Firefields
Notes Mat Yusi (1)

I wrote this note in an atmosphere of uncertainty. There are three types of uncertainty that I often experience. First, it is a time of loneliness. It was a time when I wasn't sure enough to tell the story of my life to others.

Second, when the miss comes. There aren't many people I deserve to miss, but they're always present when I imagine them. Lastly, when regrets come. I can't possibly forget everything I've been through, and it hurts so much.

At that time I was taken to the warden's room, there were three policemen waiting inside. They were not satisfied asking me. When I first arrived, the cops shot me with questions.

I am guilty indeed. But damn it, any accusation I don't make should be acknowledged as truth. If it does not agree, as a result it leaves a trail of wounds on my back and other body.

My back to the right of her bone is broken. They were not only light-handed with their fists. Once a wooden chair they lifted up high and slammed it into my shoulder.

I not only felt pain, not only groaning but also fainting. When we woke up, the sun was somewhere, the clock was showing what time, I don't know. The thing I can remember, when I woke up, my face was slapped with a bucket of water.

I was sentenced to 15 years in prison. The sound of the magistrate's hammer is still mengiang until now. When the magistrate's hammer was finished, two court officials flanked my arms.

I know some were sad that day, some were happy that day. People must be happy that the police managed to arrest me without any meaningful resistance.

I once joined the Dul Sanif robbery squad. He is a silat champion who has the science of magic. I came to him because I felt insulted by a woman.

Name's Halimah. I want it more than just being passionate about the beauty of Halimah. I love him for a serious relationship. However, Halimah always refused because she did not want to live and even die in poverty.

After Halimah rejected me many times, she then accepted the proposal of an old man who had two wives. I protested with him, but Halimah didn't care about it. For her, living with the rich man was more important even as a young wife.

I'm disappointed, amazing. Untolerable sadness. I am tired of my poor life. On the day of Halimah's wedding, I just left the house for good. I didn't know who the man who took Halimah from me.

People can think of me as a bad guy. But I am not what they imagined.

Later, I will go home with all the wealth that Halimah wants. I wanted to make her regret for rejecting me. Until I finally met Dul Sanif.

In front of Dul Sanif I told him the meaning of my arrival. Dul Sanif laughed loudly and finally accepted me as a member of his plot.

Before officially becoming a member, I was obliged by Dul Sanif to study martial arts and magic. Being robbed is a risky and dangerous job.

Every day I trained Dul Sanif various kinds of styles. My hands, feet and body should be as strong as steel. I'm not content to just break blocks of ice, brick and also miserly.

On a full moon night, Dul Sanif gathered all his disciples. It was a stressful night.

In front of all the disciples who formed a circle, Dul Sanif rewarded me with a machete. After that I was asked to remove all my clothes.

It was like reciting a spell, his mouth was muttering. My whole body was wet with water. After changing into all black clothes like a champion uniform, Dul Sanif clapped his hands.

Ten of Dul Sanif's students are getting ready. They will fight with me. At first it was just empty-handed, and it made me more relieved. I can survive their attacks, even retaliating. I won!

Dul Sanif clapped his hand again. A moment later the machetes on their waists came out of the nest. I often saw a machete, but never imagined giving my body to a machete.

Dul Sanif gave me a cue and ordered me to recite the mantra he taught me. When learning the immune spell, I was very sure my body was immune with sharp weapons.

However, in the face of the ten machets who were ready to draw and I could not resist, that confidence seemed to be lost imprudently.

I asked for an immune test to be postponed. Dul Sanif with a thunderous voice instantly shouted. Not because of his loud voice, but what he said was like returning my consciousness. "Have you forgotten your desire for revenge?"

My confidence soon recovered. Ten people with machetes who were ready****** my whole body seemed to know that I was waiting.

With quick, strong, and agile movements, they swung the machetes towards my body. My neck they're slashing. My back and stomach they puncture. My hands and feet tried to cut them into pieces. Nothing happened that night. I'm doing fine. No cuts, no scratches. Body immune. Hooray..! bathinku.

After the exam is over, tomorrow I leave and ask permission for Dul Sanif to go home to see my parents. In front of my father and mother I begged for the blessing to leave the house for a long time.

The mother's eyes glazed over and finally sank into a cry. Father repeatedly asked me to abandon my intention to leave the house. I'm desperate to leave. My resolve is round. In my eyes there are still shadows of Halima that are so painful.

As a gangster led by Dul Sanif, my operational area is a classy hotel in Jakarta. One day fate broke us apart. One of the members betrayed.

As the police surrounded each other, Dul Sanif and I escaped. The hysterical cries of the hotel guests added to the horror of the day.

Out there, the gun sounds like it led us into a trap. I don't know what Dul Sanif's fate is, I myself am busy looking for a gap to escape. While peeking out of the window of the hotel room on the first floor, in my mind only recklessly jumped.

It doesn't matter if two cops are out there. All my life, it was the first time I fought with a cop.

My efforts were almost in vain. A police officer out of nowhere caught me while galloping towards a narrow alley.

The gunfire erupted again. Just a bullet, I've never been afraid to face it. Dul Sanif has bequeathed the science of magic so that my skin is bullet resistant.

However, my confidence collapsed when *****hot was lodged in the leg.***** it was dripping into the flesh. Blood is pouring. I can't forget how to deal with my fear and death.