Being Queen in the Hands of Sister-in-law
The Part 53
The most severe longing is to miss people whose bodies have been buried in the ground.
The miss will never be complete. Just a prayer, hoping to bring him to dreamland. Just sec. For a moment Micah wanted to hug Nathan even in a dream.
Micah had almost never dreamed of Nathan. Even for a hint that Nathan is not okay.
Everything seemed so compact to fool Micah that he felt nothing in his heart and feelings when Nathan was in pain or breathed his last.
"Why should I? Why would Nathan? Do I not deserve to be happy? Everyone hurt me. He is sincere You take again, O God. What's wrong?" her inner self protested the destiny that had been outlined for her. Her tears came back.
Micah doesn't care how messy he is right now. Random hair, puffy eyes, pale lips, Micah doesn't care.
All he expected was for Nathan to be nearby. Just for a moment just to hug and say a word of love for her.
"You know what, Nath. How can you say that I have not loved you fully if you have taken my whole heart away? I don't even know if I can love someone again or not. My heart hurts too often, Nathan. I thought you were my medicine. But you left me too."
Micah's eyes blankly stared at the night sky of Jakarta.
He thought he could see the stars with Nathan. But in reality, Nathan is one of the stars he looks at right now.
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Gavin was still faithfully waiting for Micah who since finished crying in his arms was silent and not making a sound.
Gavin was silent and did not bother Micah at all. He understood very well that right now Micah still wanted to be alone. Gavin watched Micah, fearing that Micah would do something reckless that would harm himself.
"Can we talk for a second?" the hero half whispered. He didn't want to bother Micah either.
"But Micah how, Om?" Gavin voiced his concerns about leaving Micah alone. Feni and the others were looking for dinner outside the hospital.
"We open the door. Just in front of the room, don't go far."
Gavin nodded in understanding. Before he went out to follow Wira, Gavin made sure that near Micah there were no objects that might harm Micah.
The hero cleared his throat before starting his conversation with Gavin. It still feels very difficult if Wira let Micah into the Anton family again.
But looking at Micah's condition now, there was nothing that Wira could do but let Gavin get back near Micah. Maybe Gavin can make Micah as happy as he did before.
"Believe my son!"
Just three words, but it could make Gavin flabbergasted. It was like a beautiful dream to hear the Hero say that.
Although Gavin had regretted it, why only now? After Micah experienced many bitter things in his life.
"Thank you for the opportunity you gave me. I'll try to make Micah happy, Om."
"Do your best! If you ever hurt my son again, I swear I'll kill you right then."
Gavin nodded in understanding. He will try to make Micah happy. But what he needs to do now is how Micah recovered first from the wounds he felt after losing Nathan.
Gavin knew, after this it would be difficult for him to get Micah's heart again.
But it doesn't matter. It did not dampen Gavin's spirit to be able to take Micah's heart back.
"I don't need anyone else to make me happy, Pa."
Gavin and Wira both turned towards the door. Since when did Micah stand in the doorway? ask them in your heart.
"I can be happy in my own way" Micah added.
His two eyes then stared fixedly at Gavin. "Sir Gavin, thank you for being Nathan for the past few months. Thank you for trying to make me happy. But that's not all you have to do for me anymore. You can go home now! I'm fine."
"Back home!" sidelines Micah by trying to brighten his smile. Showing that he is okay.
Afterwards, Micah went straight back into his nursery and closed the door.
Gavin gave up for now. It's not time yet. Micah still needs time to accept everything.
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The wind in the morning towards noon this day blows slowly. Provides coolness in the heat of Jakarta.
Wearing a white cotton dress and a shawl of the same color, and with black eyes, Micah walked down the path to Nathan's tomb.
A bouquet of flowers and a basket of sow flowers were already in his hands.
He misses Nathan so much. Many times asked him to come into the dream, but Nathan was never present.
It was Gavin who stopped by more often in his dreams. Strange, but Micah could not refuse and choose what and who was present in his own sleep.
Micah placed the flowers he had brought into a small vase beside Nathan's headstone. He then planted flowers on his grave.
His hand rubbed Nathan's name written there. "Hi, what else is there? Don't miss me, do you?" ask Micah.
Honey, there's no answer he got from his question. Only the wind hit his face and the rubbing branches of the tree he heard.
"I miss you so much." Micah laughed a little. Trying to hold back her tears from falling.
"It's not fair, is it? I know you can see me. But I can't see you."
"Nathan, please come to my dream! I just want to hold you for a second."
After a while of sitting and talking to himself at Nathan's tomb, Micah began to move on from there. The day was getting day, the sun was getting hot on Micah's white skin.
"I'm home, yeah. Don't forget to come to my dream" she said and walked away with her heavy steps. I am not far from Nathan.
After Nathan's tomb, Micah will also go to Maulida's tomb which is located a different block from Nathan.
Micah had to walk about a hundred meters to get to Maulida's tomb.
As Micah entered Maulida's tomb block, from a distance he saw Gavin sitting in a tomb. The tomb is not the tomb of Maulida. "Whose grave is Gavin?" mumbling slowly.
Not yet had Micah come near, Gavin had already stood up and left the tomb.
Micah immediately ran to find a place to hide because he did not want Gavin to see him at the cemetery. Micah doesn't want to see Gavin anymore.
After making sure Gavin left, Micah walked towards the tomb that Gavin had previously visited.
It was not difficult to find it because there was only one tomb that had just been sprinkled with fresh flowers on it.
Micah read the name and date of death on the tombstone. Questions popped up in Micah's head. I wonder who was in the tomb.
Micah took a deep breath. It turns out that there are still many things he does not know about Gavin.
Wanted to ignore it, but the curiosity was so great. I wanted to ask, but it was impolite. There may also be no right to ask.
"But very curious. Who is this, huh?" mumbled Micah slowly.
And finally Micah could only harbor his curiosity. Whether until when, or even can not be resolved.
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