Between You and Your Father
Chapter 41 Mother's Anger and Disappointment

Vivi finally returned by bus to Sleman to where her most comfortable home is to 'Mother's Light Orphanage'. To meet the Mother who has been taking care of him all this time. Mother Fatma.

Although he knew, that his mother would definitely be very disappointed in him, but for him this was better than having to stay in the city that made him crowded.

He couldn't stay in a city that left only those bad memories. He left everything behind, his college, his best friend Tania, maybe even his ideals. Because he felt that it was no longer possible to greet him.

" Even though you were present I never expected or wanted. Even you were present when I was crushed by your cruel father but I was unable to eliminate you. I have sinned, so let this sin be my own. Patient ones, son. We will soon meet the mother." said Vivianne rubbed her flat stomach.

" Vi, are you sure you're just carrying this? Your clothes aren't that much? What about your clothes on the board, your books?" tanya Tania after bringing me a not-so-big tote bag.

" Yes, let the rest be sent by Cindy's mother. I've also contacted him. So that she doesn't tell anyone where I am" Vivianne said, shedding her tears.

" Vi! Don't cry anymore, dong? You must be strong! Remember there is a baby in your stomach right now. You're the only two you have, Vi! I will always wish you the best! And never be short-minded to harm him, Vi! I know it's not easy for you, but trust me God must have a plan behind it all." Tania stroked the back of Vivianne's hand strengthening her.

" Thank you, Tan. You're so nice to me. You're my only friend here. I feel like I have a brother here, which is you. I'm sorry that I've been bothering you all this time." Vivi said back while holding back her day and crying.

" Yes, you've been considered my brother too, kok, Vi! So don't hesitate dad? Call me when you get there, okay?" tania said while hugging him.

They hugged Tania, unable to hold back her tears, she sobbed again.

" Tan.." said Vivianne.

" Yes, I know. I told you not to cry, but I cried. I'm crying because I'm gonna lose my best friend, Vi! You take care of yourself, Dad? And my niece-to-be, Salam also made mother." Tania caressed Vivianne's stomach.

" Yes, insyaallah,Tan. I'll give you your regards, Dad? That's the old man said he was leaving the bus. I'm going Tan? Assalamualaikum" said Vivi.

" Waalaikumsalam" replied Tania.

He let go of his best friend who began to ride the bus with mixed feelings, sad, compassion, and loss of course.

The bus started to move leaving the Terminal and Tania ran while saying.

 " Vi! Don't forget me, my, Vivi!

Vivianne simply nodded from inside the glass of her seat while waving her hand as if understanding and hearing what Tania said. " Sure,Tan! Sure is!"

That was the last time Vivianne met her best friend.

Because the journey is quite far, Vivianne chose to sleep so that it could be fresher later especially her pregnancy which was just 6 weeks old made her tired. He began to feel nauseous and for sure he became easily tired and sleepy like this.

Not long after Vivianne entered the dream.

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After traveling nearly two hours due to traffic jams, Vivi arrived in her hometown. At His Home.

Vivianne stared around, still the same. It's all still the same. Nothing has changed since six months ago he left this house.

Vivianne smiled bitterly, "Will I be able to set foot in this house again? Will my mother be angry later? Yes, Lord. Strengthen me! I really can't see the disappointment in her old eyes." - Vivianne.

He turned around to walk away, but a voice called out to him.

" Mom? Sister Vivi? Is this really Vivi?" said a boy in a high school uniform.

Vivianne choked, back in turn her body towards the white house where she had been nurtured all this time.

With a wry smile he looked at the girl in Junior High uniform, Maya. His sister is soon going to high school.

" Maya? How are you, Dek?" ask her a little Kelu.

" Well, I'm home! Is that right, mbak yu ku, anyway? Sister Vivi! Oh..pangling I mbak! You're getting prettier and a little fat, huh?" he said, but then he realized that he was carrying a big plastic, it seemed like the garbage he was going to throw away.

" Sk, Yo mbak! I'm not throwing out the trash!" with a carefree run he approached the trash can not far from the front of the house to open the big barrel and throw it into.

" Bun! Bun! There's Vivi's mom, Bun!" while pulling the brother's hand.

Vivi was about to reject him because she was terrified now, "May, May! No need for May! May…"

" Any mother, speaking of opo? Do you need piye? Ma'am Ndak want to go in see mom?" Maya was confused to look at her sister.

Vivianne swallows her saliva, "Ndak ngono ngonouirne, Maya.Mbak just don't want mommy to bother her break, if you yell like that." 

Vivi tried to lie a little, Though her heart was currently very frightened, on her face began to be imagined disappointment and anger of the mother.

Vivianne only nodded when she had not eaten since this morning.

From inside the house, a middle-aged woman was seen struggling because she heard screams from outside the house. Maya's foster child who was told to take out the trash. Screaming from outside the house.

" Maya, what are you doing screaming..like...ViVi?" the mother who that afternoon held a broom regardless of her grasp.

Vivi looked down at her tears starting to come down with a run without caring that she was currently pregnant young, approaching her Mother and hugging her.

Mother hugged him warmly, "You go home, Son? Howareyou? Are you on holiday, son?" said the mother while stroking her back.

Suddenly Vivianne slid to the floor. Sitting prostrate at the feet of the mother. " Mother.Ma-forgive me,Mother. I-i'm wrong! I have disappointed Mother! Hik Hik.." Vivianne hugs and kisses the Mother's feet with shoulders up and down and tears.

The Mother looked up, she had no idea what was happening. But something must have happened to his foster son.

" Stand,Vi! Stand up! Don't be like this. We're talking inside!" says firmly.

" No,Bun! Promise me, Mother will forgive me! Promise,Bun!" Vivi shook her head while continuing to cry.

" Uprise, and stand up! Mother has never taught you to be this weak! Stand up!" said Mother with anger.

With the remains of tears, Vivi again upright and release her arms at the feet of the Mother.

" Mother wait for you in the room, Mother! Maya, you take your mbak bag to your room. And don't let your sisters or even yourself dare to eavesdrop or go into your mother's room when you talk to your mother! Understood?" said Mother firmly.

Maya just nodded in fear, she just saw the anger of the mother like this.

Mother Fatma walked firmly first to her room. Vivianne who stood pensively walked following the steps of the mother.

Slowly opened the door of the mother's room, the mother was standing on the edge of her bed.

Mother looked at him trying to smile a little though a little stiff. " Come here, we talk. Tell me why you came back? Mother got a message from Cindy's mother you asked her to send all your clothes and books to this house, why?"

Vivi bowed and then sat down next to her. Vivianne took a deep breath before speaking.

" I'm-I'm pregnant, Bun! I-I'm six weeks pregnant! I-I will not be able to continue studying at UGM again, Bun. With this pregnancy!" with a stammer and a flutter Vivianne began to speak and tell everything.

Duars…

It was like a lightning bolt in the clear sky. Mother Fatma was silent.

Vivi is getting scared. She is more afraid of Mother who only keeps silent than Mother who screams.

" Bun.." The sound was almost inaudible.

" Leave Mother alone, Vi! Leave Mother!" said the mother still with the same position and highlight the eyes. Straight ahead. Empty look.

" But, Bun..Vivi.." said Vivi back, she had not had time to reveal anything.

" Out,Vi! Out!" Mother started screaming.

Vivi was terrified she was shaking. 

" Did you still not hear what I just said, Vi? OUT!!"  the mother shouted loudly.

Vivi started crying back, she started walking slowly to the front door.

Not long after the door was locked from the inside.

Czechoslovakia!

Vivi shouted outside the door, "Bun..Sorry Vivi,Bun..Sorry Vivi!! Don't be like this, Bun! Mommy can be angry, maki, even hit Vivi, but don't leave Vivi, Bun!"

Duk!

Duk!

" BUDDIES!!" shout Vivianne.

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