It Turns out There's Love
36 - INNER WAR

Zafira went into the room, after cleaning himself and soaking briefly in the bathtub with warm water, the girl immediately prayed Isya, sitting on the mattress while leaning on the headboard.

Tired from morning to evening struggling with office work. Not only that, he still had to wrestle with all his personal affairs with Fariz which was quite draining of emotions and tears.

His entire body felt tired, needing adequate rest and sleep. But his fatigue paid off because he could make up with Fariz again. It was not in vain to do everything possible to persuade Fariz, finally, the girl's efforts bore fruit despite having to experience events that had made her hurt but it was forgotten because it had been replaced with their familiarity that had been re-established.

Zafira was very afraid if until Fariz silenced him for a long time, because all this time, his relationship with the friend was always well established, mutual understanding, mutual understanding, pay attention to each other and he does not want at the end of his free time, precisely their relationship becomes bad and does not make up.

Zafira leaned against the head of the bed holding a small pillow on her thighs. His legs are stretched forward. The eyes were glaring and hitting the corner of the room, like thinking of something.

When his mind was running around chasing with fatigue and fatigue, suddenly the shadow of Fariz's face flashed in his mind. The face just appeared to decorate the eye peluk. A face so calm, patient and loving looks seemed to be smiling at him.

Zafira blinked her eyes repeatedly while shaking her head slowly like a confused person.

"Well, what is it with me? Why is Fariz's shadow now following me? Stupid, Stupid! What's wrong with me? Fariyizz! Why do you shadow me?!," Zafira closed her eyes, wagging her wet hair so that it seemed to sway left and right, trying to cast away the shadow of the man who was still smiling at her.

After all this time of friendship, why is it that tonight he suddenly thought and imagined the face of Fariz? All this time, this kind of feeling had never existed and had never been experienced.

"Don't it be true what Fariz said? Have I fallen in love with her? Oh, no way! No way! I'm getting married to Ronald. It's a crazy feeling! I don't want to be a greedy girl. There's no way I love two men at once. No way! What would everyone say if I loved a man at the same time? How disgusting! I'm like a cheap girl! Nah! This can't be happening! It's just my hallucination because all day long it's too tired to persuade Fariz!," Zafira is at war with her own inner self trying to shake off the strange feelings that keep popping up in her.

The girl squeezed the fingers alternately full of uneasiness thinking about the now mixed feelings erratically.

His eyes looked up at the corner of the plapon, frowned, then closed his eyes tightly, his fingers continued to move a sign if he was in anxiety and confusion.

"Yes, yes, this is true. I was only affected by Fariz saying that I had fallen in love with him. You're Fariz! So nosy! You've already succeeded in doctrining my brain! Just watch out for you!," Zafira threw her little pillow into the corner of the room until it was thrown rolling on the floor.

After a long time Fariz's shadow took control of his mind, suddenly now Ronald's shadow also flashed in Zafira's mind. The girl remembered her relationship and Ronald who had been running for about eight years.

When he was in the second grade of High School, he knew Ronald as the greatest basketball player in his school. And there is no need to doubt about body posture and face. Almost perfect. Many girls in school even at other schools admire Ronald's good looks, posture and basketball skills, including Zafira.

When he first met, Zafira remembered, his heart beat was smooth and vague, just as he had felt when he hugged Fariz earlier.

"Oh my God, what I felt when I met Ronald was exactly how I felt when I hugged Fariz and heard his heartbeat. Is it true what Fariz said? Am I really in love with him? God, this isn't true, is it??? I'm getting married to Ronald soon. We are planning a wedding in the near future. This can't happen. I won't believe Fariz's words. He must have deliberately influenced my mind, deliberately doctrinated me so that I would undo my marriage plans with Ronald. Huh, she must be envious of me because I am getting married soon, while she herself let alone a future wife, no lover! I won't believe his words! Basic envy!," Zafira still continued to fight with his inner self without even believing that he had actually started to feel anything else in his heart towards Fariz.

For minutes the girl continued to fight fiercely with her inner self. The heart and mind are out of sync, in opposite directions. The heart says there is a beat of love, but the mind says it is just a hallucination. Both of them have the determination to maintain their respective desires that almost make the contents of Zafira's head become overload filled with Fariz's name and face.

While the girl was still thinking about Fariz, at the same time the cell phone lying on the bed not far from where she was sitting sounded. There's an incoming message. "Fariz".

"Have you had a warm bath? How are you doing now? Is it better? Is your body still limp?" Fariz's message as usual with his concerns that make Zafira always feel very cared for and prioritized.

Suddenly the girl smiled to get a chat from her best friend. Whether who taught or told the girl, suddenly both hands clasped the phone to the chest while smiling with glittering faces, smiling blush. Like a madman. Is it his heart or his mind that tells him to do that?

For some reason, his heart became very happy to see the name on the phone screen let alone read the content of the message that is so sweet and touching.

It was very surprising, all this time the girl always felt relaxed, it was normal that every message received from Fariz, even with a million attention given by the man for her. But this time it felt different. Unlike usual, a smile immediately puffed up from the girl's beautiful lips as she read Fariz's message.

Enthusiastically, Zafira moves the fingers pressing one button at a time on the phone. Type message.

"Alhamdulilah is much better. My body is also fresher. I took a warm bath for a while," Zafira pressed the "send" button, smiling at her lips.

"Thank God, I'm glad to hear that. Along the way to the house, I kept thinking about your situation, "Fariz's message, again made Zafira smile happily.

A smile continued to expand on the lips of the beautiful girl. His eyes continued to stare word for word written there. Reading it over and over again as if it would memorize its contents to stick it inside his head.

What a strange thing. A girl who has had a lover who she said loved and loved even in the near future will plan a wedding, can smile happily read messages from other men.

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