Blacklight A Life's
Chapter 8's

Kriyngg....

The sound of a bell ringing loudly, indicating that the break at lunch hour has arrived. All the students and students were scattered from the class to leave their classrooms.

"Y-jerri-a.." Call Hansu a little timid. " Well, we're going to the cafeteria, Anna must be waiting for us." Continue her.

"No, I'm in class. Go." replied Yeri

"But.."

"Go Hansu-a. I just want to be in class. I beg you." Cut Yeri with her cold tone.

"Well-well. If you want something, let me know. I'll go to the cafeteria first."

Hansu left without Yeri. Hansu really did not understand Yeri's attitude from the morning. Yeri is usually cheerful, always invites chatting, joking and even gossiping. Being the Yeri he knew first when he first became a new student. Yeri, who is cold, does not talk much and just spends her rest time staying in class to be alone. I don't know what is happening to his friend that makes him come back like Yeri who closed himself and did not care about the surrounding.

"I hope he's okay." Monologue Hansu was soft on his way to the cafeteria while bowing his head sadly, as Yeri's cold demeanor returned.

Yeri who chose to stay in the classroom could only bend her head hiding between her arms. Yeri also felt guilty for being cold to Hansu. But how else, Yeri's mind was still completely in a frenzy. And he just wants to be alone without anyone bothering him.

Yeri did not even feel hungry at all, as if her stomach was already fully filled. Even though he had passed his dinner yesterday, he had breakfast this morning and now he also missed his lunch hour. Yeri really has no appetite at all. He just wanted to be alone, hiding himself so that no one would know of his existence. Yes, that's what Yeri thought. I just want solitude.

"You can never change Park Yeri. You deserve to be alone without being friends or close to anyone. You don't deserve to be noticed you only deserve to be alone, only alone." Her monologue was shrieking while holding back her sobbing.

Yeri Pov's...

Darkness, maybe it's the right place for me. Because in such a place there would only be myself alone without anyone seeing me or knowing where I am. But, honest from the heart. I desperately want to escape the darkness, silence and emptiness that is happening in my life. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be in this darkness. I want to be noticed like my other friends. But..

I was always left behind, I was always alone. Even at the age of 5 years I have to get used to being independent and alone. When I wanted to go to school, I took a shower cleaning myself, wearing my own uniform without the help of an eomma, combing and tucking my own hair even though my little hands were very hard at times when I was pigtailing my own hair, I also always have breakfast by myself because eomma and Appa have gone to work first, and eonni.. My sister, also always leave early in the morning to her school to avoid appa. Same thing I did today.

eonni also experienced the same thing as me, less noticed and also getting violence since childhood from our own appa. Even me and Eonni are not like siblings in general, who share, play, joke and spend time together. No. gabe.. Not like that, me and Eonni are like strangers to each other. Because eonni and I always locked ourselves in our own bathroom.

Dora, appa.. Yeri also wants attention, affection and time together like other Yeri friends. Eomma, Yeri wants eomma to bathe Yeri and dress her uniform, Yeri wants eomma to tidy up and lock Yeri's hair, Yeri also wants eomma to feed Yeri. Yeri wants something like that. And Appa..

Can you not hit Yeri when Yeri whines to ask for time together or ask for something else? Yeri was very afraid when Appa beat Yeri, Yeri's body felt very sick when he beat , but when appa beat Yeri appa always does not allow Yeri to cry and Yeri also holds it all to obey appa, so that appa stops beating Yeri.

And can appa not raise the sound of appa while reminding Yeri? Yeri also felt fear as appa raised the voice of appa. And can Appa and eomma take the time to play together with Yeri and Eonni? We need you guys so much. So very.. Although a little late.

And.. what, eomma and appa tau? Yeri had become very quiet ever since Yeri got the violence from appa, and eomma just silently looked at Yeri's small body on the beat and curled up on that cold floor. Yeri was still very clear considering that day and also added appa and eomma did not come to see Yeri enter the race, he said,from then on Yeri just wanted to be alone and from there also Yeri had a cold attitude Yeri..The sweet and cheerful little Yeri Eomma and Appa had already disappeared..

I don't want to be alone, I hate myself.. I hate solitude.. I want to be a cheerful Yeri, be in a warm family, and have lots of friends. Was it wrong of me to want that?

Yeri pov end...

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A week passed. Yeri really became a quiet and loner Yeri. That same week Yeri still avoids meeting her parents. I don't know, Yeri still can't deal directly with her parents. Today, sunday. Yeri remained confined to her luxurious room.

tock.tok...

"Yeri-a, baby. Come breakfast. Why do you keep shutting yourself up like this Yeri-a? Eomma please, don't keep going like this." said Ms. Park from outside Yeri's room.

Mrs Park has tried 4 times to persuade Yeri out of the room and down to eat together. However, his efforts did not produce results. Because Yeri is still locked up without eating, even Miss Park has not seen Yeri eat at home for the past week. Her mind Miss Park was so upset and worried about her youngest child's condition.

"Alright" said Mr. Park briefly and got up from his seat on the living room couch.

Mr. Park climbed the stairs to coax Yeri out of her room. Whether successful or not, at least Mr. Park must help his wife to persuade her son. Mr. Park is also a little worried about his son. He was too loud when scolding Yeri at that time, Mr. Park also felt guilty to not know how to deal with the child.

tock.tok..

"Yeri-a.." call Mr. Park after knocking softly on Yeri's room door.

"Yeri-a. Let's have breakfast together, Appa is hungry because he was waiting for you from earlier. And your eomma won't let you eat if it doesn't take you out of the room and down for breakfast together." persuaded Mr. Park.

"I'm sorry for Yeri-a. Appa hurt you too much, son, sorry app.."

Chequek..

Not yet able to Mr. Park continue his words, Yeri's room door opened slowly. Yeri looked up from behind the door that was bowing her head.

"ap-pa.." said lirih Yeri still lowered his head.

Mr. Park who managed to make Yeri open the door of his room, immediately smiled to see Yeri. And Mr. Park immediately hugged dear Yeri, his sweet youngest child.

"I'm sorry for Yeri-a. Because it snapped at you, and.." said Mr. Park by pausing his sentence. "Appa almost slapped you." continued lirih Mr. Park still clutched his dear son.

"Ti-no appa. Yeri is wrong. Forgive Yeri also for raising her voice while talking to Appa. Sorry appa, forgive Yeri." replied Yeri shrieked and cried in the arms of the appa, because it could no longer hold back everything that flashed in his mind and heart.

"No son, forgive appa. Cry as much as Yeri, appa here." said sincerely Mr. Park while stroking dear Yeri's head.

Yeri who heard that, even more sobbing in the arms of Mr. Park, for the first time for Yeri to cry in the arms of the appa. As if asking for protection, a sense of security and comfort. Yeri was happy, very. If this is a dream Yeri does not want to wake up from this beautiful dream. Where his app hugged him, let him cry out let out everything he held alone, and stroked his head warm. It's cozy. Hugely.

"Have you forgotten about eomma now?" suddenly said Miss Park. Make Mr. Park stretch his arms, and smile gently at his wife.

"Come here, our son is looking to please." said Mr. Park as he reached out his right hand to invite his wife to embrace his son as well.

Mrs Park smiled warmly and walked over to her husband and son. Come to give a warm hug for the child, provide comfort and channel all his affection to the child. Really, this was the kind of warm family that Yeri had wanted all along.

Yeri will never forget this comfort for the first time. Getting a warm greeting from his parents who are very dear to him, although Yeri had gotten violence many times. Not that Yeri hates her parents. No, Yeri never hated her parents. Never once crossed the mind and thoughts of Yeri to hate her parents.

Often parents will make mistakes as well in educating and raising children. But, one thing is certain. No parent is not affectionate to his own child, surely in the heart of every parent has a love that is so sincere to his children. And now maybe Appa and Eomma Yeri feel regret for not educating, guiding and giving full attention and affection to Yeri.

"I'm sorry about Yeri-a.sorry for everything" said Mr. Park.

"Eomma is also Yeri.. Forgive eomma."

"Give forgiveness for appa and eomma, forgive Yeri too."

"Appa and eomma also forgive Yeri." replied Mr. Park

"So, can we have breakfast now? Appa is already very hungry Yeri-a.." continued Mr. Park with a tone of voice made funny.

Yeri and Ms. Park laughed when they heard Mr. Park's funny voice. Yeri nodded and went downstairs with her parents to have breakfast together and start a warm little family.

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