Call Me Rain
Contrition

Mirza POV's

It has been a few days somehow my feelings a little calm.Is it possible because of the presence of Alula, who is now starting to get close to Mama?

Seeing the girl smiling cheerfully and laughing with Mama and Mbak Sri. somehow I feel happy. whereas at the beginning of his arrival to this house, he always looks moody, sad, sometimes also looks scared. especially when talking to me, the girl always looked down. Is that her habit? or my wrong way of speaking? I don't know, but I'm glad he's okay.

What is clear is that Alula's presence at home makes the atmosphere of the house warm, and Mama looks happier and I, at least I can forget my guilt for Inara.

In the past, I always promised myself that I would take care of the jewel of the big family's heart, Inara, she was the only granddaughter in my big family. always be pampered and loved.

The little girl was very active and smart, making the whole family anxious with her behavior.they loved Inara very much. Especially me, the big brother who had to take care of his only sister well. the loss of Inara left the whole family in deep sorrow.

I still remember clearly, that day Inara cried hugging me tightly. as if she did not want to let go of me and Papa who was going to leave for Bandung. that day, Papa invited me to accompany him to visit his coworkers in Bandung.

"Abaaang, Nala wants to come with brother." Nara was crying in my arms

"Yes, but later yes dek. sometime we go together to Bandung." I said while continuing to calm Inara who continued to cry.

"But Nala wants to join brother's shama."

"If you want to come, you have to be healthy first." At that time Inara had a little fever, so Mama did not allow him to come with us.

"The same grandfather Mama aja at home yes, brother tomorrow or the day after tomorrow also go home" said Mama by still persuading Inara.

But Inara shook her head quickly, even hugging me tightly.

"Nala wants to come, Nala wants to come" he said with tears.

"Later brother Cariin Nara's a nice doll huh, isn't Pa?"talk to me while looking at Papa. Papa nodded and smiled.

"Don't want to, Nala won't."

"Who can talk?"tawalku.

"Don't want to, Nala wants to come with brother." Inara kept shaking her head.

"Two can? plus house?"

Inara stopped crying, she loosened her embrace and then slightly moved away from me. Of course I could not miss the opportunity to persuade Inara.

"Barbie doll, twins, plus the house?" Inara smiled and nodded enthusiastically.I turned to Papa, Papa smiled with relief.I was finally able to leave quietly with Papa.

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But I was forced to give a Barbie doll that I had promised Inara, when I saw a girl crying so much in the rain.

After seeing Inara cry yesterday, I could not bear to see a girl of Inara's age cry as well. I approached the girl, I saw her knee bleeding. It seemed like she had just fallen.

"Why cry?" I asked, after I brought the girl to shelter.The downcast daughter looked up.

"Sick," he replied as he grimaced holding onto his injured knee.

"Don't cry anymore ! you're strong. Look I have a gift for you." I took out one Barbie doll from the paperbag I was carrying, actually the barbie was for Inara. without thinking long I gave it away.

"Make me?" Her eyes were round. For some reason it looked adorable in my eyes. I just nodded.

"Yes equally," I lightly ruffled the girl's hair. "Basic ompong. Don't cry anymore ! you're ugly crying."and somehow my hands are so reflexively pinching her cubby cheeks.

"Oh yeah, where's your dad?" ask me later

The boy shook his head "I don't have Papa, I only have a father" he replied innocently.

I chuckle at her "Yes, where's your dad?" the boy did not answer, Papa had already called me to get into the car.

"Whose name?" I asked before I actually left the girl.

But the boy seemed to think "hey, let's answer ! what's yourname?" my insistence demands an answer.

"Son, hurry baby ! Mama needs us." But Papa's screams made me quickly turn back.I ran towards the car, where Papa had been waiting for me with a pale face.

"SISTER, "the boy yelled at me. It made me also turn to "Rlrrain.call me Rlrain (Rain)." the girl painstakingly mentioned his name. I just smiled as I waved at him and got into the car.

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Along the way I kept smiling considering the face of the girl I met earlier, but different from Papa, since I got into the car, I saw Papa's face was very anxious, he was very upset. and what did Papa say, 'Mama needs us?' what exactly does Papa mean.

Although in my heart I was curious, eager to ask what really happened, why did Papa rush to take me home? isn't Papa going to see his co-worker? but I chose silence.I chose to pretend to close my eyes, hoping everything was okay.

But my curiosity apparently could not be harbored anymore, when Papa did not take me home, but turned his car into the hospital yard.

"Papa, who's sick? ko' here." After Papa stopped his car in the hospital parking area, my feelings began to feel bad. I really could not suppress my curiosity. I'd rather shut up and lead me into the hospital.

My body was sculpted when I reached the ER room, where I saw a small body of someone lying on a blankar, with a white cloth covering the entire small body. my body immediately shook to see Papa and all the people in the room were crying, and increasingly shaking when I saw Mama who was sitting in a wheelchair with an infusion tube in her hand. Mama cried roaring.and Papa hugged Mama tightly.

Of all the people there, only Inara I can't see, where is she? why isn't he here? with trembling, I approached the blankar.I saw the face of someone there.the face that now looks pale, without a cheerful smile that usually always adorns the entire face of his beautiful.

"Sir, I've come home, why is bobo here?" I said trembling and almost inaudible.

"Let's wake up deck ! brother's got a dummy he wants." I picked up the paperbag I was carrying.

"But brother apologizes, brother only bring one. the other brother love same older brother." I heard the cry of people increasingly broken, especially Mama who had been unconscious.

I grabbed the tiny hand that now felt cold. Yes, my heart, the jewel of my heart, my dear sister.he is gone.

As soon as my heart felt empty, my eyes began to blur, along with tears that flowed on my cheeks.my mind again remembered his cries yesterday.when he asked to come with me, when he wanted to be close to me, when he wanted to be close to me, and when her smile suddenly expands just because of my promise that will give her a doll, which turns out to be the last smile I can see.

I was devastated, how selfish I was that I ignored him, and chose to go with Papa. I regret, truly regret.

Since losing Inara at that time, I started to keep my distance. be indifferent, even always away from my female friends. Because I always feel afraid, if what happened to Inara will repeat itself. I regret that I shouldn't have been selfish, leaving Inara who wanted to stay with me. I always cursed myself, I wasn't a responsible man, I did not want to be in touch with a female figure.I locked myself in a deep sense of regret, prolonged guilt and also angry at myself.

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