For My Brother and Mother
Life without Dad

Kinara greeted me daily, a cheerful but very quiet child.

I rarely shared my grief and race with my mother though.

I've been an orphan since I was 8.

The period where the child wants to know more about his first love is the figure of a father for his little daughter.

It was still ringing in his voice and voice at that time, when he was still with me and my mother. We lived a simple life with my grandmother as a complement to our family.

But God may love my father more, he was called when we needed him most.

He lay down after performing the duty of dawn prayer which he never left, my mother hysterical, all crying.

I just fell silent on his lap trying to understand what was happening.

Why did you take away my father, God...????.

5 Years passed after that incident.

We are trying to recover from that event, continue our lives that have to go on.

My mother busied herself with the village volleyball club, and my grandmother worked as a masseuse.

My grandmother's work has been done since I was not born, and the principle is that she wants to bash bones for her children and grandchildren, the most important thing is that her daughter remains at home to take care of her only child is me.

Later......

the man showed up, why..????...is that my father's successor..??.

These few days I have been mumbling in my heart. Who is he..????.

Some days he comes to my house, makes friends with my family members, tries to get along with my family.

Only I am still with him. Why..???.Because my father is one.

He has no right to take his position, my mind.

"Kin.??" said my mother.

I who was in the room just fell silent while still doing my schoolwork.

Grandma did not interfere this time, let between mother and child talk to each other and decide.

"Mom knows you understand what I'm going to say, please understand. Kasian grandma works alone all this time, your smp cost is also expensive, let mother get married to give you a father. I also want you to have a father figure, please son....!!. When it was difficult or difficult for the mother to bear it herself" said my mother who continued to persuade me to allow her to marry.

In my heart I don't want to but for my mother's sake..,??..How's this..?? my inner.

I got out of bed and hugged my mother. I cried nodding in agreement with my mother's marriage. May this be the right choice I murmured in my heart.

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My mother's wedding

1 Month passed. Today is the day all the family members, especially my mother and grandmother.

All close relatives have been present, the event is held simple and only the procession of the kobul ijab only.

My mother is very beautiful wearing white kebaya sitting in front of the penghulu with the man of her choice, yes her choice.not my choice or anyone else.

Penghulu started the process all at once "SAH" sign Ijan kobul went well and now I have a stepfather.

All shed tears to see my mother remarry after a long widow, their prayers say that my mother is always happy. Aminnn.may it happen.

2 Years of marriage, my mother remained in harmony with my stepfather, "allhamdulillah" I said.

My father was also kind to me even though we rarely chatted, he only sometimes drove me to school at my mother's behest just that when I was close to my father.

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My grandmother is still the backbone of the family

Degg.drrrr.

I was surprised not to play, my grandmother began to complain about the existence of my stepfather, it turns out the financial house is still fully borne by my grandmother.

Though my pocket money is also from my grandmother, kitchen needs and buying rice growing needs all from my grandmother, the bread and harvest from my father is directly made into livestock and set aside a little to pay for my spp at school.

How could my mother not set aside for monthly shopping..??. Though I've heard once the harvest can get 8 - 10 million. I keep trying to be positive. At least my mother still thinks about my school spp not being fully separated from her obligations, and at least grandma does not think about my spp costs as well, I murmured.