Considered Trivial After Giving Birth
chapter 15 baby blues

Here either who is wrong, or maybe the influence of postpartum hormones so I was too baper when responding to every problem.

After giving birth to me as if shunned by family and husband, every night I always ask in my heart what makes them seem to avoid me , what because I gave birth freely, what is it,is despicable a mother who lahiran as widely as in their eyes, what because of the problem of naming, as well as my husband as evading with me ,

Day after day I went through with a new rush to take care of my son, fortunately my son he sintered and anteng as if he understood the state of his mother , every morning bathed he always sleeps and even at night he never fusses always a henchman,I took care of the son alone and I rarely involved my brother or my in-laws even though the distance of our house was close but I seemed to refuse because they always sneered as if I was an incompetent mother so I always avoided they are for the sake of maintaining my sanity.

Until one day when I was drying my baby in the yard suddenly the child from my brother-in-law immediately nyium my child even though he is currently sick with flu and cough.

"Arin don't nyium adek first kasian arin again sick so later follow sick" I tried to explain gently because I was 5 years old, but from behind my mother-in-law suddenly came and sneered.

"You think my family is sick, no you can't, you're too much" he said .

"And it's true mom now the state of arin again hurts" I reply, actually I was lazy to start a debate but why always I was wrong in their eyes.

"You are indeed a person so it was from the beginning to speak, son nyium aja you make long" he said as he continued to leave me.

Of course I am hurt, but I only give understanding mala made all this time but what in the end as if I am the one who makes the length of every problem.

When I was inside telling me everything that happened to my husband I hoped he gave me a little understanding so that I was not said to be clever and always looking for mistakes but my husband's response made me more sadiy heart ,

"Halaaa nyium problem aja made long, you're a pinter for trouble" he said

"It is not a problem nyium mas, gapapa if the condition is healthy this is again sick what else the baby is very vulnerable" said I defend.

"You were so cool to say" he replied as he passed leaving me alone in the room .

Not me baper or anything but here as if I have no friends, postpartum I am more of a quiet person, keeping everything alone, I do not want to make trouble..

A week after giving birth I have been required to be independent like nyapu, cook and wash my own clothes, and, because according to the mother-in-law gave birth as a risk not to do the job even though sometimes the scars of the stitches are painful but I never told my husband if only the tip of the end I was the one who was blamed, when this pain hit I rushed to take paracetamol and pain reliever I do not want to be considered a spoiled woman and can only talk.

The next day at midnight I was of course shocked it turned out that the condition of his body salman was hot and coughing, he said, she was fussy all night probably because she felt sick and uncomfortable making my mother-in-law and husband unable to sleep.

"You can take care of the child not really from earlier your son cried continuously" he said ketus.

Though I have been fond of my son to give a little comfort and he can fall asleep but he came as if I am the mother is not perfect in this world.

"Where not fussing is he again a thuggish and cough" I replied with a glance because I was overwhelmed with salman who did not stop crying from earlier.

"Yes that's because you become a mother not becus already know breastfeeding children drinking ice and drinking water most of the time" he said,

"Trus if I don't drink if my breast can flow this hard while my body is dehydrated and since when the mother drinks ice the child becomes a cough and a cold" my heart murmur , ' said , I know my son at this time because of contracting arin who was coughing yesterday but useless if I explain the same mother-in-law must be the tip of her I was wrong and explained to people who were not knowing mala will add pain because it does not want to lose..

I was lazy to serve the babble of my mother-in-law who continued to corner me so I chose to leave the house to look for the wind so that my heart was a little calm and cradled salman so that he could fall asleep.

The next day I asked the nearest midwife to check the salman on my husband but the mother-in-law forbade it.

"The name is nursing mother if the child is sick yes take medicine because later the medicine will flow with breast milk and drink the baby" he said ketus.

"But the state of salman is now like this "I'm exhausted because the salman heat from last night did not come down and still cough I'm afraid that in the next morning I'll have a seizure.

" yes it is so bad you take medicine try if you from last night take the medicine yes surely now the medicine has followed you and now your child is healed" said mother continues to babble whether it's science from where like that.

I immediately pulled out Doni's hand and immediately asked to be delivered to the midwife and thank God this time he would obey what I said .

While in the midwife, the midwife immediately checked the salman and explained all the complaints that my son had experienced.

"Alhamdulillah Riri's mother immediately brought the mother's child quickly because this heat is high and can cause the child to become convulsions" explained the midwife and then I glanced at my husband , I hope that after getting an explanation from the midwife, she will understand a little how to understand the child so that it is not as good as turning on me.

"Is there anything serious that my child is going through so she can cough like that "say I'm afraid I'm aware of still learning to be a good mother.

"There's no ma'am, 'em , my advice is that Miss Riri take good care of the child such as do not bring the mother's child closer to people who are sick, especially cough and flu because the baby's body is still very susceptible to the virus , so the mother herself who must be careful but yes how bu riri I also understand the name of the baby sometimes many people who feel jubilant so like to immediately nyium baby without caring about the condition of his body, " said the midwife explained

"Yes mom I understand" I said

"And sampaan also mas if smoking try to stay away from your child because it is also very risky for the growth of your baby" said the midwife .

"And this medicine give to your baby 3 times a day ya ma'am" said the midwife.

"Kan kasian dong bu if the baby is taking medicine is not the mother who takes medicine is indeed breastfeeding so automatically the baby also participate in the taste of the drug taken by her mother " said my husband arrived and made me a little surprised he could ask such a stupid thing.

The midwife immediately smiled and explained again.

"Unlike that, sir the concept, because only 1% of drugs that enter the mother's breast milk, especially when breastfeeding mothers consume drugs carelessly later to have an impact on the production of breast milk "clearly midwife bu again ,in the depths of my heart I was delighted by the explanation of the midwife and I hoped my husband could learn to understand my condition.

After completing the administration my husband and I went straight home .when traveling I invite a little chat to mas udin because after all this is also a chance to mumpung just the two because at home kalai must be mother-in-law always interfere.

"You heard yourself the explanation from the midwife's mom earlier, so I don't want to mas and I'm also not smart to say "

"Halaaa don't believe too much midwife talk and don't be taken too much "reply to my husband.

"Kok you talk like that anyway mas, this is also for the good of our son salman, you said do not be too obedient to the words of midwives la now if there is something the same our children will we also run again to the midwife" said I was a little upset because the thought of my husband turned out to be that shallow.

"You are now talking yes and always arguing, can't do what you say if you say mother" her reply made me more and more in a dilemma because I felt that every step and every word I made was wrong in the eyes of my husband and family.

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