Marriage plunged me into THE NIGHT WORLD
Sharing a bitter experience

we arrived at the apartment lobby.

grandpa helped give his shoulder to my head as he was about to walk from the lobby to the apartment.

when the door of the apartment arrived open the servant's mother immediately approached us, the servant's mother was a little surprised why we came home so quickly and saw my eyes reddened and limp.

"why grandfather.." asked the mother but the grandfather did not answer and instead asked the servant mother to help me to my room.

"bus please help change virgin clothes..

I'll be out soon there is an important business that arrives I have to take care of.ok.." grandfather went straight out of the virgin's room and went back away with his aide,

I don't know what kind of sudden business to finish, all I know is that my grandfather just left.

"why sihh ndok...??

how sad, continue to limp gini ndok?

the story is the same as my mother's ndok." asked the servant mother to me.

I cried even more when the servant's mother asked.

"lo. lo..lo.kok getting cry lo ndok..

here's the same mother.."the servant's mother hugged me tightly and put my head on her shoulders.

"just the same story as ibuk ndok.do not be ashamed or afraid in some book.

mother also has a dark past, so do not be ashamed.we are the same story of our past yok..

hows it?? but because now you are sad again need a friend to vent.so your story needs to be heard now." said the servant mother to me encouraging me.

right now I really want to expose my heart and my story to the right people to keep secrets.

I began to open up the story and tell all my disgrace.

"mother.dara is no longer a virgin..

my chastity has been taken away by my grandfather.

all that happened starting from the arranged marriage that has been planned by the mother of virgin bu.ibu promised a road to kuala lumpur I was very happy to hear it, she said, but when I got there my mother set me up with my grandfather even planned the right time to take my chastity..

at that time there was a friend's party grandfather, ..datuk gave me a glass of orange juice that turned out in the drink had been mixed so that the virgin was not aware of what was happening,..

arrived already morning virgin already with grandfather in one of the hotels with no clothes on the body of the virgin just coated with a thick white blanket."

I said it with a choking cry.

"ndock..

you still mending only virginity and grateful grandfather responsibility kok for his actions, his,

grandpa loves you too much..

even she gives you all the luxury and the grandfather also gives you the right as a wife.

so why should you be sad and cry again??? the advice and comfort of the maidservant to me but I still cried so hard that I choked.

"the problem is now the shame of mom..

every time I meet a schoolmate, my best friend's girlfriend, my neighbor's daughter..

even the scorn of people who do not know what about virgin life..

dara is not strong mom live it..

not just once but every time out with the grandfather..

dara had to accept the sneer.

dara also does not feel like at all grandfather..

what should you do mom??

dara also has no friends to confide in..

perhaps in the eyes of the servant mother I was a materially fortunate woman,

but I was heartily tormented.

"already..

here here ndok.peluk ibuk..

let's just say I'm your mother..

if possible, you can only say that you are trying to toughen up and trying to open your heart to your grandfather..

because I think only age disputes that make you tortured..

luxury has been given to you..

to be happy there may be a price that must be paid ndok.perhaps the sneer is the price you have to pay and receive.

so we have to be strong..

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you know not ndok.du used to live her life is very difficult.until now I do not know who my father and mother..

mother's life used to be as a paid woman, in a hug, in a different man's gang it is common in front of people .

sneer ???

it's mother's food every day, even the mother had to deal with the wife of the striped nose..

but mom stays strong, right??

until the mother becomes old as it is now, so that no more striped nose men who want to make the mother.Possibly in because the mother is old, the mother is old,no longer able to serve the striped nose with satisfaction.

I regretted why I never saved for my old age..

but maybe because the money is made from illegal money then quickly come and go.

now mom is very difficult without leaving a penny of savings..

fortunately, there are grandfathers who still want to hire mothers in this apartment..

otherwise you might have been a scavenger in the streets, and we wouldn't have met as we are today..

now the most valuable mother's treasure is only left 1 beautiful daughter is a mother's son whose own mother does not know who the father is..

but.maybe this is the old way of life in Destiny is God for mother.." the servant mother told me her dark life while stroking my hair in her arms.

I don't know why I feel calm and relieved.

maybe the sincerity of this mother's heart makes comfort when in her embrace.

"thank you so much mom for the hugs and the motivation is easy to live this life in this marriage matchmaking." I said with a choking sedat in the arms of the servant mother.

"lo.why easy ndok facilities..

try to be determined if you are strong to live it.." the servant's mother is like my biological mother who gives me advice gently.

unlike my mother who was rough and coercive even like selling me.

"thank you for wanting to be a friend, a mother, and a friend..

I will remember you." I said in my heart.

the servant mother kept stroking my hair elus lovingly until I fell asleep, probably due to tired crying.

slowly the servant mother took off her hand and put me to sleep on my bed and left my room.

I really rest until morning.

I don't know what happened after confiding in the servant's mother, which I know I fell asleep very well.

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