Love, Life, and Jennifer Season II
For my son...

Back in Indonesia, with the worst feeling of my life...

It's even worse, than I felt, when I was going to see my late grandmother...

I went back to Indonesia with Clara, my beautiful cousin.

Along our way to the homeland, Clara has not stopped encouraging me, which is currently fragile again.

"Jen, Joey will be fine, okay?!"

I don't know how many hundred times, Clara said that, to motivate myself so that I don't show my weak side in front of Joey later, but...

Still is...

There is not a single mother in this world, who can easily manipulate her feelings, when looking at their baby, is facing a bad thing!

Hospitals...

This place, as if it had a terrifying aura to me...

Me and the hospital, as if having a relationship that was never good, remember...

Twice, the two lives of my loved ones, drifted where, should, lives be saved...

Mom and Dad greeted me with tears...

Let alone to make me strong, even they themselves, may not be able to make themselves strong, for this incident...

"Sorry mom, son... Sorry mama..." Isak mama inside, hugging me

"Sorry papa too, son... Papa's been negligent..."

Stuffy...

It hurts me, hearing them say that to me...

It's sad, when you find out the fact that, you're the one who should be saying it...

I immediately deciphered my embrace, with all my heart, I tried to toughen up, to say...

"Jen should have said that, ma... Had Jen not been weak, none of this would have happened... If Jen wasn't selfish, Joey wouldn't..."

"Jonathan's son's family?"

A woman's voice, stopped my speech.

That woman is approaching us now, yeah... The woman who seemed to be in her 20s, dressed as a nurse, was now smiling kindly at us

"Doctor Benny, waiting in his room, Oma same opa Joey, can go there, now?" Speak kindly

"I'll see the doctor, Sus!" My speech

The nurse looked at me, with an astonished look...

"I'm Joey's mom!" I said, making the nurse change her expression

As soon as I arrived at the doctor's room, the doctor who looked the same age as my papa, invited me to sit in the chair right in front of him.

"So, this mom, Jonathan's mom, huh?" The doctor was friendly

"Yes, doc... How's my son doing?" I said with a restless face

The doctor smiled, instead of answering my question.

"Have you seen Joey?"

The doctor's question, instantly made me moody...

I did not even have the guts to meet my son, who was currently lying weakly on the bench of the treatment room...

"How did this happen, Doc?" I said, stammering, holding back tears that could flow freely at any time

"Joey here, drink less water huh, ma'am... I've asked him directly to his son, he says he doesn't like water..."

Joey's habits are just like Young Joon's...

Young Joon is not a fan of water!

But, Joey is not his biological son, aaahhh!

Of course it can happen, given, they live together for 4 years, and habits can be infected!

"And one more thing, uuummm... You know, Joey's been treated in psychiatry, too?"

A psychiatrist? Meanin?

My son has a mental problem?

"Well, what do you mean, doc?" My forehead shriveled, when I said that

"More, for the diagnosis of this one, you will immediately ask the doctor Irma, his psychiatrist Joey, yes... Just like, Joey's mental state, it also has something to do with Joey's current illness."

What's?!

Did I not hear wrong?

Isn't Joey always cheerful, every time we make a video call?

My son never even once asked me, about our circumstances these past few months?!

So, why did Joey get assistance from psychiatry?

"Mother?" The doctor's words broke my daydream

"L-yes, doc..."

"Look, Joey's kidney failure, actually already in the category of acute kidney failure, and the solution, there must still be a hemodialysis or dialysis action..."

I always watched the words of Doctor Benny carefully, and I was stunned again, Benny said...

"Just, for Joey's blood type, in our hospital, it's very, very limited, ma'am..."

"Eh? I-i mean, doc?"

"What's the problem, doc? Just go ahead, I'm fine!" My words ensured.

The doctor sighed, as if hesitating to continue his words...

"Yummm... We only have 1 blood reserve, ma'am... And the blood type that Joey has, is a very rare blood type..."

"Then, I'm ready for my blood transfusion, doc!" I immediately interrupted the doctor's words

"Mom, Joey's blood type, it's AB negative, which can only get transfusions from the same blood type.."

The doctor's words, instantly, made my world collapse...

Obviously, I can't donate my blood to my son, because we have different blood types...

"What should I do, doc?"

Yeaaah... In the end, my tears were now flowing, along with what I said earlier...

"Joey's father must be the same blood type... We can communicate this, ma'am?" The doctor said, it made me stunned again

Aoyama!

Yeah! For my son's sake, I'll call him!

"Well, yes ma'am... Joey always said to me too, Joey was very upset with his father, who knows, by meeting his father, Joey's situation, can improve!" The nurse brought me to this room, giving a note to Benny's doctor

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In the end, though devastated, I met my son, who even with his dear face, still remained cheerful, welcoming my arrival

"I miss mommy so much!" Sickly speech

"Mommy misses you more, baby..." I said as I clenched his body, which seemed to be a bit thinner

"How are you feeling, now?" I said as cheerfully as possible

"I'm so happy! Oya, mommy! In a minute, I'm going to school, you know!"

"Really!"

"Mmmm..."

I don't know... Joey seemed to understand how I felt...

Since our meeting, he has not talked about Young Joon or Aoyama to me

"Grandmother and grandfather have enrolled me in school!"

"Wooowwm! Really?! Where, it?!" I said as I peeled the apple peel for my son

"Not far from Grandma and Grandpa's house!" He then devoured the apple that I gave him

"Have you seen that school?"

"Sure! Grandpa and grandma are including me!"

Seeing her cheerfulness like this, as if cultivating a new spirit in my heart!

My son will be healed! Yeah! I'm so sure!

"Just, mommy..." Suddenly Joey's face was gloomy, when he said that

"What's up, baby?"

Joey looked very hesitant, when he wanted to continue his words...

"Say..." I said, with a smile that I hope will make him comfortable to continue his words

"I'm afraid to burden mommy, if I say this..." He said, with a sad face

I smiled, looking at the plain face of my only way son, while gently rubbing his black hair...

"Seeing this kind of facial expression, which weighs on mommy, you know!" I said as I pinched her gnash on the cheek

Joey smiled cheerfully again, but this time...

"Mommy, when I registered my name at that school, why did they just call me 'Prince Jonathan'? Isn't my name Prince Jonathan Park?"

I almost wiped out my smile when I heard my son's words...

"Daddy said, my name is Prince Jonathan Park, because I'm Park Young Joon's son aka daddy right, mom?"

Stuffy... Pain... Be ill...

Those three flavors, as if united together, to destroy my feelings...

My eyes were really sore, holding back tears as hard as my heart

"Mommy's crying, huh? I'm sorry, mom..."

Really am... Joey's face really broke my heart...

"Mommy's eyes are exposed to apple water, baby... Oh my... It turned out to be so painful!"

Yeah... Lying...

I don't know when I'll always lie to you, son...

"By the way, are you able to speak Indonesian?"

"Yummm... Yes, a little!" Speak in indonesian

"Again, mom... At my school, I'm gonna stay in English, so... It's okay, if my Indonesian isn't so good?"

It's okay, Joey...

Do whatever you feel comfortable...

Do whatever makes you happy...

Because, your happiness, is my reason for staying in this world...