Let Me Still Love You
Feels very sick

This morning Bella woke up from her sleep. He looked around the room but no one could see him. Is it still dark, or is it he who cannot see? that's what's on his mind.

"Rey, help me! why is it so dark in here?" The first name that comes to Bella's mind is Rey, her husband.

"Rey, Mom, Chelsea, Lily, Mike, Ronald, whoever it is .. help me! why can't I see?" Bella kept shouting calling out the names of people close to her. Bella squeezed the hospital bedsheet pretty hard. Clear circles began to come out soaking the woman's smooth cheeks. Bella was still screaming while crying.

Suddenly the room lights came on. Bella closed her eyes because the room lights were so dazzling.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Bella!" There were a lot of voices saying happy birthday to her. Bella immediately opened her eyes and looked towards the origin of the sound. Bella finds her friends standing up, carrying birthday cakes and many other meals. They also wear birthday hats, Ronald and Mike carrying trumpets worthy of his little boy.

Meeka immediately walked over to Bella who was crying. This time she cried because she felt overwhelmed. Just a few seconds ago, he was terrified.

They had thought that the first name Bella would call was Rey. Because her friends know very well, how Bella loves Rey.

"Hey, why are you crying? we're just fucking you!" chelsea hugged Bella.

"Yes, Bella. We accidentally turned off the lights and closed all the windows. Otherwise, how can we make you cry? while you're not afraid of the darkness," said Lily who immediately embraced her two best friends.

Bella is not a woman who is afraid of the dark. Not like other women who are afraid of the dark. Bella loves the dark, like she loves the rain and the lightning.

"Happy birthday, Bella. Sorry we were late in saying that to you!" chelsea says.

"Yes, Bella. Happy birthday to you. Sorry too, yeah!" keep Lily.

"I'm sorry too, Bella. We usually celebrate your birthday every year" Ronald said.

"Really, Bella. I'm sorry I couldn't take care of you!" Mike chimed in.

Bella was really moved to see her friends.

"You don't have to apologize. I'm so happy that you're still remembering my birthday" Bella said.

"How can we forget your birthday? you're our best friend" said Ronald, who was embraced by his three friends.

"It's time to cut the cake!" said Mike who immediately cut the cake, and handed it to Bella.

"Does the first piece stick to the same person?" asked Chelsea who made all her focus on the cake that was being scooped by Bella.

Every year, Bella sets aside her first feed cake for Rey. Bella always hopes that one day, Rey will be present for her birthday, and wishes her a happy birthday. Bella desperately hopes that Rey will eat the first feed cake. He puts it aside every year on his birthday.

"Yes, Chelsea. That first mouthful will never change at any time" Bella said, adding a smile on her lips.

"All right! then, who will get the second bribe this year?" ask Lily.

Bella directs the cake towards Mike, and bribes him into the man's mouth.

"Well, this year Mike's getting that bribe!" lily said, looking very happy.

"Happy birthday, dear." He handed a small box to Bella. Bella was surprised to see that. Over the years, this day finally came. It was supposed to be a happy day for Bella. But why when he was hurt, the man was just being nice to him.

Bella put the plate containing the cake that was held on her to the top of the nightstand. With a little hesitation, Bella took the box, and immediately put it on the nightstand, without saying a word. His curiosity about the contents in the small box he tepis, because he did not want to make Rey think that he had forgiven her.

"Bella, here's a gift for you from me!" said Mike who immediately gave a small box also to Bella.

"Thank you, Mike." Bella smiled as she took the small box out of Mike's hand.

Unlike Rey's, this time Bella immediately opened the gift box from Mike. There was a beautiful ring inside the small box. Bella widened her eyes when she saw the gift given by Mike.

"Mike, what does this mean?" ask Bella who is a little confused.

"Of course I want to propose to you, Bella!" mike said with his innocence, which made everyone who was there look directly at him. Rey immediately threw a sharp look at her best friend.

"Hey, what do you mean? did you forget she was my wife?" said Rey while still staring intently at Mike.

"Yes already! if so, I'm waiting for Bella to be a widow!" said Mike again, who managed to make Rey clench his hands.

Rey was about to throw a punch at her best friend. But Ronald's words stopped him.

"If Bella were a widow, she wouldn't want to marry you, Mike." Ronald's words immediately made Chelsea and Lily laugh.

"You're right, Ron. Don't get tired of waiting for Bella. Once she's widowed, she won't choose you either" Lily said. They laugh back.

"You never took my side" Mike flicked his lips, which made them laugh again.

"Here you go, I'm just kidding" Ronald said, patting his best friend's shoulder.

"I was just joking about proposing to Bella, too" Mike said.

"But if she's really a widow, I'm going to go after her." Her splices again got a little blow from Rey.

"I'm not going to divorce Bella!" rey said firmly.

"Here you go, why are you talking about me being a widow? not necessarily my age to get there," Bella's words made them immediately turn to her.

"Hey, why are you talking like that? I'll try to find a spinal cord donor for you. Just relax, yeah!" Rey rubbed Bella's shoulder, but was patted by the woman.

"Really, Bella. I'll try to make you recover." Mike said that immediately made Bella smile again.

"Thank you, Mike." The second time Bella thanked Mike, but not Rey. Let alone say thank you, even Bella did not care about the man at all.

Rey's heart ached when Bella acted that way towards him. The woman who has always been cheerful. The woman who always smiled at him, however his treatment of the woman. But now, Rey doesn't seem to recognize the woman. She changed in an instant, into a cold and indifferent woman, but only to her.

"What does this feel like to be ignored? is this the pain of not being cared for by the people we love? Bella, how can she make you forgive you?I can't keep you quiet like this, Bella. It hurts me so much, my heart hurts so much, Bella." Rey muttered as she looked at Bella with a sad look.