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Chapters 15. Not ready to lose

**It turns out I'm not ready to lose you yet, unable to get away from you that is still always in my heart. God please enable me to forget him, all the stories about him that make me always remember the love that I once lived.

@StevanPasian**

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Kimara POVs.

Dad's body was brought home using Ambulance, in the ambulance there was Mey and Mom. While I was in a car with Nickho, I actually wanted to ride the Ambulance with Mom, but Ka Nickho insisted on banning me.

Arriving home, there are already many neighbors who welcome in front of the house.

I came down with a blank look. My world really collapsed in an instant. The buildings I had painstakingly built with Dad, were now crumbling and flattening with the ground.

I looked back at Dad's face. God feels so sick, I can't even cry anymore. My body really felt tired, mostly crying made the energy in my body thin.

"Ra, the strong one". Nickho held my hand. The man has been faithful to accompany me since I was hospitalized.

I didn't answer, nor did my gaze turn to Dad. My heart ached, I tried hard to convince myself that all this was just a dream but everything was real not a dream.

"Hiks, Son". Mom hugged me. This middle-aged woman who has given birth to me looks so fragile and tired. Even Mom's eyes have swelled.

Naturally Mother is hysterical, how not to get hurt when the lover leaves for good? Even without a goodbye or a goodbye.

I looked at Brother Roger with his calm face, I hate that man so much. The big brother I was supposed to be leaning on was just holding the weight I was carrying.

Whether born as a human being what Brother Roger was his heart was so hard as a rock. Is he sorry about Dad's death? I don't think so, maybe he's grateful that the old man he always hit has now gone on forever.

I hugged Father's body again, kissed his forehead and face for the last time.

"*Happy Dad, sorry for not being able to make you happy. Dad is the best Dad for Ara. Sorry to always make you sad all your life, Ara loves you. Ara promises to take care of Mom and Mey as best she can as you look after them. Honestly Well Ara can not let Dad go, Ara miss Daddy. Ara wants to eat Dad again, Ara wants to go to the office with Ara. Ara misses everything about Dad, Dad's disappointment, Dad's advice and everything that's inside him. Now there is no place for Ara to complain and tell stories, and now Ara has to fight alone and now Ara's responsibility is getting bigger Dad. Do you know? The tummy from yesterday's operation was draining pus and blood from Yah, but Ara was trying hard to fight him and Ara didn't want to look weak because Ara didn't want Dad to be sad and Dad was the reason Ara was strong, and I didn't want to be sad, but now that Ara's alone Dad, wake up Yah hikssss". I could only empathize inwardly let out all the emotions that were blowing my chest.

"If yesterday was the last time we had breakfast together, Ara would have fed Dad even though Ara knew Dad would have refused. If only Ara knew, if yesterday was the last time the bond with Dad, Ara would definitely take Ara for a walk around enjoying the slowly disappearing Surya. If only Ara knew, if yesterday the last time we spoke then Ara would tell all the complaints that Ara is currently feeling. Forgive Ara Well, hikssss". My tears were breaking, hugging and shaking Dad. I don't care anymore about other people's loving gaze on me, they won't understand what I feel*.

"Bec". Brother Nickho stroked my shoulder so that I would no longer cry "Patience". The word came out of his lips. I did not budge at all, at this time my world was destroyed black and dark no more light I got from the dark path I passed

"Sir Ara, hikssss". Mey hugged me. This 15-year-old girl cried so much in my arms, that it made me cramped and made the scar of the operation hurt so much. If only Mey knew that this hugging made my body numb.

"We have to be sincere Mey. I'm calm there". I convinced my sister. I would never be sincere when I talk about loss.

Dad's body was taken to the Public Cemetery, in the middle of town. I walked with the servant, while my shoulders were embraced by Brother Nickho. Mey and Mom walked in front of each other and Roger's brother took Dad's coffin with him. Maybe Brother Roger felt like he lost Father, but it wasn't too late.

At the funeral, Dad's coffin was reopened before being put into the ground that had been dug up by Funeral officials.

I crouched down to reach Father's face, stroked that gentle face one last time and after this this this face would completely disappear from my eyes.

"Good way Dad, see you in your second life". I tried to smile at the end of the wound.

Father's coffin was put to the ground, and at that time I cried hysterically, even though I had promised to be strong and sincere but in fact I was the one who broke the promise.

"Dad". My yelling.

"Dad". Shouted Mey.

"Dad". Shouting Mother.

And the screaming led Dad's coffin into the ground. The cold lands wrapped Father, hugged him tightly and even blocked my eyes.

I swear by heaven and earth, I am really not ready to lose. I wouldn't be able to live without Dad, somehow the story of my life after this. Whether I can survive or give up on the situation.

All the memories with Dad are still stuck here, but I'm gone and I'm not coming back. I kept crying, until my eyes swelled up and no longer cared about my body condition.

If crying can make the dead live again, the lost appear again and the departed come back. So I want to cry, no matter the tears that dry up, I want her back.

The most painful longing is to miss someone who is gone. No matter how long you cry calling her name to get her back, no matter how great your tears echo she won't hear. Because he'll never come back even if he's the best five hundred million times and even waited hundreds of years.

**Connected............

Eternal farewell is death, no matter how great the office you sit in, how much money you have and no one will be able to avoid it.

Warm regards.

Kimara & Kayhan**