
The night suddenly felt more and more silent, all the way Morgan grasped my hand dear, the night was so long and gray, while the illusion kept on swaying my head. I jolted my hand, and I pushed her hand out of my hand when I got home.. Since that meeting, my heart has been in a state of turmoil. I've already ruined everything, so it's better if I finish it too.
I look at him, he's still busy taking off the jacket. Usually we understand and appreciate each other. Maybe it was because I was too immersed in daydreaming, or because of a huge sense of guilt. We snorted for a moment. He was holding two shirts in his hand as if he was choosing which one to wear. While I keep looking at him.
“Morgan, you got me killed before my death.” I said inwardly.
I admired his dexterity and kindness as well as his way of explaining the basis of his thinking in living his life choices. He looks more mature than his age. Help had made me subconsciously enter his world, while he entered mine. He is a criminal, a robber, a rebel, but in his dark life he is like keeping a million mysteries that no one else is allowed to touch.
How can I be the lover of this kind of man? Which woman is capable? Oh, Maya's one of them. But does Maya know who Morgan really is?, which woman is capable? Who is willing to serve his passion? If you knew Morgan was a Criminal, a gentle, kind, mature woman as smart as Kak Maya would probably think twice.
I daydreamed long in the bathroom, I put back on the long, red dress I wore at the engagement and the clothes I first wore when I stepped on this house. I really hate myself, how can I hurt someone like that, that I really understand and respect my love for Morgan, that's another thing. But if I fight for it by hurting Maya's heart, it will take away my love.
But if I get kicked out immediately without having time to fight for my love, it will be the same as regret. Not necessarily I can meet Morgan back. Sorry Maya, as you said: You like her, right? Then you have to fight for it too. I took a breath, then came out of the bathroom.
“Morgan.” I said
He who was still busy choosing sleepwear immediately turned to me. “Hey, what are you doing? Why wear that shirt? If I get cold, I will buy new clothes. Wear it!”
“Begini, Morgan..”
“I heard your story, but change clothes first.”
“Begini..”.
Morgan was silent for a moment then looked at me sharply,“Speaking after changing clothes, huh?”
But I don't stay silent, I won't lose to someone's bullying gaze. I looked back at him, with a serious face.Listen, maybe you did not think of such a thing. But I'm also a woman.”
“Iya, I also know it.”
I walked up to Morgan who was not far from my distance right now.
“I don't think I'm so bad, even though I'm not as old as Maya and you. I look more frontal, but I like it. I haven't been in contact with anyone, but I'm pulling right?”
“Hmm..May”
“You making out?” I said back.
Morgan, who had been shy, immediately turned his face, looked back at me. With a slightly high tone, he was furious at me. “I told you I'd throw you out if I tried to tease me again!”
I reflexively squeezed the strong sleeve of the shirt he was wearing, “What's the matter? Wh why? Is this all because of Maya?” then without hesitation I raised my hand, wrapped it around Morgan's neck, “Do you not want to do it with me? Did you not think about it at all?”
“Hey, Hey stop!”
“If not answered, I will not stop!”
“You're not really interested in me? Even if I do this for you?” just keep me back.
“Of course I am interested, where there are guys who are not interested if in this tease!” Morgan then took my hand back, grasped it tightly, made my heart race fast like there was a dynamo swirling in it. My face immediately hot, flushed.
“Why did you even become embarrassed after teasing me so!”
“Ma, sorry.”
“Quickly move away, or I'll be really Angry!”
Morgan told me to sit on the bed and she sat in my front seat, we started to act calmer, not drifting in each other's feelings. I feel a little more comfortable, so does Morgan. He sat down relaxed as usual. I ventured to open the conversation.
“Begini, actually. But picking up a spoiled and useless woman like me must be very troublesome for you, right?” I said, “ eatya I think should offer another reward.”
“then make your body in return?” timpal Morgan's.
I nodded, “At first I didn't want to either, because it's a very cheap thing. I often see in my neighborhood there are many kok related like this, all men are basically the nature of the breed is a wild animal that is ready to prey if it is hungry, especially if the prey surrendered themselves. And a weak woman, for the sake of survival, will do anything, including becoming a butterflies of lust. That's why I don't understand, why did you allow me to stay here? I'm not giving you anything, you're used to living alone, surely cleaning the house is easy, right? Though I was so troublesome and useless, but you were still being nice to me. Because you are too good, I thought not to be thrown away, to the point of anxiety and fear.”
“you..” Morgan.
“I don't understand. I really want to be useful to Morgan, useful to you.”
Without me noticing Morgan getting up from the seat, he grabbed my shoulder. Drown myself back in his arms.
“What? Aspical!” I said whimpering, when Morgan's Dekapan was so tight, it made me have trouble breathing, “A, what's up Morgan? Stuffy! Release!”
“No want!”
“Listen well, you are very beautiful, your curves are also ideal. Beautiful, even though you are spoiled but you want to learn. You are so perfect. But me, I'm not in love with you. And I'll never make out with a woman I don't love. I appreciate your opinion of a man with a lustful spirit like a wild animal, but you must not become a butterfly willing to surrender yourself easily, just to survive.” Reciprocity.
My eyes were round, staring at him in tears as he then let go of his embrace.
“Listen yes, I refused!” Morgan is back.
“You will only fondle the woman you love. Then that's Maya's sister?”
“Haa.?!”
“Kak Maya is your lover, right? You don't refuse when he hugs you. I saw him at the end of the road, when out find the wind.”
Suddenly Morgan flicked my Ken, “Basic, Sok knows! I told you I met an old colleague, and Maya was my partner. He was indeed a person who liked suddenly so, because he was an easy person to get along with. Not just me, with everything. Aahh, by the way so this is the reason you didn't return home earlier?”
“I think you guys are dating, and you will bring Kak Maya to come by the house. I'm afraid you guys got misunderstood because I was there!” reply limp.
“Stupid, where any woman wants to be with a criminal!”
If you knew, would you not be aware? Is it invisible? There is, the answer is there. She's the woman standing in front of you now.