HE IS ME
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Yong Yan was confused by what happened to him. He did not see anyone else around the place but why suddenly he was far away and got a decent wound. Yong Yan immediately got up and searched and looked around in case any hidden attacks were shown for him. Yong Yan felt himself beginning to descend his instincts so as not to realize the danger in front of him. Yong Yan again sharpened his hearing as well as his eyesight. But nil, some time passed the situation seemed quiet and nothing happened as if uninhabited. Yong Yan looked on with vigilance, though silent harboring a terrible mystery. Yong Yan also felt that the destination was in plain sight but to reach it was as difficult as the thousands of ropes wrapped around his body and being pulled away from the place. Yong Yan looked dazed for a moment.
Suddenly a voice without form was heard.
" You'll get what you're looking for but you'll have to pass the illusion fog test. Good luck!"
The voice instructed me to move forward. When he stepped on the path felt his body was no longer twisted or heavy. Yong Yan began to step step step by step because the pressure from the place was very heavy.
Suddenly......
" Lord come closer, do you not love me anymore?" song Shea's shadow appeared by waving her hand towards the direction Yong Yan was located in.
" Song Shea" Yong Yan was stunned yet walked over as if hypnotized to step forward.
" Yes, sir, come and hug me. I really miss you, sir. Every moment is empty without your presence. Come closer, don't you miss me?"
It was a lie if Yong Yan was not affected let alone his guilt dominating his feelings. And so easily Song Shea's illusion caught his attention.
The more Yong Yan advanced then the more Song Shea retreated and moved away as if unwilling to be reached. Yong Yan instantly felt fear.
" Don't go, let me take care of you to mend our relationship that has been ruined because of my mistake. I'm begging you?" Yong Yan hysterically himself was like a madman who kept shouting mentioning his regret that was tucked into Song Shea's name in each of his words.
Yong Yan stumbled to a fall, at which point his sanity returned. Yong Yan had remembered all that Song Shea had long since died even now he was here to look for the snow lotus for Yong Lanmei. Yong Yan immediately sat down to recover himself in order to escape the illusions of his painful past even though honestly it was his own act. After a sense of rest, he stood up and strangely the thick fog that had surrounded the place slowly reduced and did not find Song Shea in front of him who had called him. Yong Yan started to step back down the place. There was always a shadow of the past that hindered his journey, and even the face of Lu Hunan appeared in the shadow of the illusory mist. Every Yong Yan managed to fight against his past it seemed that the fog was thinning now just a little more would disappear. Yong Yan was miserably inwardly thinking this time what else would appear before him.
" father"
Yong Yan faintly heard the shrill voice of someone calling himself father. He looked to the left right but did not appear to be the person.
" father"
His voice now seems a little clear. Yong Yan spun backwards remained empty nothing.
" Display your form, don't be a coward in disguise anymore."
Yong Yan continued to nag so that the origin of the voice would show his face.
" Dad's here."
Yong Yan felt familiar with his voice then slowly turned around and it was true that Yong Lanmei had stood before him.
" This lanmei is you son"
" Why you're mean to me, never mind me. It's always indifferent when I need a father by my side"
" This lanmei isn't what you said"
" Arghhhh I hate you, no one cares about my life anymore which does not mean this even in the same trash that was thrown out because it was dirty. I'm your son not a piece of trash you can just throw away. If you don't like my presence why do you present me as your son. Why !!!"
" May....."
" Don't come any closer and don't touch me. Dad has failed and lost me forever even I haven't had time to feel his warm affection and warm embrace of dad. Now I've gone far and won't come back. In this life I suffer enough then ask me if there is a next life to put me on the parents who care and care for me. Don't want to see you again even cross each other for a moment." Looks like eyes full of sorrow again regrets in it. His eyes glazed so as to blur his vision. The real Yong Lanmei spirit appeared because of his request to speak to Yong Yan. Now the expression full of regret is continuously spoken from Yong Lanmei.
" Lanmei what do you mean, son, I'm really sorry to have ignored you all this time. I regret having been blinded by the treasure of office and honor until this regret has no end. Dad was stupid with all the father's behavior all along. However, you're right son father is not so good at parenthood never even existed when your tears accompany each of your bitter days."
" Regret is of no use right now and you know that I can't go back even if you fix the relationship for now. And it's not for me anymore but just a body without my soul?"
" What are you talking about, you're definitely healed and we'll regroup again for the next one and the next."
" I'm sorry, I couldn't be a good and useful kid all along. It's always a joke and a shame on the family. Although a lot of hatred filled my heart, my father is still my parents. I will no longer remember this hatred because I want to be free from anger and resentment. My next step is still long. I'm taking good care of you. Protect our families from the dangers that have been near even on your side. Good-bye....!"
The shadow of Yong Lanmei increasingly blurred and carried by the wind. The fog has now completely disappeared from sight. Yong Yan fell to his feet in his once terrible thoughts. Seen before him a snow lotus that shines with its bright and shiny so smooth. Yong Yan lunglai immediately took the snow lotus and immediately rushed away even though in his imagination was ringing with the words of Yong Lanmei.