Deep
Break Out

🎶🎶

If we are born again, we,

If we allow to love again.

Let's not do anything like this again,

Let's not meet too often, please,

Let's not expect too much, though,

Let's not make a lot of promises.

So even if we split up, though,

We can take each other off without so much as a wound,

Let's just make a simple memory, which we can forget about each other's hearts.

Now I know that love too deep it won't be us.

It will be a wound.

Please be happy more than me

A lot of time passes and we forget about each other

Let's reminisce about our past

If only we could say this is love,

Then all that is what we need

Now I know love is too deep,

Just brings a sad ending

My love, I pray for you for your next love

May not be like us, though,

It will run without injury

Please be happy more than me

I hope the heavens know my heart.

🎶🎶

...***...

(Lixian side)

I smiled at the gift with a pink gift wrapper in the passenger seat. And grabbed the white lilies next to her and sipped them for a while and put them back.

I hope he likes it.

Taxis were driving when the traffic lights showed green.

Entering the apartment area that has been the last two years I have always visited since then. And now that I've come again it's been a long time.

Jiwon - ahh, na bogoshipeo.

I deliberately wanted to surprise him by not preaching when he arrived in Korea this is his birthday and of course I want him to be surprised by my presence. I inserted Jiwon's apartment access card.

Yes, I do not have it because I often stay here. Jiwon only gave it to me a while ago because my plane was delayed by a few hours when I was going back to Shanghai and I had to wait almost five hours at the airport while I was checking out of our hotel. And then Jiwon gave me her apartment access card just in case it happened again and when she couldn't get me to the airport.

From: Kim Jiwon

"Oppa eodiya ? Your manager called me asking you ? Don't always habitually not tell."

I giggled at the message on purpose I also did not care about my manager for my visit to Korea.

I'll take care of it later, now I'll reply to Jiwon's message.

^^^To : Kim Jiwon

^^^"I'm at Ji's house, what are you doing?"^^^

From: Kim Jiwon

"I'm at my friend's wedding"

^^^To : Kim jiwon

^^^"Ok, hopefully next year replace us ehh"^^

^^^"Yes, be careful to go home later"^^

From: Kim Jiwon

"Hehey"

"Geureu oppa"

I also keep my phone back in my pocket.

And headed to the kitchen to relieve my throat which had not been able to flow white water since leaving for the airport. I just finished filming and flew to Korea.

I placed the gifts and flowers I brought in the living room facing the balcony and opened the birthday cake I ordered on my way from the airport and prepared the candles.

Until I heard the noise in the living room.

Is he home yet?

But my steps stopped and chose to stop behind the wall that connects the living room and the middle room.

And, I heard everything even I saw who came.

Although I admit my feelings are often disturbed if they are close and chat some things that are like never ending. Even so I always brushed off those feelings.

But today...

I wanted to surprise myself, but why am I surprised by what I see and hear right now.

Keeping my attitude to you..?

Wait, so this whole time Chanyeol...

Ahh, why can't I realize that?

I could see Jiwon crying when she saw the young man leaving.

Why does he seem to be unwilling to go.

Does Jiwon really like it?

Do they really love each other ?

But...

So all this time...

I sighed trying to strengthen myself after that I ventured to walk towards the girl.

Kim Jiwon's.

The girl I love.

I hugged her body that was shaking.

"Mianhae-yo" just that word came out of my mouth.

How could I not have realized it.

Ii'm sorry.

We shouldn't have done it, he shouldn't have hurt himself just because he wanted to keep my feelings in check.

"Why are you here ? When did you get back to Korea, hem?" He asked in a hoarse voice because he was crying.

"Mianhae - yoo jeongmal mianhae - yoo" again that was the only word I could tell her.

I felt him take off my arms and turn around. I saw her tears still remaining on her cheeks further breaking my heart completely. It shouldn't have been like this from the beginning.

Indirectly I was the one who caused it.

Maianhamda Jiwon - iie.

He looked at me, "Lixian Hajimal" he said.

"Jiwon-iie, do you love me ?"

I don't want to be a hypocrite if I'm disappointed in him right now.

And, if I may be selfish I want Jiwon's answer like when Chanyeol asks

Did he also intend to accept my proposal a moment ago.

But I also don't want to continue what shouldn't have to go on.

I wiped her tears, "My answer"

I saw that he was so difficult to answer, I could see it from his eyes that were back in tears and then hugged me back.

"Mianhae" sheen.

I smiled blandly, and yes I know the answer now.

I returned his embrace at least I hope this will be for the best.

Jiwon - iie, wo aini.

...***...

Falling in love who never felt it. Things that for some people might make him happy. Why do I call a few, because for some people it's a happy thing but it's also hurt.

He is someone precious in my eyes.

KIM JIWON'S

After meeting at a film production I starred with him. Why after that it's like I can't stay away from her. His relaxed bearing, his friendly attitude towards everyone, even his sincere smile if explained, I might not find anything that makes me unhappy if I look at him.

After a year passed after filming finished we often communicated until in the next six months I expressed my feelings. I didn't ask her to be my lover I just asked her to live it with me, and that nod was enough because I knew we were working in a world where there would be interference from other people in every decision made and it was hard to make a relationship.

Although to be honest, since that time I did not want anything bigger than I wanted to always be around him.

How can I hold him.?

Trying to put all the differences together, trying to understand each other, even though I know we're different enough for a lot of things but I always convince him.

Ah, that's too complicated to tell.

Two years of knowing now may only be enough to be stored in a chapter of the story that must be closed because of the mass. But I know I'm going to learn a lot for all of this.

Thank you Kim Jiwon.

Thanks memories.

If we can't walk the same path now,

I'm sure the future will be more beautiful.

We don't know what it's gonna be like, but it's all gonna get missed.

If not with you, at least I'm happy to know you.