Considered Trivial After Giving Birth
chapter 16
"Kok you talk like that anyway mas, this is also for the good of our son salman, you said do not be too obedient to the words of midwives la now if there is something the same our children will we also run again to the midwife" said I was a little upset because the thought of my husband turned out to be that shallow.
"You are now talking yes and always arguing, can't do what you say if you say mother" her reply made me more and more in a dilemma because I felt that every step and every word I made was wrong in the eyes of my husband and family.
"I must do what God does as if your servant always missteps, lead the servant to be right in their eyes" I muttered in my heart.
The way to the house I was more silent until the house I immediately gave salman medicine and swung it to immediately fall asleep , due to the reaction of the drug salman finally fell asleep immediately because of coughing all night salman can not sleep well,
I immediately lay the salman in bed because salman is already slumbering, I take my smartphone just to open the sosmed so I can slightly eliminate the feeling of chest tightness, I take my smartphone just to open the sosmed so that I can slightly eliminate the feeling of chest tightness, but only 15 minutes salman sleep suddenly my brother-in-law immediately went into the room and took the salman to be invited to play, actually I'm upset as if I'm in this house there's no privacy as good as it is .
"Eh mbak salman just slept lo , all night can not sleep" said I gave understanding.
"The child's stomach you tell sleep continues to talk if you are lazy he plays" he said as he passed to the front,
"O Allah is the son of a fussy night now when I am slandered for males ngajak him" I muttered in my heart to keep quiet so as not to speak.
"Benefiting salman last night coughing can't sleep" I said because I saw my brother-in-law who kept trying to wake salman up, if you want to be angry, of course I want to be angry once but free I must be wrong.
"That's because you mostly drink ice and drink excessive water" he said .
I went straight into the room because I didn't want to be lazy, expressed all my emotions in the room by crying because I'm a mother who doesn't care for children .
The sound of salman's cry became more and more because he did need a break but I let and did not want to know because I had given understanding but mala diomelin.
Suddenly my sister-in-law went straight into the room.
"Have known the crying child kayak gini mbok yes the initiative of his son was taken instead of staying in the room" he said directly giving salman to me.
"Kan from earlier has not said that mbak salman from semalem fussy and can not sleep, uh just slept already taken aja pantes if salman fuss constantly" I said I don't want to lose because it's also about my son.
"Yes, she became a mother who became dong Becus already know breastfeeding and many behaviors " he said it again but I do not want to reply to all his words again because maybe he thought she was the smartest mother in the world wong her child just snot to dry the straws let wkwkwk.
I started again to cradle the salman so that he went back to sleep after almost 15 minutes I held the salman finally he fell asleep too and I also joined to relax because it was tired since last night almost did not sleep at all..
........
40 Days after I give birth and my puerperium is over, I decided to go directly to the KB program only because there is a lot of experience in sosmed that is not direct to 2-month-old children but in the stomach already 1 month, he said, I didn't want it to happen to me, it's also for Salman's sake because I wanted salman to have a wholehearted affection during his childhood.
I invited the doni mas to prepare to deliver me to the midwife because I also could not if I wanted to go alone because the distance of my house and the midwife's bu about 2 kilometers I still did not dare driving his own motor.
"Mas ayuk anterin rina to the midwife" I replied while fixing the hijab.
" why again you to the midwife "he said while continuing to play the smart phone without having to look at me.
"It is according to the doctor's advice I want to follow the KB program I do not want to concede" said I.
Without me knowing where it came from, my brother-in-law was immediately on the doorstep of the room and engaged in our conversation.
"Newly also 40 days already want KB emang you uda kegatelan what how" said his sewot as if my step is the most wrong and the most despicable .
"Yes according to the advice of the doctor mbak , the completion of the puerperium immediately install KB" said I explained yes he already had two children if he had never been briefed so stupid.
"Yes can not be if the KB is yes if the child is 4 months old because it can make asi drag" he said as if he understood the most when there is a KB recommended for nursing mothers.
"Udah cepet change clothes there is no show pairs KB KB everything mending you now mbak bantuin for snacks because ntar mbak get arisan" he said it as if without sin to tell people as they passed away to leave us.
"Mas please dong you explain give a little understanding to your mom" said I
"Udah nurut aja same experience "say my husband with his ease .
Not that I did not obey because according to the science of doctors a man only 2 weeks able to resist his desire , and this was told to fast 4 months I also do not want to dong events like his household if her husband often snack outside.
Actually, I also do not want to interfere with my sister-in-law's household problems, but I often get news when I was shopping at the stalls of many mothers who gossiped about my sister-in-law's husband suak ngandok at the village widow next door, although the treatment of her husband and family is very bad for me but on the other hand I still want to maintain the integrity of my household , I am sure someday everything will change.
I actually I also feel something strange to my husband, he seemed reluctant to get close to me and keep my distance, of course as a wife I feel different and like ignored, I feel different, because he used to be a figure of understanding and always attention to me even though sometimes small things but so far during the 3 years of our household there was no dispute but everything changed since I gave birth.
......
Somehow today arrived my head felt heavy and the more I tried to strongly endure the pain but the more it hurt unknowingly I finally fainted unconscious .
My husband called the midwife and after being examined it turned out that my blood pressure was very low because I was soybean and liked to stay up late, he said, finished examined the midwife gave the medicine and vitamins and then decided to go home because there was another job,after the departure of the midwife I think I can rest for a while and my husband wants to take turns caring for salman but I am still getting insults from my husband's family and worse in my position like this my husband does not I have spoken a little to defend myself.
"Mas I ask please for us to replace keep salman yes, later if salman hungry you just take stock of breast milk in the frezer and all bottles of milk salman is also clean, I want to rest for a while" I said while enduring a headache, Salman happened to be not fussy at this time .
"Yes you just rest let me take care of Salman anyways he is now again sleeping " replied mas doni continue to play his smart phone.
It was only 30 minutes before I fell asleep from my sleep but I heard a noise that occurred in the family room, because I was also curious I finally hid behind the wall of room , I vaguely heard their debate.
"With him you find a wife do not come from origin, do not want to be difficult to give birth, just momong aja one child is already sick, how if you will have many children" said my sister-in-law,
"Tuh denger what your brother said in the wife if giving birth just do not want to fight how later to fight for the sake of a small family just refuse "reward my mother-in-law by continuing to pump my husband.
"Where ya din if momong baby is difficult but should not be spoiled because it is an obligation as a woman, you are too soft with your wife" reply brother iapt who I don't know what until brother-in-law continues to pump my husband.
"Udah does not want to struggle to give birth, little bit sick, very weak your wife don not to mention if you are not home , malesnya itulo kebangetan , ' he said ,messy house in the wild if the mother reprimands because of the child and child, old mother long dizzy see your wife " mom keeps telling lies about me when I haven't dawn I immediately cook and clean up this house mala said I did not do anything and that makes the house messy is the sister-in-law's child and there too there is a sister-in-law who always brings snacks home and leaves the trash just like that,
"Udah lah ma'am may be tired rini so this time udin helpin" said my husband.
"No, here there is no nature of boys doing women's work especially until the baby momong can drop your degree as a man" said the mother-in-law.
"Yes you don, so two children never bother your mas at all" replied the brother-in-law
"What's wrong with this is only once and in an emergency" my husband replied"
" anything should not point, you want to be an ungodly child because you do not want to obey what your mother says, remember heaven is on the soles of the feet of the mother" said the mother in a high tone.
"Sana quickly wake up your wife, mom does not want to know if you want to be an ungodly child, please that's your decision" continued the mother
I who heard their debate behind the walls of the room I immediately squeezed my chest firmly, what was wrong in women when giving birth secar, minah kah in the eyes of the community, and, is it wrong if I ask for help from my husband because I am now sick again, after all my husband's children, why everything seems to be charged to women.
I cried out all the heartache, aki did not step back it turned out this way their behavior behind me deserve my husband lately as if to stay away from me , faintly I heard footsteps leading to the room, I immediately pretended to sleep and wanted to know what my husband's response was whether he complied with his mother or vice versa,
I was behind the blanket deliberately closed my eyes suddenly without me expecting the doni mas woke me up very rudely.
" the deck quickly woke up you were cooking from earlier had not healed" he immediately grabbed the blanket I was wearing and threw violently in any direction, he said, fortunately I woke up when I was still sleeping maybe I was getting worse for him, for the whole marriage he never was rude to me.