Deep
HEARTBREAKING
...Bad words came out, contrary to my feelings...
...I'm making you have trouble...
...and I'm so hard...
...Unlike my spirit, it's all hard...
...I always disappoint you, I always regret it...
...I can never forget you, even when the cold wind comes...
...We hugged each other with hunting breaths at night...
...With full of happiness...
...At night we dream of a good tomorrow...
...like starlight...
...I'm gonna find the universe...
...Until I can find you again...
...I won't let go of it, not even the smallest of memories...
...Memories are engraved in the season...
...They came and went several times...
...But I will still call you...
...Memories always bring tears...
...Where all that washed seduce, baby...
...Only you stay...
...It's not a feeling I can end...
...In just one day, with just one try...
...I feel it very painful...
...Wherever you are, I'll go to you...
...I'm gonna find the universe...
...Until I can find you again...
...I won't let go of it, not even the smallest of memories...
...Memories are engraved in the season...
...They're coming back...
...So I'm gonna find you...
...Because it's love...
...Because it's love...
...UNIVERSE - EXO'S...
...***...
The billowing smoke filled the room repeatedly the owner inhaled it for almost five years but this time he wanted to feel it again. His head was so full after his meeting today with the highest staff of SM Ent after he came home from Jiwon's apartment earlier and now he has returned to that apartment again.
"If you can make the decision to date someone you should also be prepared for all the risks that will come."
Chanyeol the man ruffled his hair in frustration the high-ranking SM speech was really bothering his mind now.
"If you're ready to date you should also be ready to risk your career and your group"
"Arhhhh" he groaned irritatedly his breath up and down holding back his anger.
He took one more stick about to light it but the match was so difficult to light the cigarette that it made him even more upset. He threw the cigarette around and ruffled his hair in frustration.
He went to the refrigerator in the kitchen looking for some expensive bottles of wine that he himself kept. Really he needed it now, he poured it almost a full little glass. When he was about to swallow the drink a hand held him and felt someone holding him from behind he so memorized the scent of this perfume. He looked to his right side Sehun was staring at him flat then he turned to his back and put the drink on the table and then turned to find Jiwon who was now looking at him in the shade. He immediately grabbed the body of the girl who was shorter than him.
"Mianhamda" she said without taking off her arms.
"Chanyeol - ahh, gwenchana ?" Ask Jiwon without changing her position.
"Saranghae." replied the man who was impressed not connected with Jiwon's question to make the girl sure that now the man was not okay.
Jiwon pushed Chanyeol's body slightly away in order to see the man's face.
"What's going on?" Ask Jiwon.
"Saranghae Jiwon - ahh." Again, the man did not answer the question correctly.
"Chan,?"
"Tell me that you love me." Please look at the girl seriously this time.
Jiwon tried to dive into what the man had in mind and she was sure that something was happening to him now.
"Jy..."
"Nado... Nado saranghae." cut the girl apart a split second later the man smiled faintly and grabbed the nape of the girl's nape uniting their lips. Kissing her gently channeled how much she loved her, even though she knew very well lately their relationship was so difficult.
Jiwon returned the kiss, for some reason she felt so much that she would miss the man's presence. Chanyeol further deepened his kiss, even though his tears had just flowed as well as Jiwon who was also crying in silence. Anyone would not be okay if they were in their current position.
Too complicated.
That is the reality, when everyone deserves to have a backrest that can listen when they are tired. But for idols and artists all that doesn't apply. Their lives are just to entertain and be the pride of the supporters. No matter if they are tired at that time, some of them are required to always appear everything is always fine. That is the responsibility of a job.
After starting to need oxygen intake Jiwon slightly distanced herself from Chanyeol. The man still looked at her for a second then he felt the big hand wipe away the tears that were soaking his cheeks. Ji-won smiled and did the same. Why do men always cry when they kiss. It doesn't quite match his nickname as "Happy Virus".
"Why do you always cry ?" Ask the guy.
Chanyeol smiled without taking her eyes off, "When I kissed you ?"
"Em."
The man looked dumbfounded and looked at Jiwon again, "I'm too happy."
"Don't lie."
The man shook his head, "I'm really happy after all these years I held him back and finally now I can do it" he replied as long as he made Jiwon hit his arm.
"Yakk."
The man chuckled at the girl, who he believed was wrong.
"I smell cigarettes." The girl's words made Chanyeol feel even more guilty.
"You're smoking again?" Ask again.
It was seen that the man looked the other way where Sehun was standing, even though the man was no longer there. Until he felt Jiwon's hand reach for his face to look at him.
"This is the last." Answer then.
"I'm not banning you." Jiwon said then walked away from Chanyeol who was now cursing herself.
He also chose to follow Jiwon who is now talking with Sehun in front of the entrance of her apartment.
"Gomawo Sehun-ahh, you've helped me a lot today."
The man surnamed Oh smiled and looked at Chanyeol at a glance and then turned to the girl again, "I'm saying goodbye" he said, then passed after the girl nodded and asked him to be careful.
Jiwon turned to find Chanyeol looking at her, choosing to approach her.
He exhaled before saying to her, "How was your meeting with Sajangnim?"
The man has not spoken and is seen holding something back repeatedly as he airs his breath. He was confused what to say to the girl.
"Did he ask you to choose?" Asked the girl who made Chanyeol look at her.
The girl could always read his mind. Does he have any other skills besides making him not be too far away from him?
He shook his head slowly before asking, "How was your press conference?"
"You can't choose?" Ask Jiwon who as if the questions will be answered as well with questions.
"What's their weird question?" Chanyeol asked back.
Jiwon did not answer, the two pairs of eyes looked at each other without giving answers and explanations. They could feel from that gaze, if they were currently injured.
...***...
Jiwon put in some clothes that she would bring tomorrow. But now his activity stopped when his hand accidentally nudged a ring in the drawer of his dressing table. He watched the ring for a moment.
"I might find it hard to ask you to be my lover our lives are too complicated too much interference of others, I just want us to live it together"
Jiwon closed her eyes recalling the piece of memory that now flashed through her mind.
"I told you I want you to have it, because you're precious to me Kim Jiwon"
"With all my seriousness, wo aini."
The sentence turned back in his head.
He knew who the ring belonged to. Someone who must have been hurt by it, he knew it well. And as the man said, he realized their lives were too complicated to have a lover.
Although he wanted to deny it, but that was the reality.
Until it was felt that someone gently stroked his arm and placed his chin on the top of the girl's head. They look at the mirror.
"still remembering?" The man asked with his deep voice.
"I think she's right our lives are too complicated to have a lover, and I've been realising it lately." The girl seemed to be laughing at herself.
"I told you not to worry about a lot of things." Said the man without turning away from the big mirror.
"What about your career, your members will definitely be impacted by this news ?" This time the girl turned around and looked up at Chanyeol who was standing.
"Whatever happens I'll never let you go." He said after he stole a kiss on her forehead.
"Don't say as if you're okay, I know you more than half my age."
Chanyeol grabbed Jiwon's free hand, "Hold a minute, I'll get things done soon."
The girl wanted to say but was held back because her gaze was locked by Chanyeol's stern gaze.
"May I sleep here?" The man's question made Jiwon shocked by his request.
"I promise I won't do anything that isn't right for me" she continued before the girl thought far away.
The girl agreed.
This will probably be the first time for him to spend a long night and sleep in one bed with a man other than his app and that man is Park Chanyeol his little best friend ah ani, he could call her a lover now. Although their relationship is difficult but that's how it is now.