furious Ayaz. He was still throwing his fists brutally beating Marco.
Marco did not initially resist, but if he continued like this he could have died at the hands of his own son, he would not have died before he managed to explain everything, before revealing the truth, if later Ayaz still did not accept, wanted to beat him to death even he had resigned.
Marco resisted, fending off Ayaz's attack, with his skill, finally locking Ayaz in and trying to calm his son.
"I'm not going to defend myself, which I'm going to say is not a defense, it's just that I think you need to know the truth, from my point of view" Marco said, the breath and the breath of Ayaz were so hunting, the gaze of Ayaz seemed so eager to kill him.
"You advised me to kill my real father, so you brought yourself to death" Ayaz said angrily. He thrashed so he could escape from Marco's lockdown.
"Ayaz.." exclaimed Marco, "Nindi, it was your mother who left me, she who left me first, I was even so devastated to learn that she preferred Sian over this poor man, he who left me and told me to forget all about us, I really did not know that your mother was holding you." said Marco, trying to explain what really happened as much as possible.
Ayaz was speechless, wanting to deny, but somehow his ears were even more interested in listening to what Marco was going to say.
"That day I beat up Sian, for my last meeting and Nindi, I hope Nindi remembers that, given that I was so disappointed in her decision."
"He left me for the rich man, the man his parents chose, I was just a haraam dealer, living poor and even living in a place I didn't have, having been dumped and beaten up by Sian, I realized that maybe it was better for Nindi to be with that man, who could make her happy more and more, unlike me, who had nothing to hope for."
"While it's hard, I accept it, I try to accept it, his unknowing decision makes him even more tormented."
"I... Not the slightest bit of my intention to abandon you, after that day, I went far away for many years, other than to seek a better life, I also want to forget Nindi, I also want to forget Nindi, the real person is still lodged in my mind."
Ayaz's body weakened, slowly Marco felt that Ayaz was no longer fighting back, so he could be sure to let go of his lockdown.
"Why, why if you love, why don't you ever look for my mother's whereabouts, see her is that okay?" ayaz asked, so softly, he almost cried.
"I think his decision was the best, he made that decision, it was my fault... Who always thought Nindi was happy." replied Marco.
"My mother and I were so tormented, that damn man always called me an illegitimate child, I can't even forget it" Ayaz said.
"But everything has been in vain, right now I am just a parent who can only ask forgiveness from his son, forgive me... I'm guilty."
"Yaz... You're this big, you're so handsome, you... Just like your father!"
"Yaz...Promise not to hate, hatred will only destroy you!"
"You'll get happy if you change your views, don't hate Nak, I have to part with Mom's family because of some hatred, and... neither can anything be saved because of hatred."
"One day, maybe you'll find out the truth, I believe you won't hold a grudge, I can only beg, throw away all the hate, I'll believe you won't hold a grudge, hatred will only make you go even deeper."
Ayaz recalled her conversation with the Mother in her dream that time. Could it be that what is meant will know a truth that his mother said in the dream is Marco as his real father, his mother said for him not to hold grudges and hate, Marco said for himself, could it be that the real reality is exactly what Marco said.
"What time is it... My mother love you?" asked Ayaz doubtfully.
"Come away!" Marco got up, he took a glass and poured water to give Ayaz, "I can't say that, I'm confident enough this finally had to swallow disappointed, I'm afraid, Nindi always said that she loved me, you know... Even your own mother admitted it first, a vagabond like me it felt like she dared to express love to a princess, well... Even though I love him very, very much." said Marco.
Ayaz received the glass, and then downed it. "I don't want to accept you, it feels so hard."
"I've explained what you should know, next... I leave it to you." said Marco.
"Why don't you just say it." asked Ayaz, well he had to ask that as well.
"Have you ever felt when you wanted it so much, yet somehow it felt like you couldn't." asked Marco.
"You're not that smart, are you?" asked Ayaz again, he did not believe Marco would say that.
"I have to admit, I am a coward! Rejection, disappointment, displeasure, and the thought that you would surely hate me, made it impossible for me to explain all this to you."
"I always wait for the right time, but in fact there is never a right time, everything seems the same, always suffocating me." explained Marco.
Ayaz smiled wryly, did not he and Marco have a little in common, how about him who prefers to avoid, consider as if everything is fine, just like that, he simply did so that he would not engage in conversation about this with Marco. Just like Marco, he was not ready.
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