Honey For Amira
The fragility of a husband

Walk into the hospital. He walked up to the delivery room. But Farhan and his mother were not there.

Gagging around.

"Where are Farhan and mom. How come they're not here. Has Zia been moved."

Back to thinking.

"So she said, Zia was in a coma. What's possible, Farhan and mom are now in front of the ICU room."

Galih then walks into the ICU room to see her mother and sister.

"They're really there. Since when Zia was moved here yes," said Galih.

His clear Netra was still staring intently at Farhan who was currently still sitting daydreaming. Her mother also looked sad.

Without taking long, Galih approached the two men.

"Farhan, mother," said Galih.

Farhan and Bu Aminah then looked towards Galih at the same time.

"You have come home" said Bu Aminah, rising from her seat. He then approached Galih and asked her to speak.

"Will you come home?" ask Galih.

Aminah ma'am nodded.

"Yes. I want to wash the clothes of the baby who got wet."

"Why not the Farhan who was told to be holy. Why should I."

Aminah looked at Farhan. Farhan is currently in a slump. Farhan did not want to say hello to Galih. It seems like his mind is still wandering somewhere.

"Already Son. Let Farhan go first. He's still sad. From last night Farhan did not sleep and from this morning he also did not eat anything. I was afraid, Farhan was sick. If Farhan's sick, who's gonna take care of Zia."

"Patience Ma'am" said Galih while rubbing his mother's shoulder. He was even more concerned about his mother. It's old, but still repotted by Farhan.

"But if the clothes are Zia, let Farhan be the one who is holy Ma'am. Poor mother, old, still there repotted by Farhan and his wife," said Galih.

The excitement was not bearable when he saw his mother. Ms. Aminah from last night did not sleep. His eyes also looked beautiful.

He stayed up late waiting for Zia at the hospital. So too with Galih. Galih also followed tired of having to go back and forth to the hospital. Especially if he has to work during the day.

"Here you go, it's okay. This is also the responsibility of the mother as a parent. "

"Yes Mom. I know it. Who else will take care of Farhan and Zia, if not us Ma'am" said Galih.

"Yes, we're going home now, son. I'm gonna say goodbye to Farhan."

Galih.

Aminah then walked towards Farhan. He flung his body and sat down at Farhan's side.

"Farhan" said Aminah.

Farhan who was talking was silent. He didn't seem to hear his mother's words.

Aminah's mother held Farhan's shoulder.

"Farhan, you heard me not really," said Bu Aminah again.

Farhan looked to the side.

"What's wrong, ma'am?" ask Farhan.

"Don't dream on, son. You have not prayed asar. That's Galih coming home. I want to go home for a while, " said Mrs Aminah.

Farhan just nodded.

"Farhan, are you okay with mom staying?" ask Bu Aminah. Worried about Farhan's condition. Aminah was afraid that Farhan would be sick because he would not eat all day.

"I'm okay Mom. You don't have to worry about me" said Farhan to give his mother an answer.

"Sholat asar was Farhan. It's five o'clock. Ask God for forgiveness, and ask for healing for Zia and your baby with God. The one I saw, you were daydreaming."

"It's not like Farhan. Let me tell Galih to come here later. I'm tired, I'm gonna take a break. Let Galih tonight accompany you here. I'll be here tomorrow."

"Yes to Mom. Mom rest up. Looks like mom's tired too."

Aminah is smiling.

"What do you want to say, Farhan? let it be later if Galih comes here again, all brought."

"I'm gonna pull my shirt off, Mom. I also forgot to bring a change of clothes. Last night, I just brought a change of clothes for Zia."

"Yes, I go first. Assalamualaikum."

"Wa'alakiumsalam."

Aminah then left. He and Galih walk out of the hospital leaving Farhan alone.

After the departure of Bu Aminah and Galih, Farhan suddenly cried.

Hiks..hiks...

"Why God. Why did you give me this much trial. You used to give Amira a trial, now to Zia and her baby. When will this ordeal end, O Allah" said Farhan on the sidelines of his cries.

Farhan was crying in his solitude. He felt unable to accept all these trials.

"Abah kyai said. The higher one's faith, the higher the trial. Maybe God is testing my patience through all these trials. But why does it feel like I can't do this. If there was Amira, Amira would have strengthened me. But Amira no longer wants to be with me" Farhan said at length.

After the mother and Galih left, Farhan got up from his seat. After that, he went to look for musholla to carry out his obligation to pray asar.

After the prayer, Farhan returned to the ICU. He then entered the room to see the development of his wife Zia's condition.

Farhan looked around the room. Advanced tools such as breathing aids doctors have been attached to all parts of Zia's body.

Zia is now lying in a coma, Farhan does not know if his wife can wake up again or not. Because usually people are in a coma, already between life and death, the possibility of life is only a little.

Farhan shed his tears as he looked at Zia's face.

"Zia, you're strong huh. Our son is still in the baby room. He is now receiving intensive care from doctors, because our son has a heart defect, he was also born prematurely" Farhan said.

Farhan brought his body closer to the bed where Zia was lying. Farhan then grabbed Zia's hand and grasped it tightly.

"Zia, you must heal Zi. I can't take care of your own baby Zi, because I also have to work for money. If you stay like this, I feel sorry for you. Mother is old Zi, is it possible, I will tell mother to take care of our baby. You gotta wake up Zi,"

Because of his fragility, Farhan forgot everything, forgetting his knowledge as well as what he had obtained from his boarding school.

Ring ring ring...

Farhan's phone suddenly rang shocking Farhan.

Farhan reached into his pants pocket and grabbed his phone. After that, Farhan raised a call from his mother's number.

"Hello assalamualaikum,"

"Wa'alakiumsalam Farhan. I've reached Farhan's house. Have you prayed yet?"

"Udah Ma'am."

"You're still in front of the ICU, right?"

"I'm in Zia Bu's room. What's up, Mom?"

"Mom just want to keep you, you bring the Qur'an mushaf no?"

"No, ma'am."

"From you daydreaming, it would be nice for you to pay beside Zia. Let Zia be quickly healed and your heart will be much calmer, son."

"Oh yes, Mom. I can do it, njai through the hape."

"Yes, naji dong now. I want to see the old Farhan. Farhan was always strong, and always remembered God. I just want a message, don't let you stay praying, son."

"Yes Mom. I realized, as long as I was married to Zia, I felt distant from my God. Thank you, ma'am, for reminding me of njai."

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