It Turns out There's Love
23 - STOP HOPING

"Satian"

For the sake of hearing Fariz's words, suddenly the girl's heart ached and slashed.

For some reason, the girl always felt sad and anxious whenever Fariz said a word or sentence that hinted he would leave.

Zafira froze. He lost his word. His mouth was silenced, only his eyes were straight fixed sharply staring at the man who was still crouching before him.

"Wear your shoes. I'll go home first. And I promise I will not interfere with your relationship with your future husband. You will soon be married, maybe it is time I have to mengikhlaskan.mu," Fariz said with a trembling and broken voice, holding back the pain and the wound that felt increasingly cut his heart.

If Fariz was alone in the office or in the room at this time, he might have shed tears of all the pain his heart was in.

Zafira gasped at the sentence spoken a second time by Fariz. His heart was afraid. If the friend promises not to bother him again, does that mean Fariz will leave him? Zafira became unsettled and felt that something was hitting her heart. A feeling of shock and fear engulfed him at this moment.

Fariz stood up and intended to pass from before Zafira.

"No!," Zafira cried out in alarm, leaving Fariz aghast, undoing his intention to step up.

Zafira leaned over and seemed in a hurry to put her shoes back on and immediately stood up.

"What did you say? What's wrong with you? Why are you suddenly saying and acting like this? I hate you saying this! Why are you eating with Ronald's words? Have you not always ignored his reproach or insults. Tell me! It's not true what you just said? There's no way you intend to leave me?" Zafira approached and stood right opposite Fariz.

Now the two are facing each other. Zafira looked at Fariz unblinkingly, looking for seriousness in the face of the friend for what he had just said. Fariz returned the gaze while pulling and releasing a heavy breath.

"What I said was true Zafira. This time I was serious about what I said. I now realize that all this time I have no shame. I should have been ashamed for years of expecting you but all those years I've been ignored. I already know that you already have a lover but I still continue to be near you. Ronald said I should have stayed away from you. I'm a nobody, just a friend to you. I have no right to continue with you let alone to pay you any extra attention, while I know you never thought I existed. Especially now..," Fariz's throat choked, it felt unable to continue his sentence.

Zafira was still silent waiting for Fariz's sentence to suddenly stop. The girl's eyes looked like one who was in a state of confusion. There was anxiety on his face, hinting that his heart was not okay at the moment.

"Especially you are now the future wife of people... And.., and soon to be married to the lover you love. I who do not know myself, too hope for something impossible. I don't blame Ronald completely, we've been friends for decades, but your heart hasn't changed. The present Zafira, just like the Zafira I knew decades ago, will forever consider me a friend and a brother. Now that I realize, we can't keep going like this. So from now on I promise, I won't wish you anything else." Fariz said, still staring at the girl in front of him and then casting his eyes in the other direction.

The man did not want Zafira to see the wound from the look in his eyes.

"Fariz!," Zafira pressed his voice so as not to hear people passing by.

Several pairs of pedestrian eyes look towards the young man who is now standing with a tense face. There were also several couples passing by while whispering gazing towards Zafira and Fariz, not knowing what they were talking about.

"I hate you saying this! We've been friends for a long time, you've been like Zafran. You're Fariz's brother. How could a brother possibly leave each other! I don't want to! Whichever man I choose to accompany and be my husband, that means he is the one I trust to make me happy. You should be happy to see me happy, not that you decided to stay away from me! Never make a decision like this!" Zafira said with hopeful eyes.

Fariz choked, how could he be happy to see a much loved girl have to marry and build an ark of love with another man?

If it is true that at the end of the story Zafira married Ronald, then the man's life was ruined, because all his heart and love had been given to Zafira. He also could not imagine what would happen in his life after this, once she completely decides not to care for Zafira anymore and must see the girl she loves is owned by another man.

"I don't think I can hold back all my feelings anymore Zafira. I'm gonna let you go. As long as you can be happy living with Ronald, I'm ready to let you marry him. From now on, we don't have to meet first. I'll teach my heart not to expect anything more of you. Excuse me." said Fariz last time and turned his back to his parked car about thirty meters from where they were standing.

Zafira was surprised to hear Fariz's last words. His heart became more anxious and fearful.

Zafira is after Fariz. Shoes heels with a height of seven centi makes it difficult to pursue Fariz's long and fast steps.

"Fariz! Don't go!," call him still not give up following the friend.

The man had already reached his black car and rushed into the car.

Zafira, who arrived just as Fariz was turning on the car, was still able to pat the car glass.

Zafira's eyes still had time to catch faintly from behind the storm glass, Fariz completely ignored the call Zafira did not even turn his face in the direction of Zafira who was still outside trying to stop him.

Fariz stepped on the gas violently. The sound of the roar of the car sounded deafening echo leaving Zafira who stood dumbstruck staring at the departure of her best friend.

The girl walked back to the office with raging feelings. Sad, anxious and afraid to blend into one cracks the walls of his heart and soul.

While in the car, Fariz was unable to hold back tears. The man wanted to vent all the feelings that had destroyed him. He held back his eyes from crying, but he was unable to hold them anymore.

The man hit the steering wheel hard repeatedly. He did not feel if the hand was sick or bruised, the pain in the hand was not as painful as his heart was at the moment.

This time she was crying since she was an adult. It hurts so much to have to release the girl who has been guarded and expected to be his life companion later.

All has been destroyed. His hopes and dreams had been smashed to pieces with his heart and life.

The man in the midst of the destruction was plunging gas into the house. His mind was not calm if he had to force himself to return to the office. The best way for him is to go home and lock himself in a room. It felt like he wanted to be alone and take a sleeping pill in order to sleep all the time and despite all these burdens and broken feelings.

Just like Fariz, Zafira felt the same way. He does not do any work in the office.

It had been an hour that the girl was just sitting daydreaming in her room.

His staff had brought a few piles of files to check, the girl had not touched him at all.

He was just sitting around moving. From the work chair, move to the sofa, move to a private room. Trying to lay the body on the spring bed and close the eyes to rest his feelings and thoughts are chaotic.

But it turns out that everything Zafira did was still unable to dispel the feeling of anxiety because his mind continued to be fixed on Fariz. He knew, his best friend must be very sad and hurt to hear the words of Ronald, let alone get news if he will soon marry the lover.

Zafira lifted her body from the bed and grabbed her phone and sent a WhatsApp message to the man who had left her in the parking lot.

"Fariz, are you still in the office or have you gone home?" Zafira said.

Zafira gasped, her forehead wrinkled, her feelings growing more anxious. The girl was afraid that something might happen to Fariz. Message sent by checklist.

He tried to call Fariz over the regular phone, just the same, off.

"Where are you?" his heart grew afraid.

The girl twisted her brain and the shadow of her mother Fariz's face appeared in her mind. Not waiting for long, Zafira pressured Tina's contact and tried to figure out Fariz's whereabouts.

Fortunately, the phone call was immediately answered by the recipient.

"Assalamu'alaikum aunt" Zafira said.

"Wa'alaikumsalam dear," replied Tina warmly. Tina's attitude is exactly the same as Laras, very fond of Zafira.

"Tante, is Fariz home?" asked Zafira with a pounding heart. He was afraid that if Fariz was not home, it would be his responsibility to find the man until he met.

"Dear, he came home and locked himself in his room. What was? You're making a fuss with Fariz?" the woman tried to pry for information.

Zafira's heart became relieved. Even though Fariz was angry with him now, at least he knew that Fariz was fine and did not go anywhere that could harm him.

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