Dusk For Nathan 2
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" Astagfirullahhal'adhim.." My mother cried out in shock at Ayuna's words.

" Ashtar, Ayuna. You're pregnant." Said my mother again.

Ayuna slowly walked up to me with the bowl of porridge she was carrying. He seemed to have heard my conversation with my mother.

" I know, Mom. But I think this is the best way. Dusk and Nathan still love each other. My presence is like a barrier that shouldn't exist." Ayuna said with a trembling voice.

" You're not a barrier to anyone, Na." I said while holding back my headache that began to whack. Maybe this former surgery is still not fully healed.

" But it is, Nath. After I gave birth. Divorce me." Ayuna said firmly and passed from before us.

I just kept quiet and watched her come out crying. I, who was still recovering, was still helpless to hinder Ayuna. I know, and I realize. If Ayuna's heart really hurt.

Slowly closing my eyes is not strong enough to withstand this headache. And then I don't know what happened.

*****

Slowly I opened my eyes. My consciousness is slowly recovering. The doctor told me not to think much. But this problem does occupy my mind. It's my fault that I still love other women while I'm married.

" Where's Ayuna, Mom?" I asked not to see Ayuna around me. I only saw Mom and Dusk.

" Ayuna went home to her parents." My mother answered with tears. " You fainted. I called Ayuna but she wasn't picked up. So mom called Dusk. I'm confused and scared, Nath." Said my mother explaining about the presence of Dusk.

" Hurry up you'll heal. Get your wife back." Dusk tries to strengthen.

I just nodded.

" Before that, I ask you to solve your problems. Don't let your feelings make Ayuna hurt." Said my mother again and purposely left us both.

Within a few minutes, me and Dusk were silent. I don't know what to talk about because we still love each other. Cheering happily? It won't. I've married. As much as possible I should throw away this feeling.

" Have you taken any medicine?" Tanya Dusk opened the topic of chat.

I'm shaking. Dusk immediately prepared my medicine and helped me take those medicines. After that I don't know what's on his mind. He kissed my forehead gently and stroked it.

" Dusk."

" I just want to finish what's not done, Nath. This is my last kiss. I'll go as far as I can. Don't look for me or call me." Speak Dusk with a vibrating voice holding back the cry.

I slowly pulled her body and hugged her tightly. I didn't want to let go but that's what I had to do. Maybe Dusk was my first love but Dusk was not for me.

" I love you, Nath." Said Dusk with his sobs.

" We can what. I'm married, Dusk. I don't want to hurt him."

" I know and I don't want to hurt your wife. That's why I'm willing to walk out of your life and let you go. I'm sorry if I was selfish for having you."

" May you find happiness, Dusk." Say and kiss her softly.

Farewell sentences. And that was the last day we met. The day we expressed each other's feelings but we had to let go of each other.

*****

Pov Dusk

A year ago I completely disappeared from Nathan's life. I left my true love in that city. Although I wanted to see it but always I tried to refrain from seeing it. It hurts to see our loved ones have a life partner.

" Mama." Sapa Gio was carefree as he entered my clothes shop behind him was Reza.

" How was school, baby?" My toot.

" Good dong. I got an A for drawing." Enthusiastic answer.

" Oh yeah. What's Gio's picture?"

" Papa Nathan's image is a superhero." Cheerful words. " Later I want to see this to Papa. Okay, Ma?" Ask plain and show his work.

In Gio's eyes. Nathan will forever be a great Papa. I know he misses Nathan a lot, but because I cry a lot when I remember Nathan. Gio would rather harbour his feelings from me.

" Thank you yes. I'll go get Gio."

" No problem. I'm glad I got to go get Gio." He said with his special smile.

Reza is handsome. He also owns shares in several companies. Reza also works as a professional architect. He has built several skyscrapers and many houses that he has built.

His gentle and kind demeanor was no less than Nathan's. But somehow this heart is still not open for him.

" When we get a holiday." Bring Reza to me. He was very keen to approach me. Until I knew very well that he liked me.

" Can." My solute.

" What next month?" Bargainly.

For a moment I thought and then I nodded my head.

" But we're on vacation with my clients as well." Reciprocity.

" Why is that?"

" Yes so. He wants to take his mom on vacation." Continue Reza again.

" Okay, I know this isn't just a client, right?" Investigate me by squinting her teasing eyes.

Reza laughs. " Tau aja's. If succeed. I can build skyscrapers again. Pretty money for the marriage capital." Slothfully.

" good. Is there a candidate?" God again.

" You are the candidate. Want huh?" Follow him again in a joking tone.

I just smiled and shook my head at his silly words. Let alone to marry. Just love her a little, I can't.

" Twilight. I love you." His screams suddenly made some of my customers and employees look at him.

I closed his mouth and took him to my room which was on the first floor.

" Shame to know!" Omelku with a face that still feels hot withstands embarrassment.

" But like it, right?" Ledk it again and left me alone.

Reza was much more jolly than Nathan. Her cheerful attitude and how it is makes me feel comfortable if I am near her. Is this love or is it just the feeling of a friend.

I looked at Gio who was drawing a family. I'm sure if he drew me, him and Nathan.

The first few months I moved to this city. Gio was fussy asking me to go back to Nathan. I know that until now, he still missed Nathan's figure in his life.

I took a long breath. Somehow my life became what it is today. Having a big enough clothing store has never been included in my dreams or thoughts. Yes, the money that was my heir when my parents died. I made venture capital. My brother has already cut off his relationship with me. Though he knew, the blood relationship would not be able to be decided by anything.