
"Why can't you take care of your sister?" I heard Mama's voice.
He was waiting for Sisi to finish cleaning up his foul-smelling body from some of his classmates when we got home from the bazaar tonight.
"It's just an egg, Ma. Our tradition when there is a birthday," the defense from Sisi while looking at me sadly.
"What kind of "tradition is that? Your brother is there. If she had a brain, she should know you can't take a night shower. It'll hurt."
That's Mama. He is more affectionate and overprotective of Sisi, arguing for being weak. If I don't do anything, everything will be connected and it will be my fault.
Though today is also my birthday, but not treated as sweet as Sisi. This morning, I had to blow out the candles on the pink cake, Sisi's favorite color.
My mother never considered my presence. The Golden Twins are just people. It seems beautiful, harmonious, harmonious, but it's no good for me. I wish I hadn't even been born into this family.
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"I'm sorry, Bang Riki," Sisi's voice spoke behind my gray door.
I just kept quiet and did not answer, he remained firm not to leave there.
"I won't leave before Brother Maafin," his voice seemed to be holding back a cry.
Unable to let her there, I began to stand stepping towards the front door of the room to let her in. The door was not open yet, my mother's voice sounded.
"Go to your room. You don't need to go near your brother. He cannot think, what is good and what is not. I don't know what's in his head."
Sisi seemed to comply, because after that I heard the sound of steps away. And once again Mama hurt me because of that kid.
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"That's it. You're just staying tonight at my house. It can be crazy to take care of your sister for a long time," asked Edi after I told you about last night.
"Your parents allowed it?" my many.
"Father and Mother are going out of town. We played the game all night," he replied excitedly.
"What's right, ah?"
"Yes that. They would be happy if someone accompanied them. Rather than me taking my girlfriend Bella, they'd rather agree that you're the one I'm talking to, "Edi's sedition while raising his eyebrows.
After school, I asked permission to go to Edi's house. Mama asked without asking this. After putting in some clothes, I went downstairs to say goodbye.
"Antar first Sisi. He wants to study a group" said Mama when she saw me. What do you think of his favorite son's private motorcycle?
"What kind of group is this Sunday night?" my mouth, annoyed
"Leave it. It's called pinter, it has a brain, rather than you who wander," said Mama.
Sluggish said? I'm not going anywhere. Just nginep at Edi's house. That was permission before. My heart was in revolt, but just shut up and walked away.
"Hurry along. I wait outside, Princess," as I walk past Sisi.
"No need, Bang. I'll just order Ojek Online,"
"Tape! I've been scolded. You want to get ready now, or I'll leave ...?"
"Ehemmm," before continuing my sentence, mama had cleared her throat from behind as she left her waist.
I switched out of the house waiting on the bike. From there came the voice of Mama fighting with Sisi. It must be because he is defending me right now.
Sisi is a good boy. He loves me very much. We were very familiar long before the day that Papa had to go for all eternity.
Maybe it was because of that incident that made Mama hate me until now. If only ... at that time I was still sitting in the ninth grade directly out when Papa picked up home from school, he would not meet the robbers who tried to take his car keys.
I just got Sisi filled with bloodstains roaring by the roadside hugging Papa who had to accept seven stabs at her body, after hearing one of the friends yell "There was a school front accident" in the cafeteria, where to spend my orange juice.
A whole month too, I cried in her room to apologize. Even I carried a cutter and put it in his hand, asking him to make a cut on my face or on my body, so that he would feel fair, so that he would know that I was hurt like him too. But he threw away the cutter and said his first sentence. "It's okay, Bang," hugging me who kissed her knee.
Unfortunately Mama is not like Sisi. He never accepted me completely. In her mind, maybe because of me, she had to be a widow and raise us alone. Lucky Papa has some effort while still alive so Mama does not have to fear lack.
"No brain," is a phrase he used to say to me.
Yes, I was wrong. Kill me, or poison me. But not by making me feel like the most useless human being of my entire life.
The exit side of the house blew my mind about what happened two years ago. His eyes were red, like he was crying. I didn't discuss anything, just start the bike and drive it to the address where they were going to study.
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"Oh yes. Before we go, we go home. My phone was left behind apparently," I explained. Edi just nodded while cleaning up the soft drink used glass last night that was on the table.
This afternoon we are planning to go to the cinema. Surely we'll pick up Bella first, Edi's date who is also a class with her.
"Not to be male, baby. Later I'll dream of dreams," he said centil, mimicking Bella's style.
A horror movie is one that he will choose for us to watch later, in the hope of being able to hug Bella when she is frightened to see a spooky scene.
"I'll let him sit near my left breast so I can hear my heartbeat." He rhymed while twirling the napkin into the air.
I just laughed shook my head at his behavior while helping him clean up the remnants of the Junk Food war that we ordered using the ojek online application last night.
Actually I don't want to come. I still refused even though I promised one Baskin Robbins ice cream at the most expensive price if I was ready. But after he reminded, rather than me being picked up again at home, I immediately agreed.
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Arriving on the terrace, I opened the shoes followed by Edi from behind. When I opened the door, from the inside stood Mama who pulled my clothes forcibly.
PLAAAKKK!️
Mama's hard slap landed on my cheek.
"Where have you been. Called, sms, wa, not answered?"
I looked down while holding my cheek. It hurts, but it doesn't hurt as much as my heart, because he humiliated me in front of other people.
Edi seems to understand. "I'll just wait outside, Ki, Auntie," and then back away shut the door.
"Why don't you take your sister to her friend's house? He almost harassed the drunken youths there," Mama snapped.
I was still silent, not understanding his words.
"No, Ma. They just fucked me. I panicked and cried. Fina was confused and called Mama, "Sisi ran over and grabbed my hand.
"It is only natural that girls will cry when faced with that condition."
"You have no brain! Can't be responsible for delivering your sister, " Mam said as she shook my head.
Not accept being treated like that, I pushed Sisi to fall, as an impingement.
"You! You're the cause of all this. Too whiny! Haven't wept yet." I point at the face of the angry side.
Mama was furious to see me corner her favorite child. He took out a living room sofa cushion that was finally thrown at my head.
"If there's no you. Your father is alive today. You're the cause of his death. You're a murderer!" mama's accusation made me stop staring at Sisi.
I fell silent, turned my body around and stared sinisterly at his face. Then I left them and ran into the kitchen looking for something.
"Do you want what?" snapped Mama.
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