BECAUSE USTADZ I'M DISABLED
chapter 68

Andra smiled wryly at the question that came from Femila's mouth.

His heart rumbled, hurt to the heart. That's what Andra felt, when the person who had been still occupying the throne of his heart could throw a sentence that should not be doubted not to do.

Andra let out a rough breath. "What in your mind am I that bad?" Andra asked with a crimson face holding back the anger and disappointment that spilled into one, looking fixedly at the face of the woman before her.

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Femila. His eyes also stared intently at Andra. "I don't hesitate to make calculations if you do that." Tone of a directed threat to Andra.

Andra smiled wryly back.

"What was it about defending your husband until you accused him of this cruelty?"

"That's enough you ruined my life!" Femila's voice was rising. I don't know what power he had until he said that sentence.

"But I am grateful. You can finally forget me."

"You're overconfident, you think I haven't forgotten you! That's what you think." Femila was still raising her voice, tears were now visible on her cheeks and her breathing was wheezing irregularly due to the rumbling in her chest.

What was ejected from his mouth was completely out of his mind and inversely proportional to his heart.

"You just left Andra. At that time I needed you." Femila lowered her voice with an accompanying sob.

Suddenly his mouth spoke like that.

Andra remained silent. It was the biggest mistake of his life. However, he had to go down that path for the sake of his mother.

"Do you know who I hate most in this world?" Still with a soft voice.

Femila kept quiet expecting Andra to say a word. Andra was silent too.

"That's you Andra." The sentence escaped without any burden from Femila's mouth

"Even my hatred for you outweighs my hatred for ustadz Mirza who has caused me disability!" Femila raised her voice back.

"Do you know too. Who have I missed all this time?"

"That's you too Andra." Lirih Femila is inversely proportional to the previous statement that said he had forgotten Andra and hated her so much.

"I'm like a fool. In my heart I hate you so much on the other side I miss you so much too." Remila said while hitting her own chest because her heartburn was very painful. Her tears were still flowing freely on her cheeks.

Andra remained silent. It felt like reaching for the body of the woman in front of him and wiping away those tears. But, from the beginning of the separation Andra was determined to forget about Femila and let go. Plus now, the position of Femila is married and the husband chosen by Femila is very appropriate according to Andra. Right from everything.

"I'm the same Fem, I miss you so much." Andra's words are only able to be ejected in his mind.

"Forget all. We live each of our lives," the sentence was finally able to be thrown Andra to Femila even though the pain must still be spoken so that everything is bright.

"You have a much better life than when you were with me." Connect Andra.

Femila was still with her tears in her eyes. It felt like this was the best, crying out all the burdens that had shackled her for over half a year.

"I'm sure. He's the right guy for you, Femila. He's a responsible man and from the look in his eyes he loves you so much."

Andra swallowed her saliva. To say it all takes courage because it is very different from his heart that actually has not let Femila go with other men. But this is determination. Anything to keep his feelings free. He was unable to bend the wall of his mother's heart that forbade him to return to Femila. Maintaining Femila meant adding more wounds to her and an inverted path gave her the same feeling.

"From the beginning of our separation, I've let you go Fem. Open your heart to him who can really make you happy." Andra Pinta.

"Open your true heart there is love for ustadz Mirza. Only you bury that feeling with too much hatred and anger at me." Andra.

Andra is silent now. It felt like the first time he spoke was too long. He who is irritable to talk, no matter what force pushes him to smoothly speak at length to Femila.

This is also the moment that Andra is waiting for. Speaking from heart to heart. Encourage each other to continue their lives. Giving clarity of heart that is still adrift due to previous separation that is too fast and sudden.

Although Mario. He who was standing at the back of Andra's chair, wiped his tears so as not to wet his cheeks.

New history for Mario. Rarely, maybe even decades he just shed tears. Because what? Because so moved by the love story of his master so dramatic, so many sacrifices and sincerity because it can not have each other even though love is still between the two.

"If you know the real story, what is your reaction to Non-Femila?" The inner Mario who now prefers to hold the clear liquid that accumulates in his eye fertilizer.

"For so long, Lord Andra has only endured her own pain. Survive for Non-Femila to live a new life." Still Mario's inner monologue.

"Our rest hours are almost over. We better get back to the office." Invite Aliyah so that her nonanya does not dissolve in sadness.

Femila cleansed her face with a tissue. Take a deep breath and then throw it away. His hand moved into Aliyah's hand for her to help stand up from the sofa.

Aliyah wiped it and let it out. "We're out first sir. Assalamualaikum."

"Waalaikum salam." Lirih Andra and Mario.

Femila walked a bit shady while being swept by Aliyah.

"Femila, I hope you will forgive me." Andra said before Femila stepped out of the doorway of the ceo room.

Mario walked behind Femila and Aliyah. He knew the intent of showing his master's chin so that he made sure Non Femila and Aliyah were fine until he got in his car.

Aliyah opened the car door for her nonanya. Then he got into the steering wheel and drove his car into the streets of the city that was crowded with vehicles. Thirty minutes at the office.

Aliyah opened her phone after sitting in her non-working space. He ordered lunch because of his intention after returning from the office of PT Perkasa Bintang will have lunch outside. It's just that circumstances do not allow finally Aliyah prefers to order food via online.

Fifteen minutes OB sends orders to Femila workspace.

"Thank you, my God." Aliyah.

His hand then opened the black plastic that he held there were two feeding boxes.

"Eat Non, we haven't eaten and I'm very hungry." Said Aliyah who had opened her food box.

"Until I forget I haven't washed my hands yet." Aliyah Monologue then went into the indoor toilet.

He sat back praying and ate his food. "Non, eat it."

Femila just smiled and nodded. His eyes were still staring at the laptop screen he just turned on.

One, two, three, finally the hours of work have come. Femila and Aliyah rushed out and got into the car that was in the parking lot.

"Aliyah don't say anything to ustadz Mirza. Let me just talk to him."

Aliyah understood the direction of her non-speaking, "God willing." Answer Aliyah.

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