Carmen's Love Trap
Back to Abi's House

Carmen

In the end Abi and Abang wanted me to end my household and Mas Zaky's. No more negotiations because Abi asked Mommy Tari to take me home.

Inside my room, Mommy faithfully accompanied. I made you warm chocolate milk. "Drink your chocolate milk first. So that you are rilex and can fall asleep. Your eyes are swollen. Surely you can't sleep, huh? Poor Mommy's son!"

I obeyed what Mommy told me. I drank his homemade chocolate milk that always tasted better than anyone made because it was made with love.

Mommy arranged the pillow and patted it. "If you have, here sleep with Mommy. Tonight Mommy has asked Abi for permission to accompany you to sleep," said Mommy gently and lovingly.

I nodded and spread my body while hugging Mommy's warm and safe body. "I always wondered why Abi didn't want me to hug Mommy for so long. Now I know why," I said.

"Oh, huh? What reason?" ask Mommy.

"Because Mommy's embrace is the most comfortable, warmest, safest and most soothing hug in the world" I replied.

Mommy smiled hearing that. "Mommy also likes to hug you, a family that Mommy loves very much. Hugging you is like giving Mommy the spirit to be a mother who must be stronger, must be more energetic and must be even more powerful," said Mommy.

"G ... Mommy's! I want to cry again" I said, wiping away the tears that had returned to my eyes.

"cry. Cry until satisfied. Although tears can not solve the problem, but we are a woman who sometimes has to pretend strong also need to cry. You have Mommy, where you cry and complain about everything. Unlike Mommy who never felt the affection of Mommy's birth mother first. Fortunately there is a foster mother Mommy who is so loving and teaches Mommy about this hard life. Cry!" Mommy hugged me tighter as she rubbed my back which kept moving along with the rushing tears.

I cry until I am satisfied. Until my eyes are even hard to open. Until my voice was lost because of hoarseness.

"Is she relieved now?" ask Mommy.

I'm nodding. "Udah, My."

"Now you know what to do? Do you want to divorce or fix your family?" ask Mommy.

"I ... still want a divorce, My. It's okay, isn't it?" my many.

"Of course it's okay. Divorce in our religion is permissible, even though it is hated by God. Do what makes you happy. Mommy will support whatever your decision is" Mommy said.

"Mommy's not angry? Mommy wasn't disappointed with me?" ask again.

"No, Honey. Mommy knows how much you love Zaky. You're willing to propose to Zaky in the crowd. It takes a lot of courage, and not everyone can do it. You are brave and great, just like Mommy used to be" Mommy said with a smile imagining her past with Abi.

"Love needs sacrifice. Love needs to be fought for. Your struggle for a year is also Mommy thumbs up. Greatable. Patience above all else. Mommy also if you are in a position you will not stand it. Mommy used to have her heart broken when Abi was still reminded of Tara. Over time Abi changes and loves Mommy sincerely,"

"Bi's emotions aren't because Zaky reminds her of her past. Mommy knows that. Abi has forgotten her feelings for Tara. He only remembered how painful it was to be betrayed by his own friend and did not want you to feel the pain like him. Abi's anger is affectionate and more like blaming himself" said Mommy.

"I made Abi think of her past, huh, My?" my many.

"In sha Allah is ready, My," I answered steadily.

Mommy smiled and hugged me back tightly. "Relatedly? Not crying again asking for the same thing ... Mas Zaky dearest?" fashion Mommy.

"Ih ... Mommy seduced me, how can I move on, try?" I said while blotting my lips.

"Not your temptations. Your feelings with Zaky are deep. A year of patient waiting for Zaky to change. Did you not love your sacrifice all this time?" ask Mommy again.

"No, My. I'm sure!" my answer.

"Well, if you want to be like that. Find what you think is good. Abi, Mommy, your brother and the Damar family no one knows what is best for you but yourself. So, choose the best for you and do not regret what you have decided. Can't you?!"

I nodded, "Can."

"OKAY. Let's go to bed. Tomorrow Mommy has to make a lot of food stock for cafe, hoam ...." Mommy yawned and soon fell into a deep sleep, still hugging me affectionately.

I can't sleep. I remember what happened earlier. How Mas Zaky's face was badly injured by a raw bogem from Abang. Mas Zaky never returned it. He knows that he has many sins.

But how is he? Why am I still worried about him? It must be because we are still in a marriage relationship. When I get the talak later, I will definitely forget it. Sure.

I woke up the next morning and was greeted with a fragrant freshly cooked bread made by Mommy. Abi greeted me with a sad look, I can still see even though his face was a bit swollen from Papa Damar yesterday.

My brother has gone home. We had only three breakfasts together. Abi patted the empty chair beside him and asked me to sit down.

"From now on, you'll be Abi's daughter again. We'll eat together while we chat. We'll walk three and spend a lot of time shopping at the Mall. You like it, don't you?" persuade Abi.

I smiled hearing it. Abi always persuaded me like that. Invite me to shop at the Mall, even though I already have my own income.

"That's dong! Does Abi need to call a hawker to stay in front of our house?" persuade Abi again.

I smiled sadly. Our home. Why don't I feel like this is my home? Why do I feel I have my own home even without any underlying love?

"Aren't you sad again? Don't be sad, baby. Your divorce problem has Abi told the lawyer to take care of it. You take it all right. You don't have to meet the guy who failed to move on again! Show her you're happy, let her be sorry!"

"Yes, Bi. Sorry I got back to bothering Abi. I should only be happy Abi, but I made Abi remember the past. Sorry, Bi. I'm sorry ..." I said. I shed tears and cried again.

"No, Baby. Don't tell me that's it. Abi love you. Point. Abi wants you to be happy, so you sit down sweetly and let Abi be your protector!"

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