Call Me, You?
Chapter 44: The Chaotic.
...Chapter 44: The Chaotic....
... The girl left an apology from her former lover who was behind her then walked towards the road home....
... Yells....
..."Sorry, Ka!" hoshie....
... The apology of this young man then did not make this girl melt after what was experienced due to the actions of Hoshie which made this woman feel embarrassed and hurt of course....
... Hoshie is going after her ex-boyfriend who is walking further away as if feeling what his ex-lover is going to do and soon this girl turns to Hoshie....
... With a loud enough sound between the sound of the beach waves and the night wind....
..."Stop that!" said Aka....
... Hoshie did not give up on the mission that would be carried out in this moment....
..."Stop following me!" said Aka again....
... Hoshie stopped there to see Aka who did not want to be spoken to by him considering the treatment given by this young man on the night of the birthday party in front of their friend's friend had not also gotten an apology from the girl....
... The air came out of Hoshie's breath on a cold night....
... Saying to yourself while watching someone leave without looking back at him....
..."Does this feel like apologizing?"....
... Contacting the phone number of someone in the order of the contact name list in the phone....
..."Being human?" hoshie....
... …...
... Waiting for someone to pick up a phone call from her then thinking back to if there was nothing very important to say do not contact this person....
... Stop calling someone on the phone....
..."Almost, could he be mad at me" Hoshie said....
... This young man called Dashie's phone number....
... Judging by the time that is going on, the girl who was contacted by Hoshie is meditating in her own room with a silent mobile mode....
... The room is rather dark with the lights slightly dim deliberately using this mode the girl is still focused with the activity being done by him whereas for Hoshie choose to go from the beach lips with the spell spoken by him the instant this young man left did not breathe the free air of the beach....
... Closing his eyes feeling the time running with seconds of clockwork time that continues to spin tonight this girl is still constantly looking for reasons why such a thing can happen to Ren can be lost easily in his own presence raises a suspicion of curiosity about the world that is being run looking for answers from ignorance that raises a deadlock about the problem that makes him continue to not believe what has been passed still not believe as if he was still in the dream world of sleep and woke up again from sleep that did not get the perfection of the desired answer so far....
... Open ones eyes....
... The air he breathed remained the same nothing changed and no changes occurred before him to see and feel this condition made him continue to be confused with his own existence....
... In his mind asked in an unfinished evening devotional....
..."Who am I and what is my purpose in life?"....
... Not to end with that question in curiosity now this girl asked herself again....
..."Am I not human?"....
..."Why is everything that happened so real?" ask Dashie....
..."I can't believe Ren could have disappeared so easily in front of me" Dashie said....
... Where to get answers to all the questions he's already told himself this girl doesn't know who to ask this to....
..."Who can I trust?" ask Dashie....
... Calculating the time that has passed where the person he knows has gone and now there is no news to be obtained from the person makes a sense of loss is certainly in his mind especially the way people go the one he knew exactly the same as the teenager he had seen was in the subway that took him away on a holiday last time....
... Not without reason but he also felt a fear that was harbored fear that the loss of Ren was the result of a mistake that was unconsciously made by him that could have occurred out of his own control as he had it happened to the teenage boy he remembered again this time....
..."Why can humans disappear like that?" ask Dashie....
... The confusion increased, making him not believe that he was a human being in general....
..."Then if that teenager isn't human, what am I?"....
... Resuscitate themselves again....
..."No, no I'm not that special" Dashie said....
... Linking what had happened to her to the presence of Hoshie when it happened to Ren and she did not respond more than what she witnessed at the time made her want to stop thinking about how it happened and it could not be automatically erased in his mind since it happened....
..."Can I trust Hoshie in this?" ask Dashie....
..."Why didn't I have this memory before and now it seems to torture me so easily?" ask Dashie....
... Dashie recalls when these memories came at once randomly and became systematically arranged memories by itself present in jolting memory did come into an answer without a question and has been repeatedly to release those memories indefinitely those memories remained his....
... This contemplation opens his heart and his mind realizes that not everything can be controlled by him alone....
..."Do I have to bury all this myself?" ask Dashie....
... ...
... Saving for himself can all that be done by him in fact the sadness appeared again in all the efforts he had done to cover it....
..."What about Ren and where is he now?" ask Dashie....
... Crying in these thoughts....
..."Please, give me the answer to my question?"....
... Finally, this girl fell asleep leaning on her head to her back at the end of the bed with a white blanket on the bed of foam sleeping with tears wiped by someone who came in invisible fashion by gently wiping the cheeks of this girl trying to keep this girl did not wake up tidying up the hair that covers part of her face then this someone took another blanket in the open closet on the right side the girl's closet in deep sleep did not forget to take some square pillows with black covers put it on each side of this girl then covered her with a blanket she had just taken from the open closet earlier to the girl he was looking at with an affectionate gaze....
..."You must be suffering a lot" Hoshie said....
... The puff of smoke present within this young man was slowly giving off tremendous pain as it also made his self-defense weaken definitely with the slow loss of his body and slowly reappearing....
..."Believe me I'm not going to leave like I did with Luc" Hoshie said....
..."Can I promise in this matter" Hoshie said....
..."I'm sorry if I can't promise you anything" Hoshie said....
... Hoshie was between believing or not that he could leave this world at any time without knowing when it could happen and that all the preparations were felt by him not having had time to be prepared to welcome when that day comes....
... The warm attitude that Dashie had not known all this time was present back in this moment secretly without being known by the girl who was fast asleep on the left side of Hoshie who was leaning in the wardrobe behind the girl it leaned with the side of his body to the left of the two pairs of eyes continued to look at this girl then a cheerful face with foam heart shape flew slowly from the owner of the two pairs of beautiful eyes that were staring at her in the occasional do not forget to give honesty feelings that can not be expressed just by the word that he loves the girl who is sleeping....
... Ten realizes the presence of a person's figure is present around the place where someone dear to him too long time given Hoshie was there and Ten immediately came to the place where someone was in the vicinity where the person he loved was then dragged away from the person to move from near someone who was being protected by him....
... The annoying greeting of the tone of voice of the young man who was dragged away from near Dashie....
..."You didn't beat me up?" ask Hoshie....
... Showing his face in front of Ten surrendered to be beaten by the former lover of his loved ones frankly....
... Ten's hand held back this annoying Hoshie then pushed quickly two meters away Hoshie's distance due to the self-defense of the person he was fighting right now fixed with a cold face that was the response received by Hoshie with his attitude who did not want his anger to dominate....
..."What do you want again when you've broken up?" ask Hoshie....
... His locked mouth finally opened with a sentence that explained how the heart of a Hoshie was....
..."I should have asked who here looked so sorry" Ten said....
... Turning asked with a cynical face that cold smile to his interlocutor now....
..."You or me?" ask Ten....
... Highlight his sharp eyes looking at someone he considered an enemy that prevented him from getting someone who had been waiting and sought....
... The sound of the tone snapped quite loudly to Ten....
..."Know what you know about Dashie!" hoshie....
... The words from Hoshie's mouth did not end until it was there with words that meant that there was no way a Ten would just want to intend to protect the girl who was said to be dear to him as Hoshie knew....
..."We are both Blacwhe and being friends with humans is impossible" Hoshie said....
... Hoshie's voice rattled around quite loudly as a result of the grass around him becoming dry and then turned into dust flying in the air....
... However, what was done by Hoshie did not make Ten daunted or afraid of his attitude as he had guessed this could happen if he was together with Hoshie even the worst situation was predicted earlier by Ten could have been happened to both of them....
..."Until whenever the girl remains mine" Hoshie said....
... Hoshie's words were responded by Ten as evidence of his self-disbelief, whether he could get a heart that still tends to choose Ten over him....
... Ten sees Hoshie's condition getting out of control with anger enveloping the young man in front of him while on the other side of the place now they are going to fight is a place for health services it was impossible to respond to someone who was being ignited emotions instead of being a coward if Ten finally chose to go disappear without a trace with the spell that was spoken just now in his speech go not to respond to the invitation fights between men....
..."Just save your strength" Ten said....
... He left after saying that to Hoshie who was full of anger....
... Hoshie's anger became muffled instantly as Ten left within a few seconds....
..."What's wrong with me?" ask Hoshie....
..."I was angry just because of this trivial matter" Hoshie said....
... Observing someone you have just met and realizing that the person cannot be taken lightly....
... Sighing breathed the air that had mixed with the crushed grass dried up into dust by itself....
..."He's far more dangerous than I thought" Hoshie said....
... The sky tonight is studded with billions of bright stars smiling happily with all the plans that have been stored inside....
..."It's good that it's like that" Hoshie said....
... His attitude became uncharacteristically slow like land unlike Hoshie became a little unstable if judged in passing heard and felt from every word and action of this young man who was also felt by the owner of the body those who directly feel the change for the sake of change....
... At home now there is Nawa who received an offer from someone who has been considered as his older brother was waiting until he fell asleep with his head on a book and pen on the desk of the study room hoshie's house is waiting for the person he thinks is the older brother who also has not come home and the person did not come home tonight to go carried away by where his feet want to go....
... Nawa woke up after the time had shown at two o'clock in the morning with her hands resuscitated rubbing both eyes back again wearing glasses that were on the table between her books to see how long she had slept in study room while waiting for Hoshie to come home and not yet home....
..."My house and this house are the same" Nawa said....
... Clean up the book and writing equipment and then go into the room to continue the break....
..."Am I the only living thing in this house?" ask Nawa....
... Carrying books and writing equipment to the room by climbing the stairs to the room until it reaches the door and opens the door....
..."Then I'd rather just stay at home" said Nawa....
... An annoyed question was pointed out for Hoshie....
..."Anyway, why is that person not self-conscious?"....
... Getting upset by yourself....
..."Don't forget what kind of person your brother is" Nawa said....
... A foreign language test exercise book and two other books were placed on the room table....