DIVORCE PAPERS
Wanting Divorce

Tika's body jerked so that Arka's embrace released. For a moment Tika felt her body freeze and her chest tight as if she was crushed by a large stone. Highlight her eyes unsheathed in disbelief at what she heard, her shock making herself with the remnants of her sanity scrutinizing her husband's words. He stared fixed, radiated look and look in the eyes of her husband who seemed to bear a heavy burden.

"Darling, what did you just say? don't be a joke". Tika's smile calmed her husband and hoped that what was heard was just a joke. Arka slurted his body hugging his wife's legs, stunned. Tika was getting surprised and confused

"I'm sorry, baby, but we don't deserve to be together anymore. Mother deserves to live happily with people who love mother". Cicit Arka accompanied by sedu sedan miris.

Arka's babbling made Tika frown in confusion, she felt always happy on Arka's side. Tika felt that something was being hidden by her husband.Tika took off Arka's embrace at her feet then she sat in parallel next to her husband. In her bed her husband's body was on her lap. Her hands gently caressed the much-loved and fragile-looking husband's head. Occasionally kissed her husband's head to channel calm in the hope that her husband could share the burden with her. She will try to listen to all her husband's complaints and pull the red thread because her husband wants to part with her. She believes her husband had a good reason behind her request. She knew very well that her husband would not ask for such a thing that Allah hated so much even though it was lawful. Tika wanted to talk heart to heart with her husband despite his chest rumbling and his heart feeling to pieces. She hopes to help her husband's problems without divorce. 

"Did you turn to another woman, you had an affair?". Investigating Tika curiously. 

"No mother, there is absolutely no other woman in my heart, I just want you to be happy".Answer Arka sincerely.

Tika is further confused by her husband's answer, Arka.

"Mother is a good woman, I love mother but father should not be selfish mother. Mother deserves to be happy, mother should be happy and happy mother not with father. I must be willing to let go of Mother. Mother deserves a better priest than father".Firmly Arka. His tears kept pouring.

Tika was flabbergasted by Arka's reply. Her hands still stroked her husband's hair and occasionally wiped his tears. There were clear crystal balls hanging on the corners of his eyes.

Tika cupped her husband's face, she saw the teary-eyed bead. The husband who always looked tough now looked helpless and fragile in his eyes.

"Dad, tell me honestly, is as long as your mother's love weighs on you, dad?. Do you feel shackled by this mother's love?. Tika asked softly holding back the cry.

Arka silenced, her crying sounded more heartbreaking, her tears made Tika's robe wetter. He hugged his wife's waist tighter and his face was swatted in his wife's stomach. Tika kissed the top of Arka's head full of love makes Arka's heart become more sliced.

Arka stretched her arms. Tika raised her head from above Arka's head. Arka rose from his wife's lap, her eyes staring softly at his wife's swollen and tearful face. The removal of her tears, then hug her tightly the mother of her child. They hugged each other long enough, until they were both calmer. The atmosphere for a moment shahdu, only the sound of night animals that seemed to try to become a tranquilizing rhythm for the noise of the two of them. Arka unraveled her embrace and looked at Tika's beautiful face while putting the child's hair behind her ears so as not to cover her face.

"Mother, it's late at night. We sleep first, we rest our bodies. Now our hearts and minds are tired, tomorrow if our mood is comfortable we talk again. I'll tell you everything, all the things that make you restless, all the things that make you feel guilty for you, all the things that are not the same anymore. I'll try to open up to you, Mother. I hope you won't think a no-no. There is no other woman named as queen in the heart of the father. Maybe it's good that you're not with dad, bun".Clearly Arka smiled as she stroked Tika's cheeks and hair.

Tika nodded, clasped Arka's hand and kissed her repeatedly. Arka kissed his wife's hair while closing her eyes. Tika smiled, at her trunk her husband cheeks with the back of her hand.

" Yes, dad. Mother will listen to the complaints of the father later when the father is ready to reveal the roar that wrestles the soul of the father. Mother will be a good listener and we solve this problem with a win-win solution. Let's go to bed. I'm really sleepy." Answer Tika wisely.

They went to bed, got into the blanket and slept with a hug. Tika slowly opened her eyes. When she saw her husband's face, her heart was full. Has the priest really been shaky all this time?. What's wrong with their relationship. Tika unravels her husband's embrace. Inching backwards and leaning his body on the back of the bed. He sat hugging his knees while continuing to think and look at his household trip which he thought was adem-adem only. Nothing awkward, they are always friendly and often joking. Through days of love and joy. Tika raised her head, both of her hands rested the left right hair of her head and gripped it firmly until her head looked up, her eyes closed and her mouth was hissing. He threw his hand violently. His body slumped down until his body was on his back with his right hand perched on top of his head while his one hand was cupped on his stomach. Her eyes were still closed, whether to how much her brain wandered, trying to digest the series of words thrown by her husband until finally heard a fine snoring sign that she had been meditating into dreamland.

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Arka woke up when he heard the sound of dawn, he could not find his wife beside him. There was the sound of water rustling in the bathroom, he knew that Tika was in the bathroom, a routine that was always done by his wife before performing the morning prayer. Tika always took a shower before dawn, something that others were reluctant to do on cold grounds but that was not the case for Tika.

Tika came out of the bathroom clad in a kimono bath, looking fresh. Her smile expanded when she saw her husband sitting on the bed, looking at her with a smile as well.

"Dad, shower gih, seger lo, let's not tangle and coo." Kayu Tika while glancing sweetly and pull a towel to her husband.

Arka laughed a little while shaking her head to see his wife's behavior. He immediately stepped into the bathroom. A moment later, he came out again wrapped in a towel and looked fresher. Tika sat on the side of the bed, wrapped in mukena waiting for Arka to perform the congregation's morning prayers. Arka wears clothes that his wife has prepared on the bed, white Koko clothes and brown gloves. Furthermore, the two specifically offer morning prayers.

Finished prayers Tika kissed ta'dim the back of her husband's hand which was met with a friendly kiss on the tip of his head. A scene very different from reality, which makes a million questions in the heart of a Tika, is really his family is not okay. But Tika does not want to pry further let alone force Arka to immediately blunt related to the turmoil that last night made it look very bad. Tika wants Arka to reveal everything with full readiness and comfort, she hopes that even if the household ark has to run aground it must be in a good way as they started it.