Hate You, Love You
What Should Be Done ?

"There's a man I love and I don't want to lose him. Excuse me... Agree or not, I'll keep her going,"

Gio was silent for a while, trying to digest what Amara said. Then he smiled sick of it. "I'm not a good person, but I'm not a very bad person either. What you said about 'letting go' was a human life," said Gio sounding cold, making Amara's body suddenly shiver.

"I still have a heart. I want to make amends by saving her because she doesn't deserve to be treated that way. I've been very sinful, and I don't want to add to my sin by agreeing to let you go,"

"Keep what should I do, Huh ?"

"We're married and after the child is born, I'll take care of him. You can go back to the man you love !" Gio replied as he turned on his car engine. He wants to leave immediately because suddenly his feelings become shattered and Gio does not want to vent them to Amara.

"I can't go back to her under such circumstances, Danis always asks me to be faithful,"

"Tell the truth to the man ! if he really loves you, he'll accept you,"

"Easy for you to talk !! Because you're not in my position ! I hate you !!"

Gio stopped the car again, "because you know, Amara ! I hate myself for causing all this to happen ! But I'm trying to fix it by taking responsibility for what I've done to you !" Gio Sahut.

"I could have left you, but I wouldn't have done that because I'm not the bad guy you're accusing me of. And if you remain reckless, then take responsibility for your own actions !" Gio continued while looking intently at Amara.

Actually he did not want to do that, yelling at Amara who he had hurt. But, Gio had no other choice because Amara was adamant with his opinion.

Amara bowed her head, laboriously trying to dry her wet cheeks with the back of her hand. The words Gio spoke rang in his ears. "And if you remain reckless, then take responsibility for your own actions !"

Amara experienced a great inner struggle. As a woman, she did not want to hurt her own baby. It's just that what's growing in her womb right now isn't what Amara wants. It would be very difficult to love her, considering that the one who gave the seed was the man Amara hated so much.

Silent....

All that was heard was the cry of Amara and the roar of the car engine. The atmosphere created between Amara and Gio was extremely cold. Beating the cold air out there, even though heavy rain is pouring down on the earth. While Gio, he tried to focus on the streets. But what really happened, his mind was in a mess.

After a few minutes of driving, Gio stopped his car right in front of Amara's house. "We have arrived" said Gio and it made Amara surprised. Amara did not reveal her address to the man.

Realizing that Amara was surprised, Gio said "I told you, I could have come to your house but I didn't want to make a fuss. As much as possible I can finish everything with you. Now let's get down,"

"What do you want ?" Amara asked when she saw Gio opening the door.

"Taking you home to your parents. You think I'm just gonna take you down ?"

"Ja-don't !" I screamed Amara, but it was too late because the tall man had gotten out of his car and was carrying an umbrella from the back seat.

Amara did not want to be surrounded by the man, he chose to open the door of his car and ran small. Leaving Gio walking behind him.

Gio again took a deep breath. Making Amara want to be nice to her was something very difficult. And Gio had to be patient a lot because of it.

Amara knocked on her door, hoping someone would open it soon. Because that way he can immediately enter and close the door of his house quickly so that Gio does not need to meet his parents.

What's on his mom and dad's mind. Amara came home very late with a foreign man ? No ! Amara won't make that happen.

"Thank God you've come home, Papa is very worried" the father said as he opened the door for Amara.

Quickly Amara tried to break in but the voice of the man behind her made him unable to move his legs.

"Sorry late, Om. Heavy rain makes the streets jammed," Gio replied from behind.

Amara clenched her hands tightly. He really hated that voice. He was sure his father would be surprised.

And sure enough what Amara had in mind, the father looked at her question mark.

"Ah sorry ! I'm Gio, Om. Friends Amara. It just so happened that we went home together because the bus that Amara was riding broke down in the middle of the road,"

"You're Amara's college friend ?" Ask the father full of questions. Amara has almost never had any male friends other than Danis.

"Emmm we got acquainted on campus," replied Gio. At least he's not lying. He and Amara did get acquainted officially at the girl's college.

"Oohhhhhhhhhhh... Thank you for bringing Amara. Let's go in !"

"Sama-sama Om, sorry I can not stop by first because the night is very late" said Gio.

As for Amara, the girl continued to stand her back. He really didn't want to see Gio's face.

"Mara, that's your friend going home" the father reminded. He wondered why Amara was not grateful to the friend who had helped him.

"Sama-sama," said Gio with a smile.

With courage Gio stepped forward, approaching Amara. "Think carefully what you will do... We are responsible for a life" whispered Gio.

Amara's eyes grew increasingly cynical of the man. His lips were tightly clenched, not once did he chimed in on Gio's words.

"Om, excuse me" said Gio and he left Amara's house.

"Let's go in, Ara. You just healed,"

Amara was waiting for her father to enter the house first so that he could hide his swollen face. Amara climbed the stairs without talking to her father.

"Your mother is asleep, if you want to eat just warm the side dish again. Papa tidu first yes, tomorrow must leave early in the morning," said the father.

"I-yes Pa," said Amara while stopping her steps for a moment. He felt more guilty. His father was willing to wait for his return, while he spent time with the man who had impregnated him. Truly Amara felt to have been a disobedient child.

With tears coming back, Amara immediately rushed towards her room.

***

"Why come home late, Gio ?" Ask the mother who is waiting for her beloved child at the door. His face looked very worried.

"Sorry" said Gio, kissing the back of his mother's hand.

"Thankfully your Papa hasn't come home yet. Mama can't imagine if that happens. Surely your father will be very angry and you....,"

"Ma.. Gio has impregnated a girl, "cut Gio. His mother stopped talking. He fell silent with his two eyes breaking.

"Your jokes aren't funny, Gio ! You almost got a heart attack !" The mother forced her laugh.

Gio smiled faintly and looked at his mother's eyes deeply. "But unfortunately Gio wasn't kidding, Ma. Sorry Gio...,"

"Gisel ? You impregnated Gisel ? Are you sure it's your son ? Isn't he sleeping with your friend ?"

Gio shook his head slowly. "Not Gisel, Ma. But Amara... Amara Mahreen's. And Gio was sure it was Gio's son because it was a first for both of us,"

"Si-who's Amara ? Why did you sleep with her ? Aren't you afraid of sin, Gio ?" Ask the mother in a loud voice. He was angry because he felt he failed in educating his only son.

"Mama, get angry. Hitting Gio is okay too. But listen to everyone first" Gio led his mother to a sofa and told her what had happened.

The mother bowed her head and cried bitterly after knowing what had happened to her child. "I'm sorry Gio, Ma.." Gio said as he sat at his mother's feet. The tall man was not ashamed to shed his tears.

"What should Gio do ?"

"Married him ! Trying to fix your mistake. The child that the girl conceived was innocent Gio ! He's not a bastard... No child has been born illegitimate to this world" the mother replied, wiping her tears.

Then he lifted up his son's face with both hands and looked into his eyes deeply. "Marry her, and love the child she contains. Mama knows it's gonna be hard 'cause you guys don't love each other. But this is the only way" said the mother, who was concerned about her child. He could not feel angry at Gio because he also felt guilty. The mother asked Amara to deliver a cup of drink into Gio's room.

"It's enough for you to know that an alcoholic drink can be wretched. Never touch her again. And tomorrow go to Amara's parents and tell them everything. Tell them you'll be responsible. About Papa, Mama's gonna talk to him,"

Gio also nodded obediently. Agree with what his mother said.

***

Amara sat up on the bed. He was no longer crying but his mind was so upset. What Gio said was always ringing in his ears.

"Think carefully what you will do... We're responsible for a life,"

Those words haunted Amara all night. He felt scared. What would she say to her son if he asked her "why did mother destroy me ?"

Amara is also terrified if what she does is known to the authorities. Then she will become a girl who abandons her womb because of an affair. Everyone must think that way.

"Maybe the only way is for us to go together" Amara said frustratedly.

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