Dusk For Nathan 2
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Gio still looked at me questioningly. Gio is indeed a child who has thoughts that are sometimes far above children his age. He always had his own reasoning about an event he saw or heard. If the answer he receives, he will always ask until the smallest thing until he is satisfied with the answer he gets. He's a very critical boy.

Like at the moment. Gio still looked at me questioningly about Nathan's different attitude towards me with Ayuna. Clearly different. I'm his ex-girlfriend while Ayuna is his wife. But Gio didn't ask about our status in front of Nathan. He asked why Nathan never kissed me. Telling my status to Gio would only make him want to know more. For a moment I thought. What words will I say to this boy. His eyes still looked at me questioningly.

" Mama doesn't know. But the obvious. I love you with Gio." I said as calmly as possible

" Yaudah." Said Gio briefly and ran over to Nathan and Ayuna earlier.

I immediately chased after Gio who was already in Nathan's arms. Nathan was very pampering for Gio. That's why Gio is so happy to be here.

" Dear mom, don't you?" The question just slid from Gio's mouth.

Nathan fell silent and turned to look at Ayuna and me.

" Why did Gio ask that?" Nathan asked back.

" Papa never kissed Mama's forehead." Plain Gio say.

Nathan seemed to be breathing heavily. " Papa can't kiss Mama Dusk. Because Papa's wife is now Mama Ayuna." Nathan's light was soft and sat on the dining table chair holding Gio who was still staring at him.

" But daddy loves mama?" Gio was still not satisfied as his question had not been answered.

" Gio's. We go home now. " Pujukku feel bad with Ayuna who has been staring at them since sad.

Sometimes that's what comes to my mind. I am still in his heart. But I always put that up. It feels selfish if I still want to be in his heart while he and his wife have been very kind to me and my son.

Gio shook his head quickly.

" Let's go, baby." Invite me a little bit to force Gio and take Gio from Nathan's lap.

" Let Nathan interven, Dusk." Say soft Ayuna. I know his heart is still burning. Ayuna is more sensitive since they got married. I don't know why.

" I'm riding an ojek." Refuse me smooth and immediately take Gio out of Nathan's house.

Ayuna and Nathan drove us to the front door.

" Salim loves Mama Una and Papa." Tell me to Gio. Gio complied and we passed by waiting for the online taxi I had ordered in front of Nathan's house.

The bad taste still lingered on Ayuna over Gio's question. I'm sorry, Na. Which still holds the flavor for your husband. My inner heart while looking at those who are still waiting for us to ride the ojek.

" Papa's drug" exclaimed Gio cheerfully at Nathan as we were already on the bike.

Nathan and Ayuna waved their hands with smiles. I just put a little smile on them.

*****

" Yes, Ma." Answer's short.

" Don't go to Nathan's house too often. People will think you want to disrupt their homes." Advice my mother and sit next to me sitting on the living room couch.

" I tried it. But Ayuna always meant that I was coming. The reason is there. I refused, but yes. He'll use Gio as bait to get us there." My words explain why it is sometimes difficult to refuse Ayuna's invitation to go to her house.

Mama breathed deeply and heavily. His eyes momentarily looked far away. I know what he's thinking right now. I chose to be silent pretending to be busy playing hp.

" I hope you can forget Nathan soon." Please mother.

I just kept quiet. How could I forget that his wife always made me meet him. How could I forget that his attitude was still as gentle as before. How could I forget that his name was clearly etched into my heart. He may not be the first one in my life. But he is the best that has been present in my life.

My first encounter with him was still clearly recorded in my brain. How I silently looked at him who was exercising in the afternoon. Sometimes I go to her house to order some cookies on her mother. Even though it was actually just an excuse for me to meet him. But damn it every time I order a cake. He was always not home. Until Mama invited me to visit her school friend's house first.

At first I was forced to follow my mother's will but it turned out that my mother's friend was her. How I'm not happy. My hunger to get close to him is getting wider. In addition, his mother told him that he did not have a wife. At first I couldn't believe it. How could such a handsome man he had no one to glance at. After seeing firsthand how awkward his attitude was when he became acquainted with me. It's certain. Nathan is a man who is not easily close to the opposite sex.

I don't know why it's back in my mind. The more I try to forget. The more clearly it becomes in memory. I immediately headed to my room and threw out my tired body. Fighting with the heart is not easy.

" Mama." Sapa Gio when he came into my room. The clothes have been replaced. Mama always takes care of Gio without me asking.

Gio laid his tiny body beside me.

" Mom can you ask Gio for something?"

Gio nodded quickly.

" Mama wants help. Gio don't ask questions about mama to papa anymore." Soft pet.

" Why, Ma?"

" Because mom's not Papa's wife. I'm Mama Una sad." Answer me wherever.

" Why is Mama Una sad?" Gio was curious. Here's Gio.

For a moment I thought that there would be no more 'Why' questions from Gio.

" Mama Una very dear to Papa. And Papa is also very dear to Mama Una. If Gio asks Papa dear to Mama. Papa must love Mama. But unfortunately just a little. That's why Papa never kisses Mama's forehead." Softly light.

" So Papa loves Mama Una more?" Tanya Gio wanted to clarify. I just nodded. " Yaudah if Gio will also love Mama more than Mama Una. Gio doesn't want to kiss Mama una." Said Gio plain.

I just fell silent to Gio's words that seemed to not accept. I just took a deep breath. Letting Gio with his innocent thoughts. I have to explain it to him somehow.

I just stared at the sky in my room which was sky blue. My mind flew back through time.