HI EX! Our Story is Not Finished
Chapters 17. Overthinking

..."Remembering painful memories is the quickest way to repeat a wound."...

..._Hi Ex!_...

Overthinking again, the wall of the white-painted room is still a silent witness how fragile the owner. Pillows, bolsters and blankets and dolls are there too, never absent accompany how bad a Seren. Now maybe his life is much better, but still, no one is perfect. As perfect as it may seem from outside his life, as often as possible still have problems whether complicated or mild though.

Seren remembers his father back, which daughter did not need a father figure in his life, not only that, since he was not with Farez the person he now considers to be ex, the trauma is back. Even the girl thought she would never marry. He felt he did not need any man like most adult women who dreamed of marrying a loved one, having children and living happily. For Seren, after his father's betrayal and when he believes a man like Farez who he thinks is different from his father but in fact the same makes the girl does not want to fall in love with anyone anymore. It's enough, he's too tired, he doesn't want to get hurt anymore. Although to this day Seren has not been able to forget Farez from his life.

Seren drowned his face behind his pillow, he cried out forcefully spilling all his pain. Although his head should be dizzy, his eyes should be sore, his nose reddened and made it difficult to breathe, but he did not care. There was a pain that suddenly appeared without permission, he himself did not understand what. In essence, behind his disappointment, behind his hatred, his heart longs. He misses the simple things he has been through with people in his past. With his father, and with Farez. Seren longed when his father rubbed his hair slowly when he came home from work, he also missed when his father always worried about him. Not only that, it turns out that he also misses Farez with all his little attention, with all the jokes of his laughter first.

"Why should I be this sad? Do they think of me too? Do they miss me the way I feel right now?" Seren raised his face, looking up at the ceiling.

"Gue can't cry anymore. Admit me ugly, what the fuck is this face kok kayak gini," said Seren pouting when he saw his reflection in the mirror.

His eyes swelled, his nose was completely red, even Seren's eyes were narrowed even more so as not to open due to swelling.

"My head is starting to twitch. I think I should drink Paramex deh," muttered Seren as he opened the drawers in his room, but unfortunately Seren did not find the medicine he was looking for.

"Ware, it's abis." As Seren quickly picks up his phone, the girl has to call someone to ask for help buying Paramex.

"Hello," said the person across the street who seemed to be sleeping disturbed by the sound of his voice.

"Please help me."

"Dear on, what would you like to help?"

"Giantra well, buy me Paramex dong." With a tone made as sweet as possible Seren asked for help to the person he had considered like his own brother.

Giantra clucked across there, "lo cry again?"

Seren was silent, he couldn't possibly lie. Giantra is the one who knows the most about it, because whatever it is, Seren must have told Giantra. Yes, Seren can only open up to Giantra, even thanks to the man that Seren's trauma slowly disappears. Once he was no longer with Farez he did not want to hang out with any man, until Giantra came and changed him, although he would never consider Giantra more than his brother.

"Are you my guess?" I heard a breath across there.

Seren was still silent, the drop of gaphic tears fell back. "Gian, I..."

"Cup cup Seren sweet boy, you don't cry anymore, I go straight there to bring you Paramex."

Seren turned off his phone call with Giantra. He walked into his bathroom and washed his face, he didn't want people to see him cry, lucky he had his own room, he said, so he does not have to worry if anyone knows if he is very fragile.

Afterwards, Seren exited his room. The girl walked downstairs and out of her house. Dark, no moonlight or stars decorate the night sky of Yogyakarta. Seren was sitting on a chair, he was playing his phone while waiting for Giantra. His house at that time was quiet, lived security guard at the post was seen evaporating several times. Naturally, now the clock has shown at 1 am.

The sound of the car horn makes Seren's attention distracted. Seren's security guard opened the fence when he saw the Giantra coming. Seren smiled as Giantra's car entered his yard. The man got down from the car, then without warning he hugged Seren who stood up from sitting to greet him.

"Gue doesn't like to cry, I don't like to see you get hurt because I'm also going to get hurt" Giantra said, still holding Seren.

Seren was silent, but the girl's cries sounded. Giantra let Seren cry in his arms. " You know, whenever it's when you get hurt, when you're sad, when you want to cry call me to make a hug, because I'll be happy to do it, I'll be happy to make you laugh again."

Seren slowly struck the man's body, then forced himself to escape from Giantra's embrace. "Lo mode is brash."

"However, I'm sincere, I'm serious. I never wanted to be serious."

"What the hell Gian, you digress when you say. Where's my Paramex!?" Upset Seren.

Giantra just breathed slowly, the man knew that Seren never wanted to if he had talked about anything related to feelings.

Giantra took Seren's order from his pants pocket and handed him the girl in front of him. "Lo is not tired of what to take such hard drugs. Pity your liver the same your kidneys will be damaged."

"Bodos. I'm more tired of my dizzy head." The girl opened 2 drugs from her pack.

"Heh, you want to die!?" Giantra brushed off the medicine Seren wanted to put in his mouth.

"What a demon!" Furious Seren saw 2 paramex drugs that had fallen to the floor.

"Lo moron or crazy!? You drink 2 grains so you want to die!?"

Seren of a lifetime had never seen Giantra look that angry, even the man's jaw seemed to harden with his veins clearly visible. Seren lowered his head, the girl started sobbing again. Giantra exhaled slowly, easing his emotions by clenching his hands, then he pulled Seren into his arms. He rubbed the girl's back so that Seren was calm, but instead of calm Seren was even more sobbing.

"Don't cry anymore yeah, I'm just worried about you. I don't want you why, the drug has a high dose, can be dangerous for your body."

"Ma-maafin gu-e." While reluctantly, Seren apologizes for his stupidity.

"Oh yeah, I'm sorry to be angry at you, I didn't mean to."

Seren nodded his head, then he looked at Giantra with tears still flowing, his nose getting reddened, and his eyes narrowed more and more because of the damp. "But you don't get angry anymore yeah, I."

Giantra seemed devastated to know Seren was afraid to see him angry, the man pulled Seren back into his arms. "Gue promises not to be angry anymore, as long as you do not commit stupidity that endangers yourself."

Seren said nothing, but his heart did not agree, for he could not promise, there were too many complicated things that he was dealing with and those things were most likely to make him do something that might endanger himself.