Honor Behind the Stain
Past Times

“Pak Kaisar, tickets to Jakarta have been booked.  Are you going to the airport now.  There's still an hour to wait.”  Women wearing long-sleeved blazers with office-style skirts and headscarves wrapped around the edges inserted into the blazer were reminded.

“Ah, no.  Cancel it.”  The emperor who was walking in the corridor of the hotel stepped unsteadily without looking at the interlocutor.

“Meanway?  Would you like to cancel the ticket?”

“I didn't go.  I'm still gonna be here.  Let it sing.”

“Oh.  But tomorrow there is a meeting schedule with the CEO of Arphena Groups in Jakarta.”

“Let me call CEO Arphena, I'll take care of the meeting next time.  Oh yes, give this watch to Tomy.”  The emperor handed over the watch that Khanza had stolen.

“Good.”  The beautiful woman nodded.  It was Jihan.  He had served for three years as his assistant to the Emperor, and now he was transferred to the position of secretary.  

The Emperor entered his room shortly after swiping the card, while Jihan stepped steadily until she reached the end of the corridor.  That's where the room he's in.

There is an interesting story behind the classic relationship between the Emperor and Jihan.  They still look professional despite the many privacy stories that occur between them.  Yes, they are attached to feelings, whether it is a feeling of love, a feeling of reluctance, and so forth.

Five years ago, just when the Emperor returned to Jakarta after solving his problems in the housing complex he lived in to contract with, he decided to meet Jihan.  At that time, the Emperor was distraught, and the turmoil turned out to be the cause of Khanza.  The new emperor realized that Khanzamen left a real calamity when he returned to Jakarta.  The Emperor was eager to return with Khanza, but the woman refused him.  Then what should he be?

While his heart space for Jihan had already frozen.  

“Jihan, I can talk honestly about our relationship right?” asked the Emperor at that time, he deliberately met Jihan who was writing something in the park not far from his office.  The man sat facing Jihan.

“Yes, Mas.  Just talk.  I ready.  It's about our future, right?”

Seeing Jihan's innocent face, plus a smile that was equally innocent, made the Emperor unable to speak. Forgive the Emperor for hurting that tender heart. The Emperor would not have done this if not at the request of Jihan who wanted the struggle to find the right match.

"Jihan, we already know each other, we already understand what has happened. I'm hard at saying this. But..." The emperor had trouble expressing what was on his mind. Fear will hurt that soft heart. Ah, if the Emperor's heart were not this sensitive to women, perhaps he would not have to feel this upset.

"I know what you want to say, Emperor. You want to say that I'm not your choice, right?" said the beautiful girl with a stern look.

"This is your wish, right? So I can pray and find answers?"

"And I'm not that answer, am I?"

"It's not like you think, that I just gave a false promise and in the end left you. You know my situation is really hard. God set this path for me."

"Will Khanza come back to you?"

Here's a hard question to answer. 

"Khanza is currently unwilling to accept me, yet" the Emperor replied after a few seconds of breathing.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Not waiting, but being chased."

"You're supporting me?"

"Whatever your decision is, I support it if it's good."

Emperor remained silent. The woman before him was truly noble-hearted. 

"You must be saddened by all this" said the Emperor.

"Yes. I'm sad. But this sadness is for good. If God was pointing out that your choice was Khanza, then why should I cry? Am I not the one who asked you to seek certainty in the direction of God? From the beginning I was ready, I was ready with any decision."

"I don't know what to say for your sacrifice."

"Forget over. You have to commit to that choice if you already have a clue. Then... Have you fought for your choice?"

"I haven't spoken to Khanza yet. I can't convince him."

"If you are not sure of your choice, how can you convince others? You know God's choice is the best choice, right? So fight it." Jihan then passed away, stepping unsteadily leaving behind the Emperor who kept watching. Even the Emperor did not know that at that time Jihan's tears fell very hard.

After that incident, Jihan really tried to set the heart. He was professional at work, considering the Emperor as his superior only. They often meet in the office, of course, only for work like the boss and staff.

After that, the Emperor decided to return to the housing complex, looking for the whereabouts of Khanza. But until five years later, the Emperor had not met Khanza shortly after the description of the maid at the house Khanza who said that Khanza was not at home, he said to go to work in Medan, Medan, but in fact the traces of Khanza in Medan was not found.

Since then, the Emperor has lost half his life, flying somewhere. 

The Emperor was restless as night fell. Thinking about Khanza. 

And the years changed, the Emperor remained that way. His heart was frozen, not feeling attracted to women. I don't want to open my heart to women. And she feels cold to women.

No need to be asked how many women came to him and ventured to be his life companion, but still the Emperor was determined to be alone. Don't be surprised if the Emperor grabs the attention of many women, he's a handsome man who is well established, almost flawless. 

Although in perfection, there was less with his heart space.  The emperor is not okay. 

Five years already, everything goes with plates alone. The Emperor was preoccupied with the routine of work. And he began to pursue work without having to be bothered with the name of romance. Every day, his brain is only about work. I forgot what it was like to love a woman.

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