
"Depression..."
One word, that makes my soul shake violently!
And again, the cause is definitely...
L'm...
Throughout my son's life, there has always been a lot of affection from everyone, especially, Park Young Joon!
They are one, and never separate...
Until finally, the day of 'apocalypse' arrived!
Joey instead of never seeing Young Joon again, since that incident, my mom and dad told me that Young Joon visited our son several times..... I mean, son...
However, it was clearly different from what Joey had felt, when the three of us were still living together!
Joey never even asked why we were living separately to my mom and dad, and maybe that's what made him depressed!
Even the little boy who was not even 5 years old, could already bear the pain alone!
Oh God! How low I am compared to my son!
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Today, it is time for Joey to undergo hemodialysis...
Of course I feel very nervous! Very!
I am very grateful to the man who generously donated his blood to my son, moments before this process took place...
"Sister, I'm so sorry, yeah... Maybe this is the first and last time I can help Joey, because the day after tomorrow, I have to go back to Switzerland, to take care of my marriage, ummmm..." Said the girl, feeling bad
"Eh? Yeah, why?"
"I'm sure Joey will be fine! And hopefully, this is the first and last hemo process for Joey, yeah!" The girl seemed to be trying to encourage me
"I'm really grateful to you, for helping a child, who doesn't even have a blood relationship with you!" My speech
"It is my duty, as the people of God, brother!" The answer is, just before entering the hemodialysis room
Of course I should not be disappointed, at what the girl said, considering how generous the girl was, who wanted to help people who did not even have a blood relationship with her...
Aoyama!
Yeah! I'll call him!
I grabbed a phone I haven't used in months, from my sling bag.
I took a deep breath, then slowly breathed in, just before turning on my phone.
Not long after my phone turned on, there were a lot of notifications of incoming messages, and I immediately deleted all the notifications, then immediately searched for the name 'Aoyama' from my contact list.
My heart was beating violently, along with the sound of this call-to-call...
And once the call is connected...
"Jenny?"
My voice choked, as soon as I heard that voice...
It felt so bad, even just hearing his voice...
"Jenny, is that you?" Aoyama made sure to go across there
"B-i.. I-i..."
"Jenny, are you okay?" Aoyama was obviously worried about me across there...
Still am!
Still same!
Aoyama is still the same person...
Aoyama was always the one who knew about my situation, even if she only heard my voice over the phone...
"Aoyama..."
As hard as I can, I try to regulate my emotions, so that my voice does not tremble...
"Jenny? Is something bad going on?"
The shit! Hearing Aoyama's words earlier, my tears just flowed profusely, creating a heartbreaking sobbing!
"Where are you right now?"
"I-i... L'm... Aoyama... Hix... Hix... Hix... Aoyama... Can you go to Indonesia, as soon as possible?" Even my sobbing, it seems clearer than my words!
"I'll get ready now! Send me an address where I can see you as soon as possible!" Say it, then close the call.
I haven't even had time to give him a reason why he should go to Indonesia...
Oh my... I don't know what Aoyama would do, if he knew why he had to go to Indonesia?
I immediately sent him a message, the address of this hospital, and without waiting for a long time, he immediately read my message, as soon as this message was sent!
Is he waiting for a message from me?
But strangely, if Aoyama did not contact me directly to ask, why did I send him a hospital address?
And, as for how Aoyama will behave, if he knows the reason why I asked him to come, let it be my business...
It's okay if later he'll curse or rebuke me, because... I just want my son back as he was...