I'm Loyal, I swear!!
Little Sahril

"My feeling why isn't it good? As if something was about to happen" Vani said, her ringing was clearly visible while holding something that felt twitching in her stomach.

"You calm down, Bun. Don't mind a lot, read a lot of istighfar" Jovan said.

Vani said, immediately he dhikr to ask for peace of heart.

His son continued to move around in his stomach, feeling very uncomfortable.

"Assalamualaikum.." Someone heard greeting. Apparently Tita's coming.

"Kalikumsalam, Tita. You're alone?" asked Vani, she was very happy with the presence of her best friend.

Seeing Tita's arrival, Jovan also felt very relieved. At least, he could take a moment to digest everything he had just heard this morning from Yudha.

To be honest, his feelings were also the same, he needed a moment of solitude to calm down.

"Ta, I'll take Vani for a second. I want to see Varo and Vee for a minute" Jovan said, asking for permission.

Hearing the names of his two children called, of course Vani immediately allowed without further questions.

"Yes, you look at them first. Who knows Vee is being fussy" Tita said.

"I'll go first, bun. Are you okay with me staying a while?" ask Jovan.

"Yes, it's okay, Dad. Be careful" said Vani.

Jovan went out, he walked in the direction of his heart. He's in a state of mind, his mind is tangled.

"Am I going back, let Vani find her happiness with Yudha if that's what they both want?" jovan's heart was too scary for him to live with.

"But as far as I know, Yudha has a wife. There's no way I'm giving up my wife to have another woman's husband" still muttering, Jovan just kept his feet out of nowhere.

Far enough away, Jovan's legs began to feel sore. He stopped for a moment.

Like a confused person, Jovan stood with a blank look around him.

Apparently he was under an overpass. In the slums are crammed with various humans from various corners.

A little boy crying alone. A boy of Varo's age.

Jovan, feeling sorry for approaching him, wanted to ask him about his situation.

"Hi, son. Why are you alone? And why are you crying?" ask Jovan, who was beside the boy.

But the boy still flinching, continuing his cries.

"Whose name?" jovan asked softly, hoping the boy would shut up and answer.

"My name is Sahril, um" the boy replied.

"Oh, Sahril. Why are you here alone?" ask Jovan.

"My mom kicked me out, um" she replied.

"Why?" ask Jovan again.

"I made my sister cry, my mom was mad at me" she replied.

"Where's your house?" asked Jovan, around him only a group of people who did not want to help him.

"My house is in that alley" Sahril replied pointing to a narrow and seedy alley, not looking like a permanent home building there.

It only looks like a building made of dirty plywood and corroded zinc roof.

"How old are you, why not go to school?" jovan asked, beginning to sympathize.

"My mother said I'm seven years old, I don't go to school" he replied innocently.

"Astaghfirullah, have great pity on this child" Jovan murmured in his heart.

"Your mama must be just mad at you, then surely if she's not angry anymore, she will look for you" said Jovan.

Little Sahril started to stop crying, only a small stuffing left of her mouth.

This kid is so sorry, his shirt is dirty full of patches. His face was spruce, probably because it was not treated and crying out made his face look dirtier.

"You used to throw you out, Sahril?" apparently Jovan was still curious about this little boy.

"Often, um. If you cry, I will be scolded by you" he replied.

"Where's your dad? Why would she let your mom throw you out?" ask Jovan.

"Papa does not love Sahril, if my dead papa usually love Sahril. But my now angry papa is also the same Sahril" said the little boy.

Jovan thought about his two children. "I can't leave my son. Oh my God, thank you for bringing me to this little Sahril".

Looking at Sahril's little face, Jovan reconsidered the state of his household.

"Maybe now Yudha seems to be acting affectionately towards Varo and Vee, but if only later if they were together. And Yudha had her own flesh and blood, perhaps the fate of my two sons was not much different from Sahril's".

"Both of my children will be set aside, angered by them if they act mischievously".

"Because nothing will not change in this world. Maybe if they were together later, Vani would also act like Sahril's mother".

"Oh my God, forgive me for being too stupid to protect my little family. I'm sorry for intentionally hurting my wife. I promise you, O God, I will receive both children in the womb of Vani. I'll love them like I love Varo and Vee".

The promise of a man, a father, a husband. Jovan is determined to fix himself.

To be the new Jovan, the better Jovan.

"Son, have you eaten?" ask Jovan.

Sahril shook her head, from there she was seen holding her stomach. Maybe because he was hungry.

"Let's go with you, we buy food there" Jovan asked, he saw there were food vendors near them who were sitting.

Sahril said, letting Jovan hold her hand and walk beside her.

"Om, will not be scolded by her mother?" asked Sahril innocently.

"No, son. Om even had a child like you. He's called Varo, what's your brother?" ask Jovan.

"The name is Siska, om. Siska is loved by papa, but papa does not love Sahril. Sahril is usually beaten with papa when papa is angry" said Sahril small complain of the behavior of his parents.

"Here you go, now you eat first. Eat a lot so you can grow up quickly" with a smile, Jovan allows Sahril to choose the food she likes.

There are not many menus available, there is only fried chicken, fish with red seasoning, vegetable lodeh, clear vegetables and some kinds of fried foods.

"Sahril would like to eat fried chicken, um?" ask Sahrul a little scared.

"You can choose what you like" Jovan said.

Sahril smiled, she just asked for rice with fried chicken and clear vegetables. He seemed excited while enjoying his meal.

Jovan saw it with haru, so happy this child even though only bought a piece of fried chicken.

Returning to his household's memory, Jovan prefers to keep the household's almost shaky midwife with Vani. His wife who so dear to him sincerely, wife who once betrayed him.

The wife who accidentally betrayed him. A wife that so many others love and care about. And Jovan would not allow it again if Yudha wanted to seize everything he had.

He also realized that he had betrayed Vani, by marrying Gina.

Talk about Gina, where she went. Why is there no news from him at all?

Jovan took his cell phone back, trying to contact his second wife. And still, the call was never answered. Even now, Gina's phone can no longer be contacted.

"Where are you, Gina? What happened to you?" Jovan asked softly at the wind.

"Om, can Sahril ask to be wrapped up for mom and sister? They have not eaten either. Papa hasn't come home since yesterday" said the little boy.

Jovan is stunned, even though little Sahril has been hurt. The boy was still thinking about the fate of his mother and sister.

"Why didn't your dad come home?" ask Jovan.

"Sahril does not know, papa rarely comes home" replied the little boy.

"His father was a drunkard, sir. He is rarely fed. Usually this kid begging at the red light there in the afternoon. His mother is a little crazy, his habit is just angry doang. I don't know what crazy pretending to be crazy, but if the same adek little dear" said the mother of the food seller Jovan stopped by.

Jovan was stunned, he was still very lacking in gratitude for his life. Always complaining and feeling less. But there is another life far from his day.

"Thank God, you put this foot in the right place" Jovan's heart told him to stay put this time.

"You can bring two packs for your mother and sister, Sahril. And here, make a meal tomorrow yes" said Jovan giving a hundred thousand note to Sahril.

"Thank you, hopefully om always given a lot of health and nutrition" said Sahril with sparkling eyes.

Maybe the meager money for Jovan this time, is worth a lot to Sahril and her family.

"Mom, please pack two for Sahril huh. Here's the money, all to pay for Sahril's food" Jovan paid for all the food Sahril wanted.

"Om go first huh, Sahril. You take good care of yourself, hopefully next time we meet again" Jovan said goodbye.

"Thank you" Sahril said sincerely.

Jovan again stepped foot, this time he will visit his son who is under the supervision of his mother.

Using an online motorcycle taxi, Jovan has arrived in front of her parents' house.

He deliberately did not bring his own bike, because Jovan still wanted to enjoy his solitude.

"Assalamualaikum, ma'am" Jovan said as he entered his house.

"Waalaikumsalam, son. How's your wife doing? Is everything okay?" ask Jovan's mother.

"Thank God, Vani is better, ma'am. But she complained that she was feeling anxious. Vani asked me to look at Varo and Vee. Are they okay, ma'am?" ask Jovan.

"They're fine, playing with their feet in the back. There are twins too, you don't have to worry about it" said Jovan's mother.

"Oh, I want to see them, ma'am" Jovan continued his steps behind the house, where his father and children played.

"Yeahhhh.." Vee screamed in excitement when she saw her father coming.

Soon he ran and asked his father to carry him.

"Ehm, spoiled this father's son. What else is it?" ask Jovan while kissing Vee's puffed cheek.

"Bikin rabbit cage is the same kakung" replied Vee.

"Where are the rabbits?" ask Jovan who's been watching their activities.

"So Hamza came with a rabbit, with his friend" replied Jovan's father.

A little comforted, Jovan could slightly forget the anxiety he was feeling by seeing his family gather like this.

Elsewhere, in a swathe of Yudha. Gina was still tied up with her legs and hands. He did not even get food or drink.

Yudha steadfastly let Gina be tormented. And more surprisingly, no tears of regret came out of Gina's beautiful eyelids.

As selfish as Yudha was, Gina felt that what she was doing was right.

"Please promise not to bother Vani again, I will let you go" Yudha said this afternoon, after returning from her office to visit her new captives.

"Never, I wouldn't ask for your freedom, you jerk. Cheih" with how dare Gina even spit on Yudha's face which looked at her fiercely.

Yudha wiped her face, her patience began to erode. Exhausted from seeing a woman as selfish as Gina.

"Even when I get out of here, the first thing I'm gonna do is destroy Vani's life. Because she was the one who ruined my life first" Gina still blames Vani for leaving her first.

Gina was too hopeful that Jovan would put her heart on her. While Jovan only considers Gina as a friend, nothing more.

"You are a selfless woman, Gina" Yudha sneered.

"What difference do I make to you? Are you as despicable as I am, shameless or shameless? hahahaha" ridiculed Gina no less terribly.

"Even you're more pathetic than I am, you can't get your love, you can just take it, you can just fuck it, hahaha, even Vani doesn't know anything, you don't feel it, hahaha" gina's laughter boomed in Yudha's ears.

As his emotions rose, Yudha lost control of her sanity. No need for excess energy, Yudha's hand was raised. And really broke Gina's neck.

Krak!!!

The sound of broken bones being forcefully moved by Yudha's hands.

The sound makes the teeth feel sore, but certainly not for men like Yudha and his men.

A life like Gina is worth nothing to them.

But, with the loss of Gina's life. Something bad happened to Vani's stomach.

Suddenly his stomach twitched together as Yudha's hand broke Gina's neck bones.

Vani grimaced with the turmoil in his stomach, it hurt and I don't know. Like there is skin that is forced to peel.

"Why Van?" Tita who was with Vani became a fog.

"Sick, Ta" murmured Vani.

Tita rang the bell available, and before long a nun came in haste

"What's up, Mom?" ask the nurse.

"Please, my friend is in pain. I was afraid something might happen to her son" Tita said stammeredly, she could not bear to see Vani squeezing her stomach.

"Looks like water seeping, ma'am. I called the doctor for a moment" said the nurse who came out in a hurry, even half-run.

"But it's still seven months, Van. Not yet the time of birth, how is this? What if you have to give birth?" said Tita who was anxious to see Vani's condition.

"Let me call Jovan first, yes" said Tita, who was in a hurry when she contacted Jovan.

While Vani can only endure her pain, she can only pray that her two children can be saved.

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