Bare With Bastard
Loving you! (Marco POV)
'Nindi Rowans''s'. That name, graced the tomb I visited this morning. Alone, so that no one knows how miserable my current condition is.
Strong men won't cry easily, but this time I really can't hold back my tears.
I guess he's happy, I guess he's really happy to leave me and marry that guy, but what? The fact of bringing me here, seeing it just stay name left me weak helpless.
"I'm here, Nindi, you shouldn't have left me." I was torturing myself, the shadows kept swirling in my head, the smile, the laugh, the laugh, there is no more hatred like I always try to forget it all this time.
"I'm here, I'm here." I patted my chest.
"I should have picked you up earlier."
"No matter which child you bear, whether it's my son or not, let me take responsibility, I will..."
"You should come, complain to me, let me beat it, I'll finish him who made you this way. You know who can beat me? I'm strong enough just to protect you."
"My answer is Princess, whose son is Ayaz? Is he my son? Our kid?"
"If you'd come to see me once, it wouldn't be hard to persuade me, I'd only fall in love once, and that person is you, I'd do anything for you."
"I'm here Nindi, still in the same place, next to you."
I wiped away the tears that had soaked my cheeks, a little that had fallen but the scale was excruciating in my chest.
Why did Nindi have to sacrifice, if Ayaz was my son, why did Nindi never come to see me, did she not want me to go with her either, like what was once thrown from his mouth when in seconds he broke off contact with me at that time.
Now, I just have to prove something, if the truth is true then for me there must be someone responsible for all this, anyone who is guilty, including myself if it is.
I held a lump of dry land in Nindi's tomb, tightly as if I wasn't willing to see her life end like this, I couldn't even make her happy. But as if it were my love for Nindi, the more tightly I grasped it, the more slowly the dry ground fell down from between my fingers, and in the end I still could not grasp it.
"I'll get it done, everyone... Sian, that man is the first to be held responsible." beside the tomb I said, I will completely avenge everything for my Nindiku, I told you no one has the right to make Nindiku sad, what else brought him to death. Unimaginable as to how Nindi struggled, seeing the grudge in Ayaz's eyes, I could understand that what brought Nindiku to death was not the disease that gnawed at his body, but the tormented mind, sanity that he is difficult to maintain.
And, Sian, that man can still breathe until this second, it's all because of my Nindiku, if only I had known this, if only Nindi had told me, then there is only death the only way that unfolds for him to step. Giving him an endless torment, made Sian wish he would rather die than live in the world any longer.
I took my foot steps that were shaken towards the car, it would have been enough to calm myself down just to accept the fact, even if I screamed at the sky, it would not be able to return my Nindiku to this world, because in the end, it would be impossible to return my Nindiku to this world, this harsh reality really should be swallowed round.
Miss this, let it be my responsibility, sorrow and hurt let me also bear it, Nindi is happy there, I hope there she can achieve calm, peace, I promise that I will make Ayaz happy no matter what, whether he can accept me or not.
A gust of wind, made me want to send greetings to the creator, can my deplorable behavior reach Nindi's vision, or just tell her, so she knows I'm here, and still here, even though there was no more reason for me to wait for him, but he had to know, no one could replace him. In my heart, or by my side.
"Are you sorry?" marco asked, the man hugged Nindi tightly in the bed, a little scared and sorry to have done it with Nindi, but when he saw a smile from Nindi's lips made him breathe a sigh of relief.
Nindi shook her head, "No, if it could prove that I really like you, I wouldn't regret it."
"I'm sorry" said Marco.
"Hey, I did it because I wanted to, too, I really like you Marco, really!" the gaze that was like a kitten, made Marco weaken instantly.
"Shuttt's... You don't have to say it anymore, or don't say it, from now on only I can say it to you, I will say it every day, every time... I love you Nindi, I love you, I love you... Well, every day, I hope you're not bored."
The two laughed cheerfully, happily, despite having just sinned on the basis of liking, you can imagine how happy Marco was then. As if in a flower garden, fragrant as much as the eyes look beautifully at the blooming buds.
With the union of himself and Nindi, Marco apparently was too hopeful that the feeling between them would be eternal without aral someday, but happiness in fact they could not get, they could not get, whether life was so cruel for Nindi, or for Marco, but surely they could not force themselves to live together, no one would be happy to see their laughter, especially the family of Nindi Rowans, Nindi who is like the king's daughter in fact how it is possible to be with vagabonds, anyone who is still sane will definitely oppose the relationship of the two.
I always remember that day, the day that you and I were able to laugh, for the bad things we've been through, you take it easy, I must have forgotten it.
If it was me who expected a lot about our relationship, then today... I'm sorry if I do it again, you're still my lover, my partner, just that I wish in the second life, you could be with me, Nindi, not a single person.
If Ayaz is really my son, thank you for the gift you have given me, I believe my encounter with Ayaz may have been unintentionally the fate of God. Nindi, even though he will kill me one day, even if I have to die in the hands of our son, I will never regret being his father. I've heard some people say my face is so similar to Ayaz, I'm sorry I just realized that, once again... If that's true, thank you for the gift baby, he's grown up, very handsome, he's inherited my nature... Undefeated, all this time I think only you can beat me, I love you Nindi, love you so much!
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