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Chapter 33. Dear Brother Ara

Longing is about a sense that is not fused, separated by the distance of space and time. What if you miss someone who is gone? basically it hurts the chest and crushes the whole body, because it won't find a meeting point even if the world flips five hundred million times and even waits for hundreds of years.

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Kimara POVs.

Destiny likes to joke with me. Does he know that this body is like there is no life? Fate likes to play tricks on me, but I never play games in respecting destiny. But fate always ransacked my increasingly violent life.

In the same month and same year, I lost three people at once in my life. I don't want to live, can I? Why not the one God took?

I want to rebel and be angry with God, but what right do I have? Did not the Lord take His and His, I am only a man who is allowed to have only a moment. But why did it hurt this much when God took His own.

If crying can bring the dead back to life, then I want to cry for a long time so that those who have gone back in my arms. In fact, I've been crying for days without pause, until my eyes are swollen. But still I don't see them in front of me anymore.

What is the purpose of God giving birth to me in this world? If it just makes me alone. To whom else does this heart complain? To whom else would this heart cry out in pain? The fact of losing hurts more than anything. Don't you know God, that I want to die too? Why didn't God take my life.

I stared at the three gravestones in front of me, the fragrant flowers still smelling out in my face, the ground that was still wet if stepped on. Three gravestones that I know so well by name, even those names are listed in the important people of my life. However, look now they just left without saying goodbye.

"Dad, Mom, Mey". Lirihku fell in front of the three eating it. God, why did I lose so fast? What is my fault with you?

"I'm sorry Ara, hikssss". My tears broke again and again. After what I sacrificed with my life, I lost it when all my sacrifices began.

I felt a warm swipe on my shoulder. The instantaneous swipe made my emotions subside. I looked at the face of that rub.

"Sir, hikssss". My fists. The man pulled me in his arms. My bare hands were coiled around in her stocky body, for some reason this hug I really needed at all times. It feels like this hug makes me a little strong.

"You can be darling". Sometimes he peeps at the end of my head. I can't believe this guy's the most comfortable place for me to lean.

Right now, I'm sitting on Mey's bed. We are different rooms. I looked at the photos attached to the walls of Mey's room, some of them were hanging pinned to the dim lights belonging to Mey.

"Hiks hyks hyx". I covered my face, crying. Am I capable of living my own life.

Roger's brother is back in prison. I could see on my brother's handsome face that he was devastated, just like me. I can see Roger's brother is staying but the punishment given has not been completed.

Mr. Kayhan, the man is back in the company. Actually he wanted to accompany me but insisted on rejecting it, because I wanted to be alone.

I opened Mey's desk drawer, all the textbooks and some other modules were still neatly arranged on Mey's desk. God, it feels like Mey's not gone yet why do I feel her presence?

I found a plain white envelope, the front of which was written "Dear Kak Ara" I opened it with a curious look that burst into my chest.

*Dear dear Brother Ara.

Previously Mey wanted to say a big apology to Brother Ara. Excuse me. Sorry for making you sad and guilty. Sorry for everything. Brother Ara, is the best brother for Mey. Perhaps Brother Ara was surprised, why Mey was suddenly angry and blamed Brother for the death of Father and Mother. Sorry Brother, Mey did not mean to make Brother hurt know that Brother, Mey loves Brother very much, very dear. After Mey found out about Mey's illness and Mey's femininity issues, it felt like Mey was really fragile, Mey wanted to tell Sister everything. But Mey was afraid that it would make Big Brother even more hurt, let alone that we just lost Mother. Mey always held the pain in front of Brother, because Mey did not add to the burden Kak. Sorry Brother, when Mey chose to pretend to hate the same Sister, it was so that when Mey left Brother did not feel lost because Mey sure Big Brother must have ilfeel with Mey's attitude. Forgive Mey Brother. Mey is injured when she sees Brother crying, Mey is injured when she sees pain and Mey can not do anything coupled with Mey's condition is also declining. Mey had long hidden Mey's illness to Brother, Father, Mother and Brother Roger because Mey didn't want it if you knew, you'd be worried and panicked. Brother, Mey's evil sister, isn't she the same brother? Sorry, that's all Mey can say. Mey was actually unable to when snapping at Brother, especially when Mey asked for money from Brother, because Mey herself knew what kind of condition Brother was in. But only Mey can do to hate Mey and when Mey goes Big Brother won't keep thinking about Mey. But Mey wrong Sister, Brother is the best brother no matter how evil Mey is to Brother, Brother still loves Mey sincerely and does not grudge at all in the heart of Brother to Mey, once again sorry Brother. Mey didn't actually mean to write this letter to Big Brother, but Mey had no choice just this way Mey could say an apology and a word of thanks, she said, because I've been the best big brother to Mey. Take good care, Brother, send greetings to Brother Roger. Mey hopes someday that happiness will approach people as good as Big Brother. Mey is also sure, God has laid down life for Brother. Don't beat yourself up for too long and dissolve into grief, Mey knows this is all heavy for Big Brother but Mey is sure Big Brother can, because of the strong woman. Thank you Brother, Mey loves Brother"

From the dear ones.

MEYRISKA FERARER*

My chest felt tight, many times I hit my chest so that air could enter. God, why is it like this?

What kind of brother do I not know the suffering of his sister?. I think Mey really hates and blames me, and it turns out that Mey is hiding her illness.

I fell on the floor of Mey's room, hugging the letter Mey wrote to me. Crying out great.

"MY". My screams echoed. I shook my head in disbelief, I even convinced myself many times that this was just a dream, but why didn't I wake up?.

At night, I was still sitting limp. My eyes were empty, I could no longer cry, my tears were gone.

I hope they are the best gift God has given me, and when they leave there is nothing to forgive. But I always wish they'd come back and tell me they can't get away from me. However, the truth is that what they found there was sadness and bitterness, it hurt me a lot and I was so jealous they could be happy without me. I still lament in sadness and loneliness all the time.

There will be no one to welcome me when I get home, no one to prepare breakfast at dinner table, no one to nag me when I sleep late at night.

I have to start getting used to it without a good night and a good morning from them. Now, that empty space is already unfilled there is only me and the crying that echoes.

I know they're there, and far away I want them back. Everyone thinks that I've gone crazy, but they don't understand how painful it is to lose. Because the Dad, Mom and Mey I have are gone for good.

At night I sat near my room, and stared at the stars in the sky and the moonlight that illuminated the night. I spoke to the moon, and wished the moon to give them my greetings, and wished them to return that they also missed me.

I enjoy this pain, no! I can't keep going like this I have to start a new life and move on with the dreams that were delayed.

**Connected....

Warm regards.

Kayhan & Kimara**.