Cliches
27. Start to Understand

A very sad night. I clearly remember Jinny sleeping in this room a lot, we used to joke around. Saying everything, telling anything. Important or unimportant conversation is always impressive if with Jinny.

We commented on this and that photo, and she even recounted her childhood with Firas. Telling all about brother Firas, also telling the silliness that no one ever knew about brother Firas. Jinny filled a portion of my days.as if all of these rooms could still echo the sound of her boisterous laughter.

I myself stared out the window. I let the night breeze caress my face. I hope they pass on my dear message to Jinny, I can only hope and pray. He was peaceful there, calm down and could still joke around there. And me, that is,,

“ Zhu,night wind is not good for you “ Adhan come and close my room window immediately.

I still speak a thousand languages. Not saying a word, my eyes were still keenly staring at my happiness this morning. It was Jinny's joy to choose a hairstyle for me. He wanted me to change my hair style which was always this. Adhan touched my finger, grasped it tightly and awakened me from all the shadows.

“ this afternoon, I was annoyed with him. He said you were a venereal criminal because you used to hug me in public without shame. I'm upset, I left him. I went to “Heaven” but there I was made silent by Firas' behavior. She made out with another woman, I saw the woman herself put her hand on the chest of Firas's sister and Firas's sister just let it go “

“ you are jealous ? “

WHAT ?? Jealous ?? isn't that the feeling I once felt when Mayang came and took Adhan's attention away from me ? I was silent and I knew what I was thinking.

“ Zhu,Firas does everything for you. Maybe he's also willing to die silly for you “

Adhan made a soft voice, I looked at him even more deeply. A million questions I want to express, what does that statement mean ?

“ you, need to know, I and Firas plan to study abroad after we graduate. For me, studying abroad is very interesting. More interesting than a relationship with a woman. For Firas, studying abroad was his dream, his dream. According to him, his future will be more secure if he is a foreign graduate.

But all that changed. I have a father, a mother and a sister who color my days.I change my mother's position, because I want you to always be with me. I want you to feel the love of a mother who was lost to you. Though I know, my mother cannot take your mother's place in the heart. I also want you to not feel as lonely as I have been. I've been very happy here, at least I'm trying to be a good son and sister in this family. Firas, he decided to stay here and wrestle with the little he understood.

All because of you. He doesn't want to be away from you, he wants you not to feel sadness. Indirectly, he sacrificed his future for you. Zhu, I know Firas more than everyone knows him. He won't do anything that hurts you. It's only natural that you're jealous to see this happen. At least, listen to her explanation. He is an adult, he can distinguish what is good and what is not good.

If he had been quiet and just let it go. Maybe that's what he feels good about, then give him a reproach. Misunderstanding often occurs in relationships. Either in speaking or acting. You just need to know your partner more deeply. Being in a relationship with you does not mean that he should not meet, communicate or work with anyone other than you. Because it comes back to the commitment of a relationship, know him, trust him and trust your heart for him. If you know your partner well.

That means you can also know your future. The couple is like a future, if you do not know your partner how can you know your future? You're gonna live with her in the future, which is why you need to know what she looks like.

But I'm pretty sure, Firas is right for you. Now all you need to do is come to her, accompany her and remove all her sadness at the moment.if she wants to explain what is really, what is,listen to him and give him another trust “ Adhan makes me stunned not to move. Is it true what he said? Is Brother Firas right that far ?. At least I need to start fixing myself, I need to grow up. I need maturity to be in a relationship. Adhan was right, I had to recognize my partner so that I could also get to know my future. I will live and live with my partner.

Brother Firas must be as sad as I am tonight. It might even be very sad, he had no place to share at the moment. Losing Jinny must have scratched a deep wound, just like I felt. Brother Firas loves Jinny very much, he always spoils Jinny in his way.

I let night write its story, until dawn presents a pen to paint another story. I didn't go to college today. I'm sure Firas didn't go to work either. I had to try hard to erase her sadness.

After cleaning up and mentally preparing myself to be able to go to Jinny's house, I rushed towards the luxurious building. Still very quiet, mama and papa have not been seen. There is no sound at all in this house. I'm headed to Jinny's room. Slowly I open the unlocked door, I remember Jinny always smiling when he welcomed me.

But now everything is full of silence. Still with my face I inhaled the scent of this room. I can feel Jinny smell so fresh, as if he's still in this room. My eyes combed through all the directions and walls of this room. How surprised I was to find someone sitting quietly in the chair where Jinny always took off his fatigue.

Jinny really likes that round chair. It was the chair that Firas gave him for his birthday seven years ago. Upon entering the room, he would sit there and tell her everything in his trademark agile style. I swing your steps closer to him. He was just silent and silent, his eyes were closed tired. The face of Brother Firas I could see was very pale and not excited. He sat on Jinny's beloved chair solemnly’.

“Zhu, “ he got up and woke me up from my place. Both of his hands touched my shoulders. Brother Firas is really very sad, he is not as usual who always looks fresh.

“ she just cleaned the stain on my shirt, she spilled the sauce here “ she pointed at her own chest. I began to understand the direction of the conversation. He was correcting a misunderstanding yesterday afternoon. There were tears welling up there, eyelids that always sedated me.

“ I never had any passion with another woman. I just want you, forgive me for making you hurt yesterday “

my eyes were sharp in his eyes, I just fell silent not saying a word. I feel like drowning, drowning wherever Firas wants to drown me. I resigned, I makmum.

I approached, putting my head against his shoulder. My broken cry was not held back. While Brother Firas warmly welcomed my body that had sunk in his arms and increasingly tightly embraced me.

“ I love you Zhu, I love you “ she whispers softly in my ear. There was nothing I could do but nod and tighten my already circular arm.

This is how misunderstanding is intelligent. Adhan's right, I have to listen and give him confidence. I can't just fly with my selfishness, at least being wise and mature is always one of the most important things in a relationship.

I'm just imagining the masses always poignant. I once over-planted trust in someone, but all was lying.

Brother Firas is very mature, he can control my heart in a matter of days. I trust him and am so sure of him. I try to always be present in his breath. He was open and always talked about everything with me. We spend time together often.

Once a week, I spend time with my brother Firas and my brother Adhan. Besides being a couple and a good future for Firas. I still have to be the best sister for Adhan. Because she always took care of me and made me the queen of her life. He always helped me with my semester assignments. Meeting these two people made me feel unreasonable. Sometimes, brother Firas is a little annoyed by Adhan's excessive behavior towards me. Sometimes Adhan is also annoyed with Firas, they are really strange creatures.

“ You better start thinking about a partner now, that's the best way so you don't bother me and Zhu “

“ Zhu, do you feel disturbed ? “

“e, not “

“ but I feel distracted “

“ because you started thinking dirty “

“ WHAT DO YOU MEAN ?? “

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