Hugging Longs
MR Bab's. 40

Hugging Longs

Chapters. 40

“Sorry, Oma. Something I want to say.” Sara said when Oma Widya brought her to Arga. With an anxious face Sara looked at Oma Widya and Arga alternately.

Seeing the look on Sara's face, there was an instant unpleasant feeling in Oma Widya's heart. Her premonition as a woman seemed to say that Sara might change her mind.

The other with Arga. The man looked nervous and misbehaved. The red gush on his face was clearly visible, he was embarrassed and became misbehaved when he accidentally met Sara.

“Aoa you want to tell? Incidentally, Oma also wanted to convey something to you. Oh yeah, please. You first,” said Oma Widya.

Glancing at Arga for a moment, Sara sighed softly. He had the courage to speak truth. He must take this step from the beginning in order to dispel something unwanted that might happen in the future. It is better to be disappointed now than later.

“Sorry, Oma. I've heard Oma's chat with Arga just now,” he said honestly. He overhears Oma Widya talking to Arga as she heads to the dining room. Darmi has been calling him for breakfast since. As soon as he went to the dining room, he overheard the conversation of the grandmother and granddaughter. Which brings an instant guilt in his heart, for still hiding something important.

“Oh yes? It just so happens that's what Oma wants to tell you. Oma want to know your opinion.” Oma Widya was shocked, her eyes twinkling with pleasure. Which meant that he no longer needed to convey that to Sara. Just waiting for Sara's opinion and decision.

“I want to apologize to Oma and Arga. I'm sorry if I let you guys down.”

“Loh, you mean what, son?” The face that once looked happy, now turned anxious.

And so is Arga. His face was clouded for a moment. His little heart began to guess. There was one possibility in his mind. But he did not want to assume quickly. Who knows, the assumption is wrong.

“Oma, Arga, I'm sorry. I ... I can't marry Arga.” Sara finally said it. He tried to gather that courage. Just because it was unkind to Oma Widya and Arga who had helped him a lot, he had even defied his heart. And now, he ventured to reveal it.

“But why, Son? Oma thinks you like Oma's granddaughter.”

“There's one truth I haven't told you. To be honest, I only found out about this yesterday. And I thought, I should tell this to Oma and Arga.”

“Truth? What truth again. Didn't you tell me all about your past?”

“I can't marry Arga because I'm .. because I'm still someone's wife. Danny and I are not officially divorced.”

Oma Widya was shocked, at a loss for words in an instant. He really doesn't know what to say. He just did not expect, the woman he admired was hiding something important from him. He had expected a lot of that woman. He has built his dreams for the rest of his life. That is to see the grandson happy with the woman of his choice. 

Not knowing what to say, Oma Widya chose to leave Sara. He stepped lethargicly into his private room.

“Oma, I'm sorry, Oma,” Sara said looking at the departure of Oma Widya.

But Oma Widya did not even a little memubris Sara's apology. The woman disappeared behind the door of her room that closed.

Sara and Arga are both. Which still mute each other. Silence still stretched between the two when Darmi came to put two glasses of warm milk on the dining table. Darmi who had heard Sara's words was actually surprised.

“I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.” Sara said regretfully, bowing her face deeply.

“You've eaten?” Destroyed his feelings that's for sure. But Arga did not forget his concern for Sara, even though the woman had already scratched his heart.

Sara did not answer that question. His head was still down, not daring to look at Arga's face. He realized, he had hurt Arga's feelings so deeply. As a woman, she has gone too far. He should not have given Arga hope in the first place if he still could not open his heart to the man.

“You eat first. I wanna get ready. Today I have a shoot.” Dragging his steps listlessly, Arga was about to go to his room. He really doesn't know what to say.

Arga had guessed that Sara might change her mind. And it turns out that his guess is true. He suspects that Sara may still love Danny.

Since Danny came to pick up Sara at the restaurant the other day, Arga's feelings have not calmed down. There was a sudden fear that just slipped into his heart, fear of loss. The fear kept haunting him. So this morning she took the initiative to hasten her marriage to Sara. Because he is afraid of losing. Just as he was afraid of losing both his parents first. Who died in a tragic accident.

When Oma Widya leaves the house, the same fear also haunts Arga. So that he did everything in his power and effort to find Oma Widya.

Guilt also hit Sara repeatedly. Truly he did not know himself, he had hurt the hearts of those who had helped him so much selflessly. As his apology, he thought, it might be better if he left this house.

With her eyes starting to glaze over, Sara started packing her things as she returned to her room. He no longer thought about where he would take himself. Because the most important thing for him right now is to keep Arga and Oma Widya feeling by leaving the house. Maybe with his departure, they won't get hurt again.

“Non Sara, this is Bi Darmi bringing milk and bread for Non Sara. Non Sara didn't have breakfast, did she? Aunty put it here huh?” Bi Darmi comes to bring Sara breakfast without Sara asking for it. Darmi does that because Arga once asked her to pay attention to Sara, including about her eating.

Sara stopped her activities packing clothes for a moment.

“Iya, Bi. Just put it there.” Sara assented. Darmi put the tray with a plate of sandwiches and a glass of warm milk on the dressing table. Then Darmi rushed out with a face of astonishment seeing Sara was packing her clothes into the suitcase.

Sara blew her long breath as soon as Darmi came out of her room. Again he continued his activities, packing all his clothes. His decision was unanimous to leave the house of Oma Widya. He no longer wanted to disturb their peace of life with his presence.

Sara had finished packing her clothes. The suitcase was dropped from the bed. He pulled the suitcase out of the room. But his steps stopped when Arga suddenly came. Arga stood in the doorway, as if he did not want to give him access to get out of the room.

“Where are you going? Didn't I ask you to have breakfast first?” said Arga staring at Sara sharply.

“Arga, I am so grateful for all the kindness you and Oma have done. I know I can't repay your kindness until anytime. I also know I've hurt your heart and Oma's. I have disappointed you. It would be inappropriate for me to still be in this house, while I've hurt your feelings and Oma's.

“Perhaps, with me leaving this house, I can at least slightly reduce your burden. I just don't want to keep bothering you and Oma. I don't want to be a burden to you. So, please let me go. Again I'm sorry.” After saying a long word, Sara barged out with a suitcase. Making Arga who stood in the doorway was forced to step aside to give way.

But then Arga followed Sara's steps. No, he just let the woman go. He who was about to go to the studio was shocked by Darmi. The one who came told him that Sara was going to leave the house. He had to delay her departure for a moment and wanted to keep Sara from leaving.

“Sara, wait. Please don't go, Sara. Let's talk about this first. Everything can be talked about, not just from playing away like this. Sara ..” Arga still follows Sara's steps. Arriving in the middle room, his steps must be stopped when the sound of Oma Widya is heard.

“Let him go, Arga. You don't have to hold him. Just let him go, because he no longer deserves to be in the middle of our family.”

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