Love, Life, and Jennifer Season II
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I've decided very carefully, about my decision...
Yeah! I will take away all my pain, left behind by the people I love most, on this earth...
And I, will live far from the things that will make me always imagine about my sweet memories with my son just way...
Let it...
Although this decision may have a negative impact on my family, even myself, but... Am I not entitled to a choice for my life?!
"Let's just end our relationship..." I said to Young Joon
His smile that was originally as crisp, suddenly vanished from his handsome face.
All eyes are now looking at me in wonder
"Jenny, what the hell are you talking about, son!" Papa said as if in disbelief
I turned to look at Papa, then smiled, then grabbed both of his hands.
"Pa, sorryin Jen, who just dared to be frankly the same papa, now..." I said, then bowed
"Jen is with Young Joon, actually divorced..." I said, then looked back at my father's face
Papa nodded, as if he could not believe my words
"Jenny, but we've done a blessing in Germany..."
"Young Joon..." I turned back to Young Joon
"That blessing, it doesn't have any meaning!"
"Blessing, keep blessing, boy! Whatever it is, you're still a couple! You promised before God..."
"God can't accept my request, pa! Do I still have to keep my promise to God?!" I immediately interrupted papa's words
Everyone who was in this room, seemed to have run out of words, seeing this attitude of mine
"Jennys... Think about what you say..."
"I've thought this through carefully, Brother Victor!"
"My decision was already round, and I, it took me a while to heal myself, so..."
"I beg you, this time, please respect my decision! Excuse me now!" I then rushed from the room
Just as I was about to open my room door, Young Joon immediately grabbed my arm, and made me face towards him
"What does all this mean?" Resentfully
I immediately threw out his hand, but Young Joon now turns to grab both shoulders
"Listen, Jenny! Please, stop doing things out of bounds! It's been really..."
"Really what?! Completely insane?! Yeah! I have lost my sanity! I've even lost myself since..."
"YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO LOST JOEY!!!" Young Joon said with emotion, shaking my body
Young Joon shed tears...
His face was flushed red, as if he wanted to release all the anger that had long been pent up
"I almost went crazy when I had to face the fact that my son had to leave for good from my life... Seeing my wife's condition getting worse and worse!"
Young Joon started sobbing, his eyes were in tremendous pain...
Seeing it like this, made me recall our memories, when we were together...
And the pain, it's coming back inside the recesses of my soul...
"Then, just get rid of all your pain, and get yourself out of the shackles of this pain!" My words then took both of his hands off my shoulders, and immediately left the man just like that...
I started crying, just after locking my door...
Yeah!
Even just looking at his bead, it was able to open a wound that had not even healed until now!
I don't know what will happen if I go back to living with him...
Perhaps, my life will always be filled with tears, because the shadow of the memories of Joey, will always color my days...
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Lauterbrunnen, Bern, Switzerland
Right now I'm looking at the beauty of Staubbach Falls...
For almost 5 months in Switzerland, I do not know how many times I visited this waterfall...
This place seems to have magical power, which keeps calling me so that I always visit it again and again...
I went back to capturing some pictures, to capture them through the lens of my camera, yeah... Although actually some objects, even I have shot repeatedly...
As is my custom, I always look back at my camera shots.
And some of the objects that I shot repeatedly, from the moment I first came here, I'd place them in each of the different folders, according to the time, and the object itself, inside my laptop...
Now I'm staring at one of the objects I've been shooting at repeatedly, almost five months ago...
A big tree...
It's probably tens, maybe hundreds of years old, I don't know!
At first glance, nothing had changed from the tree, from the first time I aimed at it, but... If you look carefully, the first time the tree I shot through the lens of my camera, the leaves on the tree, it looks dry, and a lot of falling...
Even the branches, looked weathered, as if they were eaten of age...
And when I looked back at the object, but with a different time span, until the last time I caught a picture of the tree, which is today...
There was a very noticeable change to the tree!
The leaves that previously looked dry, now back green...
Even the fragile branches, which had previously been seen to be very clear, had now changed with new young branches, and looked fresher...
I thought, even for almost five months, there had been a lot of changes to the tree, and what about me?
My mind drifted back to what happened almost five months ago...
The incident where I finally decided to go to this place...
How I, who was fragile at that time, with determination that came out of nowhere, could courageously make such a courageous decision!
Starting a new life in a country I've never even been to, with a culture and language I barely understand, is a real challenge for me, but...
Since this was my decision, I was finally able to learn a lesson!
The decision you have made, is a responsibility you must shoulder forever!
Yeah!
This is who I am now...
Jennifer Elizabeth Lie, 33-year-old single woman, who has shed almost her entire past...
Single women, who have erased almost part of her bad memories, and... Single woman, who has re-opened a new chapter in her life...