Laweyan Shoulder Woman
Part 186's. ATTEMPT
An awkward feeling shook Dita's mind that morning. When he tries his new life, his past comes back. However he must live life together with the past that comes to ask for an explanation.
"Tumben-tumbenan you came here, Mas?"
"Yes, I miss you."
Honesty speech from Fano's day made Dita to be surprised. However, he has more than three times rejected the presence of Fano even a proposal given by him frankly.
"Did Mas also ask Dita to propose to me again this time?"
The honesty of Fano gets the same from Dita. He also immediately said what was the burden on his mind this time. The two human children of different genres just keep stepping their feet down the road around the tea plantation.
The words of Dita were met with a warm smile from Fano, not anger or sadness.
"Why smile? Is this question I'm used to or won't answer."
"May I be honest with you?"
Dita seemed to agree. "Honestly, I don't have a problem."
"To be honest I came here with good intentions to propose to you."
"But ...."
"But don't cut my words off."
Seen the look of Fano's shady eyes turned out to be able to bewitch Dita's deepest heart. That doesn't mean he's also giving Fano a chance. His fear far exceeded the happiness that was in his heart.
Indeed, the fear of bad luck that will befall Fano later became one of the considerations of Dita to answer yes or no. But it would seem impolite if he rejected it once more.
"No, whatever the risk is I'm ready to bear, Dita. Do you always refuse to marry me just for fear of dying?"
Dita's footsteps came to a halt when Fano said that out loud. His heart became erratic as Fano stared at him intensely.
"Why is my love so great? Why?"
"Love does not need a reason but a proof. Moreover, you know that I love you so much without a reason or a lust-hunting act."
"I'm sorry, I don't think I deserve the love of Mas Fano that's so great."
Dita tried to pull his hand then for a moment then Fano actually knelt before Dita.
"If you don't want to accept my love, that's fine, as long as you're happy then I'm much happier."
"Happy without being able to have you I accept it, but if I had to be hurt because you love another man and even marry him maybe my heart would be hurt."6
"Sorry!" dita's great-grandson.
Dita's inner upheaval looks very easy to read by anyone including by Fano. So Fano asked Dita to accompany him for a walk.
Fano still did not move from where he was kneeling. The heart of who sees this. So Dita turned around and invited Fano to stand up.
"Let's stand, Mas. It's not good to be seen by others."
"Are you ashamed of my path? Am I too despicable to be with you? Until you rejected me so many times."
"You're very special and much more dignified than I am. It is precisely because I am the one who does not deserve you that I reject your proposal."