
"You don't know what it's like!"
I had to go home sooner than Hera, my cousin's brother, because he yelled at me with that line. But never mind, maybe she's upset because of her husband.
Any woman would be heartbroken to see a man she loves have a relationship with another woman. Not that I never understood it, I was even in that condition, rather looking at my own mother's situation.
After he listened to the news that dad had a younger wife, he became like an undead. We had doctors, nobody could cure him.
All under normal circumstances, and in the medical records there was not a single discrepancy. When asked which part of it hurts? He just said, "Once, but I don't feel like I'm in this body."
Furthermore, his days were only spent sitting on the porch of the house while looking at the courtyard with a blank look, until he was completely unable to sit there again, then left for eternity. My mother went with a healthy body but carried a long-dying heart.
The incident traumatized me to step foot into the marriage stage, and chose to be single until the age of 35 years.
He's a good guy and very established. I could not believe that the main director at my place of work, had secretly put his heart on me. As a person who works there, it is foolish not to know the movements of other colleagues to win the heart of the handsome Mas Awan and still single.
That's what makes it feel special, because of the many beautiful women who approached, none of them responded. He only replied with a normal and reasonable attitude. It is a rare creature that is hard to find on the surface of the earth.
I was really surprised when he told me how he felt, when he brought the file into his room to check it, and after that I got out of work because Mas Awan told me to stop so I could focus on his offer.
He promised, if next I do not find a match, he will still accept me to work back there, but if you are willing then the task as a secretary must be released from the beginning, indeed, to avoid unpleasant rumors.
I accepted the offer openly and cleaned my desk by bringing home the 3-month salary promised severance, after teaching some things to Mbak Opi who is also a schoolmate Mas Awan, as my replacement.
For three months, Mas Awan was able to make me feel comfortable to get out of the trauma of the household failure that my mother had experienced. I'm absolutely sure, will not die silly like him because of the depravity of creatures created by God as 'men'.
Everyone was so happy that our marriage was five years old. Mas Awan really pampered me like a princess, although I ended up asking myself not to be helped by a domestic assistant because I did not have many activities to do. There is not much to clean up in the house, because we have not been blessed with a baby until now, but it is not a problem for our family.
As usual, I prepared neatly on the bed, the laundry that I had taken this afternoon for my husband to wear after taking a shower before he was ready for dinner.
TING
The handle reads, someone just sent a message. At first glance I saw the face of a young woman with wavy brownish hair sending a message through whatsapp with the contact name Irene.
[Thank you very much. Sorry, today can't take long ]
There was no suspicion there, nor was there a sense of wanting to check the contents of the message before, although I knew that the device had never been locked by Mas Awan. I went to the kitchen to prepare a table for dinner.
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"Tomorrow prepare. We will go to my school reunion" Mas Awan said, enjoying his coffee before leaving for work.
"Reunion?"
"Yes, reunion. The dress is not beautiful yes, later many of my friends who glanced," woo Mas Awan while kissing my forehead and then go away.
The atmosphere was so lively and lively at the event. There was no one I knew except my husband and Ms. Opi who were also present with her family and children. I held Tina, her five-year-old second child. Her face is so beautiful wrapped in a pink dress with cute beaded ornaments, exactly like a fairy.
The dark blue dress that contrasts with my white skin invited various admiration when Mas Awan introduced me to some of his friends.
It was just that my feelings were suddenly interrupted when one of them said. "Beautiful than Irene." The same name as the brown haired woman I accidentally saw was sending a message to Mas Awan. Because of that name as well, the person saying that word should receive a strong nudge from my husband's elbow.
"Hmmm, no one," replied Mas Awan somewhat tensely. I'm sure there's something wrong with that name.
"If it's nobody, why did you elbow your friend earlier, Mas?" I went back to asking questions trying to find out about someone named Irene.
"He ... "
"Who is he, Mas?"
"He was my ex in school. You don't have to put it in your heart, it's just monkey love" explained Mas Awan.
I tried not to cry, I turned my gaze to the window to see the street lights that seemed to walk away from us and changed with other lights. I tried to be positive, but I couldn't ignore the whispers, that my husband might be having an affair.
I couldn't sleep at night. It was so big that I wanted to try to check Mas Awan's device and see what really happened between the woman named Irene and her.
When she fell asleep, I forced myself to touch her dress and check the contents of the message from the woman.
[Where is my son? ]
[This is it ]
My hands shook and felt almost fainted when I also saw the woman sending her picture with a little man who might be a year old smiling to the camera.
He could have hidden all the lies in our marriage, and it was as if nothing had ever happened. So all the words about the baby who is never given are not a problem, just nonsense. The proof is that she has a child with another woman. My world collapsed that night.
Mas Awan moved, he changed his sleeping position and hugged my body from behind. My tears felt the warmth of his body sticking to my back. You have heart, Mas. I'm totally wrong to judge you.
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I took my salary and walked out of the room sobbing after my husband came out to work. My chest was crowded, full of disappointment while searching for her secretary contact number.
"Good morning, ma'am, how can I help you?" ask Opi from there. He's really professional.
"Can you tell me about Irene?" I hold back the crying. I don't want Ms. Opi to assume that there is suspicion between the damned woman and my husband.
"Which irene is it, Mom?" Ma'am Opi is confused.
"The Cloud intends to add employees. At the reunion yesterday, I accidentally heard his name referred to as one of the references from alumni friends. Mas Awan asked me to find information about him. Mommy Opi know where she lives?"
I was forced to lie so that Ms. Opi would not be suspicious. Although it is not working there anymore, but every new employee who will enter, indeed Mas Awan always assigns me to interview.
Suddenly Mba Opi fell silent, then cried and made me even more confused. Is there really something between my husband and that woman? Could Opi cry over me who has been lied to by his own boss? Stammering, he replied to my question.
"When she gave birth to her son a year ago, Ire .... "
Deg ....
Not yet had time for Ms. Opi to finish her sentence, I had already cut off the phone connection and roared with all my might to accept the fact that my husband was completely depraved. All men are the same, they are cursed creatures that can never be held by his words.
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