Don't Call My Name
Let Me Love Her
55.
“Nevent crying, Ci. I'm just asking. After all, if that's true it's okay, I'm gapapa, you're calm aja.”
“Sorry to me, Ra. I'll take the man you've been expecting. Sorry I...” isak Cici with great shame and unkindness.
Only God knows that Zara is holding back so that her cries don't explode at this time. “So it's true you have a relationship?”
Not long after, Cici nodded.
“Why should he, Ci. You're even the first person who knows best what's going on between the two of us before you came.
In a soft voice, Cici revealed her reason, “It all started with pity, Ra. Yeah, I'm sorry to see him so down because his confidence was gone. Surely you know who caused it without me being clear again.”
Zara soon understood.
“Fasad is often seen one eye and bullied by people around because it is considered different. That's why he got sicker and eventually moved to Bandung temporarily, while undergoing treatment,” Cici explained a little of the many stories he knew. “Fasad has to have control to get up and he can't do it alone. There must be someone behind him who always supports him.”
“Okay. But others, do you know, your actions have been breaking the law?” ask Zara.
Cici.
“You violated my privacy by spying on me at all times for you to report to someone. And what I regret is, I've said it all. I'm sorry to believe you, Ci.”
“Sorry, Zara... Sorry...” Cici clenched her hands. His face was already teary.
“It looks like you should know the sound of this article..”.
Zara explained, the relevant article, that everyone is entitled to the protection of personal, family, honor, dignity and others regarding their privacy rights.
“And any person who is violated of his privacy rights, he can file a lawsuit,” Zara continued.
“But I never hurt you,” interrupted Cici, “Fasad just want to know your daily life. You are happy or unhappy after he divorces you. There is no other meaning, let alone crime. Have you ever lost something, or an item I picked up?”
“Yes, you took the most valuable person in my life.”
Cici sontak mengcelos.
“You still love him?” tanyanya immediately. Frankly, he was also sick with his own questions. Afraid if he hears an answer that does not match the heart.
“Ngak .. I just got hurt. Why the person Fasad chose is the person closest to me. This is too surprising for me.”
“Once again, sorry I, Ra....” said Cici sounded so begging, “inally I did not intend that. But ... slowly love started to grow these past few weeks. He's comfortable with me, so am I. So please let me please make her happy and build her confidence again. All this time he always shrank because of his status. He will heal with me, I will accompany him because you cannot do it.”
“You said it was just you? I CAN, CI, CAN! But how am I going to do it while she never wants to see me once?!” zara spray rose apitam, in the end, he could no longer hold back tears, “do you think we divorced because I want to? No, Cici... no....”.
Cici hugged him wholeheartedly.
Pause for a moment, Zara again continued, “As for you know, I always feel guilty every day, every time, every time. Therefore I chose to punish myself before I heard the Happy Facade.
“Your mind is wrong, Ra...”.
They stretched out hugs and stared at each other from eye to eye.
“This may sound strange, but you should know, Facade is much happier now. Because it turns out that the person she wants and loves the most, is the person who is actually better off not in her life.”
“Thank you, please take care of him ... for me,” said Zara finally after a while later.
Cici assures, “Please don't hate me, because love can't choose, where he should dock.”
Zara nodded resignedly, “I always try to accept reality.”
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The plan to leave together with Cici is now canceled after an unpleasant problem occurred between them. Tonight, Zara goes to the hospital with Michael because the boy asked her to come along, no matter what tomorrow's school. Because he really wants to know the condition of his mother now.
Sitting in the middle seat, Michael resuscitated his head to the older brother and was met with a gentle elusan at the top of his head.
“Mami is fine, right, Brother?”
“Healthy mom. Just need a rest,” replied Zara to calm the sister.
“Why not get a break at home?”
“Mami is less fluid, must be treated and infused there. Cannot be at home because no one can control it, except doctor.”
“So, yes?” although not understand, but Michael tried to solve the question. Because at this time he saw his brother's face was grieving.
“I just need to dare to admit, dare to reveal the reality, and accept. That some people come just to stop and then leave. Not to move into the future.
“Even there are people God has given in my life to disappear, even hurt.
“Not an easy thing indeed. But I must still accept when it must be like this its destiny.
“True people said. The most obvious damage is when we are hurt by someone we trust the most. But that's nothing compared to the impact that followed. This betrayal has changed a lot of things in me. More so, about trust.
“But what I know .. someone who wants to stay, will stay. If he loves me, he will do it anyway. No matter how messed up I was, how broken I was, no matter how big a blow was being threatened. No matter how dense the clouds will soon send a storm. He'll stay here. Not even looking for another comfort by hurting each other's hearts, cowards!
“But not papa. I hope you really found it. Women who can make you happier and more confident. The woman who made you not afraid to be yourself. And can accept your weakness and cowardice.
“Goodbye, Facade. Thank you for the days that used to be so fun. I will learn to love my future properly. Yeah, I know I'm traumatized.I find it hard to love her again. It's hard to give her love and another chance. But I'll try to make an effort. I am more worthy of him who will fight. It's not him who usually just hides behind the eyes of others.”
“Kak...”.
Mike's call made him turn his head and immediately wiped away his rushing tears.
“Do you need a hug?”
Zara nodded. Before long, the two of them immediately united their bodies. At that time, the atmosphere suddenly so that the Driver was filled with making. Rarely did he see a moment like this other than a commotion.
Entering teen Mike increasingly understand, someone whose heart is not good just need a hug or backrest, not a lecture, let alone nonsense.
Yeah, it's that simple.
Mike....
He was a very bad boy. But he's still a kitten who can't see his brother crying. She seems to love her brother so much, even though she doesn't know how to express it.
Seriate.