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GIVE UP

"Be careful" Jiwon said when Li Xian was about to return to Shanghai he was only staying overnight and this morning he was going back to his country.

Guilt continued to envelop Jiwon, how not even after that the man seemed like nothing. They even celebrated Jiwon's birthday that night. One who is always in his memory.

~" I'm disappointed, but I never hated you and my goal here is to celebrate your birthday so why should I mess it up myself"~

How could it be so sincere?

"Jiwon - iie, promise me one thing !" Said the man while facing off with Jiwon.

"Don't feel guilty to me, hem?" Lixian said as if she knew what she had in mind right now.

How could he not feel guilty about her, which is true.

"I let you down how not to feel guilty, indirectly I like giving a pseudo-relationship between us" Jiwon began to tear up.

Li Xian smiled faintly, "Here you go, I know you will cry again if we discuss it, and how can I calmly leave if I see you crying like this, huh?" He cupped Jiwon's face down.

"So soon find a good girl, if you want me to feel no guilt" the girl said.

Back the man only smiled faintly, until the plane that Li Xian was boarding was about to depart.

He stood up followed by Jiwon.

@Incheon Airport

"Be careful when you go home, there may be many reporters outside, also take care of your diet, do not eat too often instant ramyeon. Hem?"

Jiwon nodded, "You too," The girl could be seen looking at him as though she had guilt in her eyes.

The man did not answer and pulled Jiwon into his arms.

Farewell hug.

"Don't worry" that's all he said from his lips before he left.

Jiwon looked at the man's back, not even turning around just to wave at the girl as usual.

I hope you find your own happiness out there.

Unknowingly a clear grain just dripped from his eyes.

Why should I cry?

It's not the best.

Soon the girl wiped her tears and came out of the vip waiting room at the airport.

...***...

While that afternoon in another corner a man was standing behind the door leading to the balcony of his apartment. Enjoying the atmosphere of the city of Seoul, accompanied by a hot coffelate he sipped at a glance. The drink was a little calming for him who had a lot on his mind lately.

Until he heard the sound of his phone he glanced at it at a glance then snorted and ignored the call when he knew who was listed on the screen of his phone.

Almost ten times a day this name called him but he never responded. Until Chanyeol's eleventh call the man finally grabbed his phone. But instead of being picked up he deactivated his phone and threw it into the bed behind him. Fortunately only the bed is not the floor, unfortunately also if you have to waste expensive small objects and it looks like Chanyeol is still using his logic.

He massaged his temple and was about to drink back his coffelatenya but was restrained because suddenly someone rang the bell of his apartment. He turned his head to think who these nights were coming into his apartment. He pressed the lcd button next to the door to see who his guests were.

And Baekhyun and Sehun were there and they opened the door immediately.

"So right you're hiding here ?" Baekhyun exclaimed as Chanyeol opened the door for them.

"Chanyeol - huh, wae geureu ? you know the manager's on a rampage right now because of you"

Baekhyun said after they gathered in the living room.

"Hyung, you've never been like this before" said the speaker.

Chanyeol snorted, "If you come here just to nag me you better just go !"

Sehun and Baekhyun looked, Baekhyun exhaled trying to be patient with Chanyeol's attitude which this time he thought was very childish. After some time ago he was seen talking to the manager he just left the dorm without caring about anyone who passed him. Even this week he has not returned to the dorm just for training.

"Chanyeol-ahh, uljima tell us if you have a problem and don't keep it to yourself !" Baekhyun spoke again.

Chanyeol looked at Baekhyun and Sehun who nodded.

"I.." said Chanyeol.

Chanyeol exhaled and lowered his head.

"I wanted to argue about the news but the manager forbid me he said let the agency take care of it. But I think I deserve it, it's about rights and personal life three years ago I chose silence and decided to be with you first" Chanyeol said, staring at Baekhyun.

"But now an event like three years ago happens again and then what the agency does, I don't think they're really thinking about my right to determine my own privacy they think they can just as easily make and approve the news" Chanyeol continued.

The man seemed to be holding back his emotions.

"I know you have the right to determine that but, we can talk about this kind of thing rather than lock yourself up like this" Baekhyun again advised.

Chanyeol did not answer and chose to sit while supporting his head with both hands.

"You also have to think about a lot of things if you continue like this, you also have to think about the career you've built over the years, thinking of family and friends who would be worried if you continued like this" Baekhyun tried to encourage.

Chanyeol was seen staring at his two best friends in turn.

"How about.." he slightly held back his words.

While Sehun and Baekhyun are seen waiting for the continuation.

"Are we going to live like this forever ?" Further.

"Hyung" Sehun did not know what to say especially so far he was closest to him maybe now his hyung was tired of the reality of life that has always been like that.

He best understood Chanyeol's feelings how hard they built it all. While all supported to form his own sub-unit, he and Chanyeol had to work on their own for the production process and do their own promotions outside of the agency's promotions. And now when they succeed with the dream it is as if the parties who previously did not want to know want to participate when they were above.

"I know that no one can survive like this Baekhyun - iie, all this time I've always wanted to be like you when I'm alone being a person who doesn't think about other people's judgments and attention when I'm alone but the truth is..." Chanyeol breathed his breath.

"Aniya, I can't I've tried but I never can" he continued.

"Want you want to give up now after everything ?" Ask Baekhyun.

Sehun looked at Baekhyun at a glance then looked at the silent Chanyeol.

"If Chanyeol hyung stops, then I'll stop too" she suddenly yelled, leading her two to look at her as if in protest.

"Oh Sehun don't childish !" chanyeol.

"You said we would work together for a long time, and what I understand now is that we're not just coworkers, but we're family, I can't go on with everything if we have to lose again, it's enough that we've lost three people and we're also far away from Zhang Yixing hyung, don't make it any more empty with that hyung" Maknae argued.

"Suhun's right, you can be tired but don't give up we have to think of the many fans out there waiting for us, even they are willing to wait until we are finished and regroup as we are now, do you want to disappoint them ?"

Chanyeol ruined his rough face. Lately, too much trouble makes him unable to think clearly