
"There's a loe too, Na. But don't open it first. If nothing happens to me, just love everything, including yourself."
"No need to talk macem-macem. Many of your sins are the same as mine. I will not apologize in a short time. Loe thought it could be as easy as dying?" Said Rina while wiping away the rushing tears on her cheeks.
"There are 6 letters in total. Everyone gets a letter. I have written each of his names, you stay. Love the white envelope first, after that the red envelope, which you can read take turns."
"Yes bringel."
"But you have to be sure that the white is blue first, then you love the red color, Na."
"Gue do'ain this letter will not open, let me not complicated connect everything. Where you don't want me to pulse again. Get well, don't ask for a macem."
The pain in her heart as Rina recalled the conversation between her and Ami before her departure a few days ago. Hugging Caca, a two-year-old little princess, from a tough woman who's gone after fighting for months against the toxoplasmosis that invaded her brain.
Today is exactly a week after Ami died. Rina had contacted the four people to give a letter to each person according to the mandate requested by Ami.
After everything is complete. Lina gave a white envelope to everyone to read
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For My Dad.
I don't know if I should call you Dad? You don't seem to have a wife and children.
But it's okay because without you, Mom and I are going strong. We try to get through everything together, we are independent, we become stronger. Thank you very much, all thanks to you.
Thanks to you choosing to go with that seductress. Not just because of her, I used to hear you fighting with Mom for different names. And finally I have to get out of that house. Bring the remains of the stain you gave.
You left us curses, insults, scorn, even we had to be cast out by Mother's family when they found out and Mom got sick and assumed that she was a despicable woman.
Oh no!! I was never with anyone after you left. He's sacred. Unlike you who's dirty and disgusting.
We never knew until Mom had to get sick and go to the hospital. It's too late to know what you've brought to our lives. I was almost crazy to have to know the fact that I was born in the same state as my mother, in the condition of being pregnant with my son Caca.
You are the one who left the wounds that we had to carry until the end of our lives, the wounds of hearts and wounds that will never disappear from our bodies.
BECAUSE IT'S...
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For Hendra.
Hii. How are you doing there? Still healthy? I hope so.
Sorry if I had to collect you here. I don't mean to take your responsibility for a child you never want to admit to.
One of the mistakes in my life is having been with you who turned out to secretly make a wedding plan with your beautiful friend, even though all the valuable things I have had have been given to you.
You idiot!! I was so stupid back then. I am truly sorry and ask forgiveness from my Lord, myself, my mother and the fetus that must be left in my womb.
I just can't figure out why you made up a story that I've sinned with another man before you. You yourself can definitely see with your own eyes when my blood membrane is torn by you.
And after that, I didn't approach anyone and didn't want to be approached by anyone. I don't want anyone to be that hard because of me.
I don't want to leave trouble for more people, because I know.
I KNOW THAT...
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For Beautiful.
Hello Beautiful. We meet again, even if only from a letter.
Do you remember when Hendra introduced you to me as his coworker? You may have forgotten, because if you remembered that I had a relationship with Hendra, you would not have planned a wedding while I was with him.
Now you can relax, lovely. When I read this letter I was no longer there. Maybe you also heard the news from Hendra because I asked Rina to preach it.
Oh yes, it's beautiful. I want to tell you, that I have forgiven you and Hendra.
Just so you know, beautiful. After she threw away me who had the seeds from her, I no longer tried to contact her.
Maybe I was so young back then for you fools. Hahaha even I had to drop out of school because I was pregnant, and I ended up without a husband. That was your husband's son, Hendra.
But you and Hendra should be more careful and check immediately after this. Don't let what I fear happen.
FOR THE REASON THAT...
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For Revelation.
Hi, handsome... Thank you so much for being in my life. But sorry that we can't be together.
Not because I don't like you, Revelations. You are great, handsome, charismatic, and most importantly, I see sincerity in you. When everyone rejected me, you were the second person after Rina to be the best to me.
I leave my son Caca to Rina, sometimes please look at him. I don't have any more brothers, so come in occasionally to fill the void for Father in his life
I honestly love you too. Big wants me to live life together like the intentions you've expressed to me. But sorry, Revelation, I can't.
Sorry for my last big rejection before I got sick. You must live perfectly, as perfectly as your heart, Revelation. I want you to live happily, but not with me.
ALL OF THESE REJECTIONS ARE BECAUSE...
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To Rina.
Friend, brother. Forgive me for all the burdens I have given you. Not even a week after my departure, you should gather them to read my letter.
I'm putting my angel on you, Na. Please love him like your own son. Just get out of your contract, just stay at Mom's. There's nobody else there but Caca, consider it your home, too.
All the needs of Caca we have prepared since Mother is still alive. You can pick it up in Mom's in-room safe and some other securities.
You're the only one I can trust, Rina. He was too small to be left behind by those who could look after him.
One more, Lina. Make sure those who read my letter read the red envelopes I leave you with after they have finished reading their letters, so that they all know.
KNOW THE FACT THAT...
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"Why the hell are we always here, Ma?" The sentence that came out of Caca's tiny lips while staring at Rina in the hospital waiting room.
But all was silent when the officer called "Family Mr. Revelation, let's go in."
Apocalypse and Rina set off towards the direction of the officer. This is the seventh time Caca has been taken there to check his blood every year.
"Alhamdulillah, Sir. The Result is Non-Reactive. Caca's clean." said the officer.
A feeling of relief emanated from the faces of Revelation and Rina.
"Let's go, son. He said he wanted ice cream?" Revelation
"Come, Pa. Which is chocolate. Hurry, Ma. Later Mama misses," while singing her lips
"Mom go to the toilet first, son"
Lina held tightly inside the bag, a red envelope given by Ami four years ago.
Gratitude because he didn't have to show it to Caca. Not yet now, maybe a few more years when he's old enough.
In the sink mirror he saw his face with reddened eyes unable to hold back tears because he had to remember his best friend.
The opening of a shabby red envelope witnessed the cries and shock of 5 people four years ago with trembling hands. He read back two painful words of Ami's handwriting.
The two words that made Lina cry screamed hysterically while hugging the baby Caca. Revelations is unable to speak a word when she returns home, before she decides to marry Rina to raise Caca together. Make Ami's father who sat limp and resigned when receiving a hard blow from Hendra's hand. And make Hendra who must accept the claw and shout, "You bring calamity to my life" from his beautiful wife.
Two words in the red envelope. Two painful words.
"I'M HIV"
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➖ Sarah Eszed ➖