Love of Ordinary People
72. Tried it

Along the way home from the clinic doctor Clara Syaqina more silent even the atmosphere was very quiet because Shaka seemed to know if his wife was upset with him

" are you angry ?"

said Shaka who could not stand the silence,

" not that "

" why keep quiet "

" it's okay - what "

Srttts

Shaka brakes his car suddenly to make Syaqina surprised

" what are you - what the hell is playing suddenly like that "

actually Shaka has taken the left lane from earlier because he runs his car slowly since he found out his wife was sulking

" i don't like seeing you pout the most"

" i'm fine - just a little bit of a sprain you're too much, too much, I'm used to fussing like that myself after all I'm more understanding because all this time I've been living alone, frankly I'm not comfortable with your overprotective attitude "

" so you're not comfortable with my worries like this ? I'm sorry I'm just trying to be a husband and father on standby for you and our baby-to-be"

" yes now that we're home, I'm tired of getting some rest"

" really tired ? not because I'm still angry ?"

" i'm tired of resting"

" yes, we go home now"

# Shakina POV#

Honestly, I do not know to be happy, cool or sad.I myself do not know with my mood since last night, I was happy when my baby was born two did not lose his biological father, he said, but on the other hand my heart is still hard to forgive Shaka's mistakes

I'm confused honestly I'm not comfortable with all Shaka's exaggerated attitude towards me I feel uncomfortable and uncomfortable with all that, and one of my biggest problems is how I can deal with my friends in the office tomorrow, especially with Ryan how I should explain to him later when we meet.

If I stopped working how could I possibly depend my life on Shaka even though I knew it was his responsibility, but I would not return to that house before my heart could really accept Shaka.

My guilt will always arise when I enjoy all the living facilities given by the Shaka family while he who has made my father die, I feel I have exchanged my father's life for all the luxuries in the Darmawan Mahantara family, I am very guilty of this.

# POV OFF

" don't have to buy fruit, and I still have milk "

" yes but it's good you don't just drink one taste just so as not to get bored "

" no need, I quite like the taste I used to drink"

" okay.alright if that's what you want, now I'll just go home, sorry if I arrived - arrived with an inconvenience for you, I just want to make amends for what I did to you and our baby, and to your father, I know you can't forgive me yet, you accepted me next to you last night because you felt bad for Papa and Mama, I know that you haven't been able to forgive me, maybe even my mistakes can't be forgiven. but I'm gonna try to get sorry for that, because I didn't do it on purpose"

" you did not intentionally, but you deliberately lied to me. If you were honest then maybe I would not feel this stupid"

" because I'm too afraid of losing you, especially after we get married I really don't want to lose you, I know how I kept you wrong, I'm sorry "

" i am indeed the most foolish woman so easily to believe in a stranger who offers a million kindnesses, even I easily give my pride to someone I do not yet believe that this heart loves him, he said, to be honest when I knew I was pregnant I was so devastated and angry why there had to be her in my womb whereas I was not yet ready by birth my heart is still so hurt by your lies, while I have to accept the fact that your seeds have grown in my womb"

without a word - Shaka pulled Syaqina's body in his arms his tears broke like a broken heart, there was clearly a sense of regret and guilt in the eyes of the man who now looked so thin.

" i'm sorry Syaqina, I am indeed not a good man I can only trouble you and make you suffer, I promise I will redeem him with all my life to make you happy "

Syaqina was still speechless with all the regrets and tears of Shaka at this time,

" i'm sorry if I'm being too selfish "

" i understand, if I were in position you would have done the same thing, now let me make up for everything your departure for five months is enough to torment you, where at any moment my guilt continues to terrorize me like a ghost, I can't even stand to imagine your suffering living alone in a state of pregnancy, must be the weight of the burden that you have to bear, not to mention the views of people out there you are pregnant without your husband, and even you have to work under these conditions."

Shaka let out a long sigh occasionally wiping away her tears that had already flooded her cheeks

" Shaqina Azzahra will you give me a chance to make amends for the mistakes I've made against you and our baby all this time, if it's not for you then I will do it for our child, I know he's present when we haven't.there's a feeling of love spoken, but I know he is present as evidence of the love between us that God has given us to love each other and raise the child with the love we both have "

" Mad.. "

syaqina has not had time to continue her mouth has been cupped with Shaka lips that***** natural pink lips that gently

" whatever your decision will be, I'll be with you, but for now let me fulfill my responsibility to you and to our baby, today we move into our house that I've been traveling for a long time if you get married I'll take you to live in that house, although not as red and luxurious as the house of Papa and Mama but it's all the results of his own efforts"

"do you mind not failing in a narrow contract and no sir-what is it ?"

" i don't mind, though, but let me take responsibility for you to give a decent life does not mean that your place has not been decent but it would be better if for your current condition you are facilitated with the facilities that you have ada, I'm sorry if you don't like my statement "

Syaqina seemed to think for a moment trying to digest every word Shaka said towards her, she said, although his heart cannot forgive but he knows that Shaka sincerely apologizes and tries to be responsible for himself and also the baby in his birth. and again he did not want to make the news worse last night about his existence as the daughter-in-law of the Darmawan Mahantara family is enough to make the family name Darmawan Mahantara into a heated discussion of many pros and cons that are not small corner the famous columnar family.

That is what made him rethink to take the path of peace by agreeing to Shaka's request to live together and occupy the house that Shaka had prepared for him, although his heart is still stuck to be able to forgive but for now it is not the most important thing for him. however, the Darmawan Mahantara family has been very good to him, which is only from among ordinary people who do not have a throne, let alone property.