Hate You, Love You
Maaf

"Bak Ara, spiel !! Mama has called you from earlier, ntar kesamangan loh !" I heard Amara's sister knocking on Amara's door and calling her name.

"Wait a minute !" Amara from the bathroom in her room. He wiped the wet end of his lips with some tissue.

Like yesterday, this morning Amara had to fight against nausea. In the midst of her troubled mind, Amara was still trying to stay positive.

There is no way she is pregnant because her aunt who was recently married had to wait months to get pregnant. So it was impossible if she was immediately pregnant because she was touched by Gio.

"Based on the bajing*n, sialllan, brengseek !!" Maki Amara repeatedly, as she remembers about her meeting yesterday with Gio.

Her body trembled as Amara remembered if Gio called her name. It seems that the man did know him. But how could Gio possibly remember. Because he was so drunk when he did.

"You're not pregnant, Ara ! You just need more rest !" Amara said to herself. He did it while reflecting on the glass that was above the bathroom sink.

Amara observes the reflection of her own shadow. It looks so pathetic. His face was pale, with his cheeks increasingly thin. He lost a lot of body weight after that fateful incident.

He will eat 3 spoons. Although his mother has advised him a lot if eating too little is not healthy. But how else, Amara completely lost her appetite due to the burden of the mind that continued to torment her.

Amara applied powder and lipstick on her face to make it look fresher. He did it so that his mother would not worry when she saw him.

"I'm sorry I didn't help you prepare breakfast" Amara said as she held her body in the chair. There was already waiting for his father and also his sister who would go together.

"Other jokes ?" Ask the Mama.

Being asked like that made Amara's heart pound. He nodded his head in response. She was terrified of something she hated so much.

"Don't stay up !" This time Amara's father spoke.

Amara nodded slowly. His mouth was unable to speak.

"Later to the doctor, please,"

"Not to !" Amara cut her mother's words quickly.

"Udah is taking medicine. Soon also healthy, yesterday also like that," continued Amara. He doesn't want to go to the doctor. Amara was afraid that what she was so worried about would become real.

"Yes, the food is spent, not just a little."

Amara nodded in agreement. Amara desperately endured her nausea, and struggled to finish her breakfast. Just so his parents wouldn't take him to the hospital.

***

"Thank you, Pa" said Amara, closing her father's car door. He turned his head to the right and to the left, making sure there were no men he had met yesterday.

"Huuuffttt," Amara breathed a sigh of relief when she found nothing around her. Amara immediately pulled out the hoodie sweater from the bag and put it on immediately. As usual, he covered his head. It's like hiding from the world.

Amara remained vigilant, she walked into the campus with a sense of uneasiness. Afraid that Gio would suddenly appear before him.

"Why are you, Ra ? Is anyone following ?" Said Via while embracing his shoulder from behind. Makes Amara's body jump in shock.

"Ah you, Vi ! Scared of me !" Sahut Amara while stroking her chest that beat fast.

"That's a very bad part. Why ?" Ask Via again.

"Every night watching a thriller, so laugh at the feeling," replied Amara reasoned. There was no way he could tell about his fear of meeting Gio again.

"Oh my goodness, Ra ! If you are afraid, don't watch it ! Horror movies," said Via while giggling amusedly.

Amara smiled in response. "You don't know, Vivi. The one I'm dealing with is more exciting than a horror movie," Amara's inner self in her heart. Yes for Amara her fear of getting pregnant and meeting Gio again is more sinister than anything.

***

"It's almost 6 and a half, we want to close Ma'am" said a woman who served there.

"God ! Sorry..," Sahut Amara. He felt bad because the library should be five o'clock in the afternoon. The officer must be waiting for him who is busy doing the task.

Quickly Amara cleared the table, and returned some books to their original place. Like this morning, Amara again covered her head with a hood. He did that before he got out of the library.

The atmosphere of the campus has begun to be quiet because most of the students and staff have returned to their homes. Amara quickly stepped foot to the bus stop located not far from the campus gate.

Amara's body gasped as she saw a man she knew sitting leaning over her car. Amara immediately bowed her head as the man looked towards her.

" Oh my God... Why is he here ?" Ask Amara in my heart. His heart was now working extra because of the tension Amara was feeling at this moment.

Amara continued walking with her head bowed, ignoring her whereabouts. In her heart, Amara continues to convince herself that Gio is unlikely to come to see her.

Gio continued to observe Amara's movements. And he called out Amara's name as the girl flashed before him. "Mara !" Sapa Gio, but Amara ignored him.

"Mara !" Gio called out the girl's name again while walking behind her.

Amara slightly turned her head, aware that if Gio followed her, Amara also accelerated her steps. He wanted to get out of the campus area immediately and arrive at a stop that of course many people there.

"Mara, wait !" Sapa Gio again. now the man half ran up to him.

"Fromance !!!" Said Gio while holding Amara's arm to stop his steps.

Deg !

Amara's heart was tight as Gio's palm restrained his arm. Just like it happened a month ago. The hand also held his arm above the head.

"Wait, we gotta talk !" said Gio with breath gasping, increasingly make Amara remembered the fateful night. Gio's breathing also hunted while overlapping him.

"Sorry, but I don't know, you ! So, there's nothing important to talk about" said Amara as she brushed Gio's hand violently from his arm. After being released, Amara continued her steps.

Gio did not give up, he continued to follow Amara's steps. "Of course we know each other, Amara Mahreen. You delivered a cup of drink to my room, didn't you ?" Ask Gio.

"It seems you're wrong. I don't even know where you live" said Amara as he continued to walk in haste.

"My mother told you to deliver a cup of warm drink to me who was in a mess that night. I just want to make sure we...,"

"There's nothing between us !" Cut Amara fast.

"I don't know you, and vice versa" continued Amara, raising her head. Brave to stare at Gio whose body was much taller than her.

"So don't bother me anymore !" Amara said as she moved her legs again to leave.

But again Gio held the girl's arm. Then he issued an identification tag that read the name Amara. "Then why is this in my room ?" Gio asked as he stared fixedly at Amara's face.

Amara's eyes were smoldering, indicating that she was in shock at this moment. Amara bravely stepped on her foot, then snatched the identification from Gio's hand. After getting it Amara walked towards the trash and threw the thing into it.

"It's just rubbish ! It means nothing at all. So please... Don't see me anymore" said Amara as she made her way to the bus stop and boarded the bus that happened to have just arrived.

Gio stared at Amara's departure in disbelief. After the bus the girl was riding on was no longer visible, Gio walked to the trash can and took back the identification mark that Amara had thrown away.

Seeing Amara's reaction made Gio sure he had hurt the girl. "Sorry," muttered Gio quietly.