HE IS ME
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Jenita Pov.

I was too confused when Alex asked me to leave so suddenly. He came to pick me up who was just done with the store's financial statements. Not that I'm not happy to see her coming. But Alex is full of mysteries for me. I was happy of course, but curious and confused I felt more domineering at the moment.

The car we were driving drove slowly. At first I didn't guess so much, just sitting still while he seemed to be finishing something like that. Because for a while I saw him busy replying either to messages or emails from his phone.

Alex is a busy man, but he is very reliable. At the beginning of our meeting everything was very complicated. I who wanted to hide my true identity turned out to be a boomerang at that time.

When he asked me to end the arranged marriage agreement that was done by eyang and Gerrick's grandfather. My heart cheered cheerfully, I thought that my life would be much better than having to deal with a begis man who had such a ruthless attitude like a polar bear. Just by looking into his eyes alone had made his body tremble. Not to mention if his mouth is open with a spout of his spicy words really makes me want it feels like to tear it apart. Of course I only dare to grumble inwardly. How could I tear him apart, if I just looked him in the eye, my body trembled.

But it all happened first. When I was still loyal to my play as Jenita. Everything changed when I got kidnapped. It never occurred to me if my life could survive until now.

Desperation had gnawed at my soul and heart back then. Even the spirit I had as Claudia, Ceo who was famously brave in acting and intelligent in thinking was lost and evaporated without a trace. All that was left was a weak Jenita, completely weak even to save herself.

God is always kind and generous.

Grandfather always said that to me until slowly the despair was gradually eroded.

Either be happy or sad. At that time the kidnapper who kidnapped me was kind to me. At that time I was just thinking about enjoying a day longer.

The miracle came when Alex came to my aid. My eyes are glaring because of the influence of sleeping pills that I always consume during the kidnapping period. At that time, I could still see her coming.

Two whole months I've had treatment. It wasn't my physique that was injured because at the time Anto was treating me so well. With aunt Su whom she assigned to take care of me and help me to clean up. Anto was also the one who often bribed me because both of my hands were ordered to be tied as well as my legs.

For ten days in captivity that always moved the place turned out to make me experience severe trauma. My psychics were so disturbed that I needed a psychologist to accompany me in the healing process.

And Alex, that guy was very important in everything I've been through. I was declared cured but I was still traumatized by the dark, narrow and stuffy room. That's why I'm so happy that Alex is always by my side.

I once thought about not constantly depending on the man. But it turns out I really can't get rid of this trauma. He's the only one who knows how I've fallen, he's the one who always pushes me back.

Alex was present bringing a new light to my life. His presence brought me a new sense of life. Life is full of passion and love.

Hehehe

I don't think I believe it, do I? we who have met since the beginning are only involved with problems and arguably will not be able to get along again when viewed from the initial incident. But it turns out that sense came to unite us.

I let the feeling grow even though I knew it wouldn't be young it might even hurt me. I just want to enjoy the time. Time where I can still be with him.

Was it my fault that I hoped? am I wrong to attribute my love and admiration to her? not everyone has the right to feel it.

I was deeply immersed in this feeling but all my efforts collapsed in an instant when the word love was uttered from his lips.

Don't ask me how I am. Of course being happy feels like a dream to me. But it's real, I have it. I have a man I love in silence. My happiness grew even more when I saw how he tried to protect me and even my mother.

The peak today. In the confusion of curiosity that I felt since the beginning of our arrival was answered already.

In a hospital in the corner of D. Mom and Alex's parents were there too. The three adults seemed to be waiting for us, especially me, because I saw Alex standing quietly beside me.

I don't want to guess much, I don't want to ask too many questions. I just fell silent following the plot they created for me. I'm sure that's a good thing because they're the best people I know.

They took me into a ward. The room looked different, very luxurious because there were some sophisticated equipment and also a spacious room with a balcony. But what caught my attention from the beginning was someone who seemed to be lying in a brangkar on the right side of the entrance to coincide with the window can also be directly opposite the door that leads to the balcony.

A man with a thin body and hands still have an infusion tube there. She turned her head towards me quietly after mom whispered something in her ear.

The look in our eyes met, for some reason my heart was beating ever faster then and there. Highlight those shady eyes staring at me glazed over. I felt confused but also did not want to turn away from that face. I feel like I know a face that looks pretty with my lips on my back trying to smile.

"Jen." Jn." It just makes my heart feel bad. My body trembled with cold sweat started to wet my body.

I saw that my mother had cried sobbing while being soothed by my future mother-in-law. I felt like everyone in this room was looking at me like I was a patient on trial.

I felt a pair of hands holding my shoulders. I flinched but I remained silent on the spot because I was very familiar with how the feeling of the hand holding me gave me strength. My eyes are still staring at my eyes the man in front of me without flinching.

"That's papa Ikbar, baby." Alex whispers my world as if it were collapsing. I shook my head in disbelief at the fate that had been playing me this whole time.

I want to be angry, I hate it but I miss it too. I don't know who I can put out all my chest tightness right now. My breath is getting heavier and the world is getting darker.

There was only Alex's warm embrace.